its just that. "In order to stop drowning, you have to get out of the water. You must learn to swim before jumping in. Start drowning and you swallow water, it’s hard to get it out of your lungs. It takes time, and during that time, that healing hurts a lot. You can’t breathe right, you can’t focus on anything else but that pain, but you're no longer drowning, and that's a step in the right direction"