First attempt to finally reach you was in 2018 ,it's 2020 and life has changed dramatically and drastically. i can say i am a little wiser and more self aware and i 'll be honest , i  am known for two things - my curves and my unabashedly open conversations and that's what i am going to do here.i am going to talk to myself like a video journal so that i can make a graph of my way of looking at life, incidents and my corret or terribly wrong choices i'd make in the process.