This episode of I AM Rising takes you on a profound journey into the depths of darkness and the treasures that lie within. Join me, Tina Marie, as I share my personal experiences with fear, death, and the transformative power of embracing the unknown.

I reflect on my childhood fears of death, my struggles with panic, and how these experiences shaped my relationship with darkness throughout my life. Through my battle with cancer, I learned that true healing comes from facing our fears and entering our inner world.

I discuss the importance of breathwork and self-compassion in uncovering the light that exists within us, even in the darkest moments. This episode is an invitation to explore your own fears, to meet yourself in the shadows, and to discover the radiant power that resides within. Let’s embark on this journey together, celebrating the courage it takes to confront our darkness and the magic that unfolds when we do.

1. Embracing the Darkness 
2. Childhood Fears and Panic Attacks
3. The Journey Through Cancer
4. Meeting Myself in the Shadows
5. The Power of Breath and Self-Compassion
6. Discovering the Light Within
7. Celebrating Your Inner Journey

 If this episode resonates with you, please share it with anyone who might benefit from the message. Together, let’s illuminate the path toward healing and connection.

Through heartfelt anecdotes and deep reflections, Tina unpacks the paradox of "trying to heal" and how it often creates resistance within us.

In this episode, Tina shares her experiences of navigating the complexities of illness, the power of breathwork, and the necessity of tuning into our bodies to facilitate transformation. As we dive into the intricacies of the mind-body connection, you'll learn that the journey to wholeness is not linear but a continuous practice of self-love and acceptance. Prepare to be inspired and empowered to let go of the need to fix and instead embrace the present moment with compassion. Let the healing begin!

1. Introduction to Healing and Surrender 
2. The Illusion of Control
3. Embracing Discomfort for True Healing
4. The Power of Breathwork
5. Navigating Your Healing Journey 
6. The Mind-Body Connection
7. Closing Thoughts on Self-Love and Acceptance

This episode is about PTSD. I share what trauma really is, why it occurs, how it affects just about everything in a person's life, and my raw, deep, and dark personal experience with it. AND, how I healed and continue to...

SPOILER ALERT: We ALL have trauma! This is a HUGE topic so this will be the first of many future episodes. 

🎬 Watch the episode on my YouTube channel:  https://youtu.be/1h5PIsxAPUo

Also visit and listen on my site; https://www.tinaandbilly.com/podcast

This episode dives deep into what to say and not to say to someone going through a challenge, an illness, a loss, etc. It's meant to be educational and inspirational and also healing!

I go through a list of all of the things people said to me during the darkest and scariest time of my life from diagnosis of cancer, through treatment, and beyond. 

As my mom always says, "People mean well." And I get that.

AND, we can all learn, grow, and evolve to be a better healing space for others when they are going though struggles.  And we can begin to take ownership of our feelings that come up when those around us are suffering.

This could be a controversial or triggering episode!  And that's amazing because that means there is energy to be felt, experienced, breathed into, and forgiven.

Let the healing begin!

If you'd like to watch this episode, it's on YouTube HERE

This 4th episode was recorded when I was in my 2nd year of studying with Alchemy of Breath,  (my school), as a mentor. 

I share some of the trauma from receiving the actual diagnosis, multiple surgeries and the aftermath,  toxic drugs, not feeling safe in my body, and dissociating.  I share how breast cancer cracked me open to meet myself on the inside; how I truly met my light in the darkness by facing my death and my willingness to embrace the unknown.

In Alchemy of Breath, we did an exercise of writing a letter from our death bed, breaths away from our dying self to our current self. 

I share the letter to music as a healing process.  The 2nd half being very meditative provides the opportunity for you to inquire into your own life and experience, opening your heart to the moment and what comes up for you. 

 

Season Two: Episode One of I AM Rising and a dramatic title that is based completely in truth.

Death, Rebirth; the Return. After 3 years of a healing recovery from a life-threatening breast cancer diagnosis, Tina opens up about her journey of meeting her death face to face.

In this first episode, she reads a part of her journal when she is in the darkest of places. After surgeries, and chemotherapy, no hair, no eyebrows, no eyelashes, feeling lost, dead inside, like a shell of a human being, wondering if she would ever even remotely feel like herself again, whoever that even was anymore.

She shares deeply and authentically and we peer into the depths of her suffering in the pitch-black, darkness. She then shares the total contrast of a journal entry a year or so later demonstrating a complete turnaround!

Tina lays the groundwork about some of what she did during this time to heal and paints a picture of what to expect for future episodes.

Mary Magdalene, a true embodiment of the Divine Feminine, has been around me for many years preparing me for the Goddess work that I'm currently doing in my work with women. Her consciousness and energy comes through with a "Sisterhood of the Rose", a powerful tribe of High Priestesses, Goddesses, and women throughout "her-story."

During a very difficult time of my life, I called out to her in pain, in frustration, in such a dark night of the soul, and she spoke to me, and to us, and this episode is her channeled message to bring hope, light, love and clarity in moving forward.