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What happens when you find evidence of trauma you completely forgot existed? This episode is about discovering old screenshots that transport you back to a version of yourself you thought you'd left behind.
This is about time collapse. About how your body can't tell the difference between then and now. About the girl who took screenshots like breadcrumbs and the woman who found them thirteen years later with a completely different nervous system.
If you've ever forgotten something terrible only to remember it years later, if you've ever questioned whether you "made it all up," if you've ever felt like you're living in multiple timelines at once—this one's for you.
Raw conversation about emotional time travel, processing with different capacity, and why sometimes looking for cat photos can crack you wide open. Spoiler: you didn't imagine it.
This is an episode of Audio Spells: a voice-note series exploring emotional truth, nervous system wisdom, and nonlinear storytelling from The Blue Algorithm.
Read the full essay that inspired this episode.
Song featured: "safety scissors" by @melissageurts
Created by Melissa Geurts, Group Executive Creative Director at Good Housekeeping and founder of The Blue Algorithm.
Follow, save, comment, and rate (it helps!) for more episodes.
If this cracked something open for you pass it on. Or don't. This one might just be for you.
Topics discussed: trauma processing, repressed memories, screenshot evidence, gaslighting, emotional archaeology, time collapse, nervous system healing, memory recovery, dissociation, survival mechanisms, emotional capacity, trauma timeline, healing journey, forgotten abuse, documentation, self-validation, somatic processing, emotional time travel, PTSD, complex trauma, memory gaps, evidence collection, psychological safety, trauma responses, emotional overwhelm, healing process, therapeutic processing, body memory, emotional flashbacks, recovery journey
Connect: Follow @melissageurts on Instagram, TikTok, and YouTube | Subscribe to The Blue Algorithm on Substack | melissageurts.com
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By Melissa Geurts | Emotional Storytelling, AI Weirdness and Creative Systems | The Blue AlgorithmWhat happens when you find evidence of trauma you completely forgot existed? This episode is about discovering old screenshots that transport you back to a version of yourself you thought you'd left behind.
This is about time collapse. About how your body can't tell the difference between then and now. About the girl who took screenshots like breadcrumbs and the woman who found them thirteen years later with a completely different nervous system.
If you've ever forgotten something terrible only to remember it years later, if you've ever questioned whether you "made it all up," if you've ever felt like you're living in multiple timelines at once—this one's for you.
Raw conversation about emotional time travel, processing with different capacity, and why sometimes looking for cat photos can crack you wide open. Spoiler: you didn't imagine it.
This is an episode of Audio Spells: a voice-note series exploring emotional truth, nervous system wisdom, and nonlinear storytelling from The Blue Algorithm.
Read the full essay that inspired this episode.
Song featured: "safety scissors" by @melissageurts
Created by Melissa Geurts, Group Executive Creative Director at Good Housekeeping and founder of The Blue Algorithm.
Follow, save, comment, and rate (it helps!) for more episodes.
If this cracked something open for you pass it on. Or don't. This one might just be for you.
Topics discussed: trauma processing, repressed memories, screenshot evidence, gaslighting, emotional archaeology, time collapse, nervous system healing, memory recovery, dissociation, survival mechanisms, emotional capacity, trauma timeline, healing journey, forgotten abuse, documentation, self-validation, somatic processing, emotional time travel, PTSD, complex trauma, memory gaps, evidence collection, psychological safety, trauma responses, emotional overwhelm, healing process, therapeutic processing, body memory, emotional flashbacks, recovery journey
Connect: Follow @melissageurts on Instagram, TikTok, and YouTube | Subscribe to The Blue Algorithm on Substack | melissageurts.com