Honestly Kristin

A few years ago, close to what would have been my twenty-fifth anniversary, I went to Rosemary Beach with six moms and our six college-bound sons for one last spring break. One night the boys played poker on the deck and the six of us sat in the living room with a bottle of wine, and the conversation drifted off the kids and onto us: our marriages, our bodies, menopause, what it would even mean to date again at this age. That's what this one is about, that night, and how rarely we let ourselves sit in a room that's about us instead of our children or our husbands. If you can't remember the last real conversation you had about your own life, and you're quietly wondering who your people actually are, come sit in that living room with us.

My ex-husband called last week to tell me I had to come off his health insurance, a promise he'd made and swore no one would ever talk him out of. Someone did, or he never meant it. That phone call is the newest version of a very old pattern: believing a person who keeps proving you shouldn't, and making yourself smaller and smaller in a marriage until you can't hear your own gut anymore. If you've got a quiet feeling that something is off and you keep talking yourself out of it because he tells you you're imagining it, this one is for you. You don't have to blow up your life to honor that feeling. You can just let it be true that you're noticing.

I cried over a website last week. Not because something tragic happened — because the page wouldn't load and I'd been at it for six hours and at some point your eyes blur and you just sit there in the kitchen at ten o'clock at night and cry. So if you came here looking for someone who has it all figured out, I'm not your girl. This episode is my introduction: who I am, what I walked away from, what I lost, and why I'm building something new in public instead of waiting until I have a prettier story to tell. If you have ever performed fine so well that nobody around you knew something was quietly wrong, this one is for you. Download The Script I Was Following at honestlykristin.com/my-story-download.