This week on Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with a true icon — Chi Chi LaRue — for a conversation that spans four decades of gay porn history, creative evolution, and what it really means to stay relevant in an industry that never stops changing.

After stepping away from directing, Chi Chi returns behind the camera for the first time in years — and opens up about why the set has always been her “happy place.” From her early days in the 1980s working under pioneers like William Higgins to becoming one of the most influential directors in adult film, she reflects on the eras she helped shape — and the ones she helped redefine.

The episode dives deep into the evolution of performer safety, from the height of the AIDS crisis to today’s testing culture, as well as the dramatic shift from structured studio systems to creator-driven platforms. Chi Chi shares her perspective on how the rise of OnlyFans-style content has disrupted the industry — and what’s been lost along the way.

Ryan and Chi Chi also get into the art of directing itself — especially when it comes to capturing acts and fetishes outside your personal experience. For Chi Chi, it’s never been about personal preference — it’s about the visual, the chemistry, and knowing when to step back and let performers create something real.

Along the way, the conversation blends humor, chaos, and honesty — from wild on-set stories and unforgettable shoots to sobriety, survival, and the reality of building (and rebuilding) a life in this industry.

This isn’t just a conversation — it’s a rare look at the past, present, and future of porn, through the eyes of someone who helped define it.

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This week on Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with UK creator PeteLDNFF for a conversation that goes way deeper than you’d expect.

What starts as a story about discovering fisting turns into something much bigger—growth, resilience, and learning how to trust your body. Pete opens up about his early struggles, from painful setbacks and injuries to nearly giving up altogether, before finally finding his rhythm during lockdown. Like a lot of people, COVID became an unexpected turning point—but for him, it unlocked something real.

The two dive into how access to better tools, patience, and consistency completely changed Pete’s experience, and why so many people get it wrong in the beginning. There’s a candid discussion about ego, pretending to be more experienced than you are, and why that mindset can backfire fast.

They also get into the mental side of it all—body confidence, putting yourself out there, and how content creation became a way for Pete to take control of how he saw himself. Losing over 80 pounds wasn’t just physical—it was the start of a bigger transformation.

Plus: chaotic toy sessions, the reality of editing burnout, wild event stories from Europe, and why chemistry and trust matter more than anything else. Whether you’re experienced or just curious, this episode is packed with real insight, humor, and a lot of “yeah… we’ve all been there” moments.

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This week on Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with Sofftpaw for a conversation that goes far beyond a typical guest interview.

Sofftpaw is the founder of the Fist Council — a nationwide forum made up of leaders from over 35 fisting clubs and organizations. What started as a simple idea—connecting event organizers—has evolved into a powerful network focused on collaboration, education, and building safer, more sustainable spaces for the community.

The episode begins with Sofftpaw’s personal journey into fisting, from a post-pandemic “guilty pleasure” to a defining part of his life. With guidance from mentors he calls his “fisting dads,” he developed a structured, methodical approach rooted in anatomy, training, and intention—something he believes many newcomers are missing.

From there, the conversation expands into how the Fist Council was formed: not as a “shadowy organization,” but as a grassroots collaboration between organizers who wanted to share knowledge instead of compete. Together, they exchange best practices, support new club founders, and work toward creating consistent standards for safety, consent, and event production across cities.

Ryan and Sofftpaw also dive into the evolution of the modern fisting scene—from the post-COVID boom in participation to the growing visibility of fisting within larger kink spaces like IML. They explore the diversity of club models, the importance of community, and how chosen family often emerges from shared experience.

The episode closes on a deeper note, examining how kink intersects with mental health, neurodivergence, rejection sensitivity, and personal growth. At its core, this conversation isn’t just about fisting—it’s about belonging, connection, and what happens when a community learns how to build itself from the inside out.

🎙️ A thoughtful, funny, and unexpectedly emotional episode that captures a pivotal moment in the evolution of the scene.

In this episode of Brolapse, Ryan James (HungerFF) sits down with Belgian creator Pup Davey for one of the most wide-ranging and honest conversations the show has had yet.

Davey opens up about discovering fisting long before he ever saw it in porn, experimenting as a teenager and realizing early that anal stretching and depth play were going to be a major part of his sexual identity. Puppy play came later through Tumblr’s aesthetic kink culture, where a cheap hood from Amazon eventually led to a full-blown pup identity.

The conversation explores the psychology behind kink discovery, how identity evolves through community, and the role aesthetic and headspace play in puppy culture.

Davey also talks openly about his gender journey and describes himself as a “hyper femboy”, sharing what it’s been like to explore gender fluidity and start estrogen while navigating a large audience in adult content.

Other topics include:

• The difference between instinctual kink discovery and community-driven kink culture

• How exposure fetish content once became addictive and the real consequences it caused

• Toy training, depth play, and how limits evolve over time

• The reality of maintaining a massive online audience

• The changing dynamics of kink events like Darklands

• Balancing authenticity, humor, filth, and vulnerability online

It’s a conversation that moves between hilarious, chaotic, thoughtful, and deeply human moments.

As always, Brolapse aims to humanize the performers people obsess over online and show the real lives behind the content.

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In Episode 77 of Brolapse, Ryan James (HungerFF) sits down with Chicago-based creator Grayson Howell to talk about the unexpected path that led him into content creation, kink culture, and the world of fisting.

What starts as a conversation about a viral scene with Wyld Rider quickly turns into something deeper. Grayson opens up about his past working as an LGBTQ addiction counselor, the burnout that came with that career, and the moment he decided to finally take a leap and start posting adult content online.

