It’s now been 4 months since I moved to Ghana for a sabbatical
of sorts. But, to be honest, up until a few days ago when my work contract with the organization that I had been working for in the States ended, I’d spent a lot of my time being physically in Ghana but mentally thousands of miles away.
I’d often be on my computer during the day doing my contract work (alongside personal projects) or, even when I wasn't actually working, I'd be thinking about work that I needed to do or that I wanted to get done by certain deadlines.
But I feel like now in a sense, the one foot that I continued to have firmly planted in the door of my life back home is now officially out of the door. And now, a question that ask myself is whether I want to dive into my experience here with both feet or whether I want to continue operating in the little US outpost that I’ve essentially created here in the village of Ankwanda.
Have I tried to learn the local language? No.
Have I made friends? Well, not really.
Have I been lonely? Well, no, because I still feel pretty connected to the friends that I already had when I got here. And I’ve been too busy to feel
as isolated as I may actually be!
But now I have a lot more free time. And twice lately, people I know and care about have called me out on the language thing. And if these guys, the very ones who look out for me here, are bringing it up, it’s time for me to seriously think about how I'm showing up here. Because even though they specifically mentioned language, I think really what they were saying was, “Janai, you're not making an effort to connect with our culture. You're not really trying to connect with us.”
That hits because I do understand how learning a language can open insights into a culture and into the full color of people’s personality that you just can't get otherwise.
But to learn another language means allowing myself to be a
beginner. Leaving the familiarity of my own language to learn a different one means sounding like a beginner. And that means being vulnerable, making mistakes, and feeling and being awkward sometimes.
It feels new and intimidating and fascinating to be a beginner with Twi in the same way that it feels to be a beginner on this journey of learning about myself outside of the work and life context that had become so familiar to me.
As you listen to episode 17, “I’m a Beginner” of I Want to Change the World on Spotify or Apple Podcasts, I invite you to reflect on the following prompts:
In what areas of your life, if any, are you feeling like a beginner? What that experience is bringing up for you?
If you're not feeling like you're a beginner in any area of your life right now, where might you be sensing a nudge to start that journey and to become a beginner again?