After spending time talking about prayer, it is time for Kylie to actually try to pray. She travels to the home of Rabbi Dov Yonah Korn, head of Chabad House Bowery in downtown Manhattan, for an Elul prayer experience.

Rabbi Korn leads Kylie through a meditation that forces her to contemplate what it means to really let go of control and accept imperfection. Whether she’s actually able to do that may be another story.

In this 10-part podcast, Kylie Unell, a doctoral student in Jewish thought, a thinking Jew, and a perpetually wondering person, will try anything, from doubling down on prayer to the Hasidic practice of hitbodedut, to try and fix her soul, and help you fix yours. Join her and a crew of unexpected and wise guides on this journey, a one-month journey to figuring out the hardest bits about being human.