Along the way, the two discuss body confidence, therapy, and how the bear community helped Grayson find a new sense of self. He also shares how experienced friends in Minneapolis guided him through his first fisting experience, turning what started as curiosity into a passion.

The conversation explores Chicago’s massive fetish ecosystem, long-running kink communities, IML, the rise of fisting culture in modern porn, and why mentorship and trust are central to the scene.

Grayson also breaks down his philosophy as a soft dom fisting top, including why training partners slowly, prioritizing chemistry, and emphasizing aftercare makes for the best experiences.

The result is an episode that is funny, thoughtful, and unexpectedly wholesome for a podcast about punching holes.

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In this raw and deeply personal episode of Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with one of his closest friends and former roommate, Josh Mikael, for a conversation that spans decades of history, hard truths, and unconditional love.

Josh shares his fisting origin story—one that began earlier than most—and reflects on it now with the clarity that only time and experience can bring. What starts as a wild, chaotic introduction quickly evolves into a broader conversation about consent, growth, and the reality that not every formative experience is meant to be repeated.

The two revisit the night they first met at a Leatherworks Red Hanky social in Fort Lauderdale, a moment that would lead to a lasting bond, a blown-out set of tires, and a friendship built through shared experiences, tension, and ultimately, understanding.

The heart of the episode centers on Deeper—Ryan’s memoir—and Josh’s decision to write the foreword. He explains why he felt it had to be him: someone who has loved Ryan, challenged him, called him out, and never wanted anything from him in return. The result is a foreword that doesn’t protect, doesn’t condemn, but instead tells the truth.

Together, they unpack addiction, the ripple effects it has on the people around you, and the complicated reality of loving someone who is struggling. They also dive into content culture, performer value, and why Josh drew a hard line when others didn’t—refusing to give away his image for free in an industry that often expects it.

This episode is funny, painful, reflective, and honest in a way that’s rare. It’s about friendship, accountability, survival—and the idea that telling your story might be the first step toward understanding it.

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This week on Brolapse, HungerFF sits down with Ian Greene for a long-overdue conversation that spans years of crossing paths, shared experiences, and personal evolution.

Ian opens up about his fisting origin story — from early curiosity and pushing his limits, to training his body and discovering what he was truly capable of over time. What starts as a pursuit quickly becomes something deeper: a journey rooted in patience, self-awareness, and learning to listen instead of force.

The conversation expands into body confidence, growth, and the reality behind what people see online. Ian reflects on stepping away from the industry during COVID, reconnecting with family, and how that time away reshaped his perspective on health, boundaries, and longevity.

They also dive into collaboration, chemistry, and authenticity in content creation — why chasing numbers doesn’t compare to real connection, and how trusting your instincts can define your path both on and off camera.

This episode is about evolution — not just physically, but mentally and emotionally — and what it really means to grow into yourself.

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In Episode 74 of Brolapse, HungerFF sits down with ⁠John Thomas⁠ for a conversation that goes far beyond the surface of porn.

John opens up about his fisting origin story, growing up with religion, guilt, and desire colliding early, and how kink evolved from curiosity into identity. From London sex clubs to navigating HIV, relationships, and self-acceptance, his journey is deeply personal—and unexpectedly relatable.

But this episode doesn’t stop at the origin story.

The two dive into the reality behind extreme content: the difference between performance and pleasure, why group dynamics can shift intimacy into spectacle, and how constant content creation is changing the industry itself. John speaks candidly about burnout, authenticity, and why making fewer—but more meaningful—scenes matters.

One of the most powerful moments comes when the conversation turns to responsibility. In a world where porn is often used as education, John reflects on the importance of context, honesty, and showing real pleasure instead of pain or performance.

This is a thoughtful, self-aware, and deeply human episode about identity, boundaries, influence, and what it actually means to live inside the body everyone is watching.

In this episode of Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with Chicago-based creator Wyld Ryder for a candid conversation about confidence, kink, and the slow burn of becoming fully yourself.

Wyld opens up about his journey from a quiet corporate life to embracing his deviant side online, how fitness and self-acceptance became the gateway to content creation, and why piggish desire was always there—just waiting for permission to surface. Together, they unpack how fisting moved from fantasy to reality, why trust and intimacy matter so deeply in kink, and how submission can be an act of empowerment rather than erasure.

The conversation also explores authenticity in an oversaturated content landscape, navigating relationships while being publicly sexual, and the importance of genuine connection—both on camera and off. Wyld shares how his dynamic with Brogan helped shape his confidence as a creator, and why staying true to what actually turns you on is the key to longevity.

It’s an episode about growth, honesty, and choosing depth over performance—inside and out.

Episode 72 completes the two-part HungerFF Sound Initiative.

Following last week’s introduction, Part Two leans fully into execution, featuring four complete track drops that expand the project’s sound, humor, and erotic logic. Recorded as an audio-only episode, this installment blends commentary with music, allowing each track to stand on its own while remaining part of a larger arc.

This episode includes “Schlop Schlop,” “I Cleaned Out for This,” “Assgasm,” and “Built to Fist.” Together, the tracks move from playful and visceral to hypnotic and industrial—exploring the sounds of fisting, shared community tropes, the pursuit of anal orgasm, and the fantasy of the perfect fister as something engineered rather than accidental.

With Part Two, the Sound Initiative shifts from concept to payoff. Next week, Brolapse returns to its regular interview format.