my mentor said i sound much happier when im working and that i should listen to my voice notes about work. i will not, but here’s what i send her.

photo: my love is very dramatic and adorable 🥹

nonbinary, genderfluid, multi-spirited.

idk. whatever. it doesn’t matter fr.

context: figuring out what my stepson is gonna address me as. he prolly has a better idea than either of us idiots trying to figure it out fr.

photo: someone asked me about my flag and i got to explain my Black american pride.

staycation with my love. resetting and recharging our relationship. it’s been a beautiful few days. god i love this woman—in all her clumsiness.

photo: i finished lost records: bloom & rage. fucking amazing.

voicenote to my mentor.

also helped to say this outloud. i needed to here this too.

photo: say hi to the plant growing in my window.

abandoning this diary for a while.

stupid people. cults. age of aquarius. anti-intellectualism.

the title of my essay on this will be “in the age of aquarius: anti-intellectualism a cult”

photo: the latest meme i downloaded lmao

“when you realize mid-conversation someone is in a cult and they don’t know it”

what it means to me to be a community leader.

after watching rustin on netflix.

photo: also, i have to say, he was a baaaad man. he had the boys in a tizzy, but look at him! i get it 🙂‍↕️ because having a man’s wife call you and ask, dare i say beg, “please leave my man alone because he clearly can’t leave you alone” is cuntyyyy!! idc idc idc.

my birth chart said i should be community first and not money first, but the money will come when i use my natural talents of being care focused. yeah, that makes sense. i need to read my chart more.

photo: my stuff.

keywords: octopuses. bridget mendler. time travel. cults. dinner party questions. bojack horseman. fungi. mycorrhizae

sidebar: i’m still watching.

tracy morgan: who’s the star of the movie jaws?

narrator: the shark.

tracy: no. the music. *does jaws sound* the music. they go under the water and — the couldn’t even get the shark to work because of the salt water.

idk what i’m about to get into but i just know im about to be entertained. also, why does this man have the fourth largest fish tank in the world?? but honestly. that would be me if i was rich. i would love to have a fish tank of jellyfish.

photo: i wrote on the release of these for work. i ate the black one ☺️ krispy kreme collab with bandai in celebration of pac-man’s 45th anniversary.

back to tracy morgan and his home aquarium because i am fascinated.

getting triggered by tiktoks is such a double/edged sword. like wow, im chronically on my phone so my algorithms know what i need, which in this case helped me decipher what ive been feeling. but also, fuck these machines for sinking into my psyche and knowing my subconscious thoughts.

friendship stuff. community. boundaries. triggers. etc. etc.

emotional. and i can’t breathe so i need to relax so i can go to sleep without suffocating myself with snot.