My conundrum is going everywhere, anywhere, nowhere while lost in my reckless head. Broken 💔 by my choices and alone in a desperate decision to do the right thing without holding onto the self destructive lifestyle I've continued to indulge in and doing it with an enormous amount of pain that's resonating in my soul. And how to quit following this tremendous amount of pain that's taking me to my grave if I let all the negativity control my behavior and focus on actions that NEED to speak volumes before the weakness wins.