This episode, at its core, is about the legacy of my father’s abusiveness. Abuses he first unleashed upon his wife, then his children. There is no end to the variations of behaviors people adopt to cope with abuse. Some survive it. Many don’t. My father’s behavior destroyed our family from the inside out. The events I recount in this episode were deeply painful to research, relive, and record. I hope some good comes from their retelling. Trigger warnings for physical, emotional, and sexual abuse apply. This episode is classified as "Explicit" content.
It occurred to me, given how much time has gone by and how many life events have unfolded, none of these people exist any longer as we were. We’re all a bit like Schrödinger's cat – we exist and we don’t depending on where and when I’m looking.