I Graduated, So I’m Right

Just talking about the Mercury and Venus retrograde and now that we are in the reflective stage before they become direct again, there’s so much to think and sit with. And hey maybe I am okay with love and its vast possibilities. Like is it okay if I am happy to just have experienced some people in this life, in this time? Well, yes. I can finally accept that. I also am happy that life keeps causing me to unlearn and become more with the knowledge I gain. Life is never meant to be stagnant. It should always be evolving and us with it. ✨

A love letter from a Scorpio for real

Experienced some of the best moments of my life this weekend. It’s hard to articulate this type of magic so hear me find the words. Blessed to be 26 and blessed to be surrounded by the people I am surrounded by.

So originally I was going to use this episode as my 11th episode because I wanted the 10th episode (10 is one of my universal numbers) to be special and have an interactive aspect. So I asked yall what the cousins wanted to hear on this episode and it ended up being the exact things I had already recorded on this episode. So here we are with our original 10th episode on this beautiful new moon in Libra where we talk about love, astrology, generational development, and so much more. Tune in with me cousins. Talk with me, don’t talk without me. ✨

Yall know we’re all just cousins vibing and having conversations BUT this episode is special because I have my best friend LEILAH THE ARTIST (Instagram is Leilah.the.artist). Not only is this episode a peek into our daily stream of shared consciousness but it’s extra extra special because it’s the week of Leilah’s birthday and we have been able to have time to just be with each other and have conversations about life. Now you may notice this podcast starts in the middle of our conversation and cuts off a bit. Technical Difficulties my guy. Listen I’m just a girl with a mic and a dream. So if you can be patient with me I can keep growing and hopefully the next time Lil Lei graces us with her presence on our podcast we will have full audio and a proper introduction! Now yall go listen and tell me what you think. Do you still deal with hyperactivity as an adult? For all my October babies, what’s it like being the most mysterious open book your friends have ever experienced? Talk to me, don’t talk without me.

And Rest In Peace Nolan Wells, it ain’t right but that’s because it’s all white.

Difficult conversations, everybody has them and almost everybody gets anxious at the thought of them. Yet, those conversations are the stepping stone to being understood within your full totality. Sometimes you have to cry and talk until your throat is sore so that the people you love understand you better. Never over explain but sometimes people need more than they can readily gather from observation.

Just chitchatting about birthdays and how they’re feeling this year versus previous years. Birthday plans and finally getting exciteddddd!!!

We’re talking cancer but from the point of view of a family member. Cancer is a wicked mf and I don’t know if I’ve met anyone meaner. Other than my mom and she’s whooping the mess out of that cancers ass. It’s hard to know what to feel and how to feel when you’re not the one fighting the disease. It’s a special guilt and sadness that comes for the person who is there to witness everything but doesn’t know how to be sad because you’re healthy and get to continue life. Cancer is probably the weirdest thing this life has brought forward. So to deal with it three times in one life is beyond logic to me.

I talked about the past, present, and future. I talked about overcoming emotional blocks and even carrying the weight of other people’s perspectives. We go into how false truths can become real if we believe in them enough. Now we recorded this episode on da road so you even got to hear what the inside of a road trip sounds like with me lol.

For real, I was sitting on the toilet talking and really processing the events of the day before and how life looks so different than when I first began putting my walls up and wearing my armor. When I was younger I always just wanted a space to be me, fully, and not be judged or called dramatic. As a young woman with an emotionally unavailable mother it was hard for me to have that space. But the people I have in my life now…they just don’t too much play about me. They really allow me to just be. I can cry and get emotional and they stay and make sure I am good through it and after. I ain’t never had nothing like that before. It was a journey to get here and I’m learning how to feel safe in what I have always wanted.

This episode we get into some interesting topics.

• ​The older I get the heller the “NO”
• ​Recovery isn’t just for the person who is sick
• ​Graduating…
• ​Learning how to go through what’s difficult without letting it stop your happiness
• ​Not Broken, Just Molded
• ​Black Cinema, is it even a thing?

We also introduce our first guest star speaker, GOLDIEEEEEEEEE NOTNICEEEEEEEEE who will be joining us on our next episode.