After all the hate you went through, the moments where you were broken, you polished out nice. You survived everything that was thrown at you. You got through everything you didn't think you could get through. After all the setbacks, you still made a way. You have tough skin and you know some things took a while to get through, but you got through it. You came out on the other side as a better person.

People didn't like that I spoke my mind and that I meant what I said and I wasn't going to take back what I said. If you don't like what I have to say, then don't ask for my advice. You play the two-sided game. I don't beat around the bush and I don't sugarcoat anything. I will be real with you, I won't be fake. I can't stand someone fake or someone who hides behind a mask.

There were a lot of people that were afraid to face me. I wasn’t a scary person, I just hated drama and lying. People would say I would walk with a bitch face, but I was never angry, it's really hard to make me angry. What makes me angry is when you lie to me, That’s what makes me angry. Just tell the truth, stop beating around the bush. It’s not that hard. I would rather be told the truth, it may hurt a little bit, but it’s better than being lied to.If something comes up, tell me, instead of ghosting me. That’s all I ask, the truth is better than lies, it saves time and the hassle of coming up with another lie.

Class reunion to me seemed pointless, all of us have moved on with our lives. It’s like bringing the past back, memories you would rather forget then remember. I am thankful for my past, I have learned a lot and I have grown, but I don’t need a reminder of my mistakes. I had good moments and even in the bad moments there is still good, you just have to find it. The class reunion for me will never happen. I am thankful for everyone, for all of the support but I want to continue moving forward not backwards.

Yes I have my three brothers, My dad’s side of the family and my husband’s family, but nothing will ever feel the same. The feeling of aloneness runs deep. No longer having a relationship with my brother, sister and mother . What choice would I have left? Being treated like the family bank, the black sheep or the one who gets the blame for everything. I had no other choice but to leave. No one will never know truth because I will always be painted in a bad light to save their reputation. I was always good at disappearing because no one would never find me. You always have been and will be on your own. No one will ever understand why you are so independent and why you don’t ask for help. 

Don’t act like your kind, I don’t care if you’re the Superintendent or not you don’t disrespect me. I did have the highest GPA in my class and was offered the  valedictorian but I turned it down. Not only were you in college your senior year, you were taking care of your grandparents. My grandfather was sick and I didn’t think he was going to make it. Telling me this is once in a lifetime opportunity, that you may never get it again and you should reconsider your decision. No, my grandfather means more to me than a title, plus I will get it again. Your arrogant attitude and rude remarks wouldn’t be taking lightly. There is no back peddling now or taking back what you said. You said it and now you will have to live with it. I had many try to fail me or tell me I would never make it. For only for them to not only lose their license but to not be able to teach again. I’m not someone who forgets or who should be messed with. Christmas was the last holiday with my grandfather before he passed away on August 23rd, 2019. You only act kind to cover your narcissistic ways. It didn’t work now did it? 

When a person is getting ready to pass, they will have that one burst of energy. Making everyone believe they are strong and that they will be okay, but really that's when their final goodbye is happening. You don’t realize until later, when you research its common occurrence.

No one will tell you that something is wrong. Should have told me something was wrong usually won’t happen. Many don’t want you to see them sick or to see them differently due to their illness. They don’t usually tell you how bad it is, until the end. You do feel left out, but you realize later they were doing this for your own good.

The pain of someone passing away years ago, or even now will always hurt. Why it hurts is because you were close to this person. You had many good memories with this person. You don’t think about the bad memories. The bad memories don’t exist in your mind, because you want to see this person in a good light.

The piano plays no more, it used to play. Music used to fill the room and everyone was happy and singing. Now everyone is singing with a broken heart and tears in their eyes. The piano doesn’t sound the same as well as the music is a silent background to it. How can the piano be used for every event in an individual's life become quiet? The scene of grief that begins with music will always end with music.