I’m Not Slutty Enough!

After years of being shamed for practically everything, I’ve finally reached the end of this particular chapter.

In this epilogue, I look back at the people who had an entire chapter dedicated to them.

So, is this really the end?

For now.

Because apparently, trauma has a way of producing sequels.

This episode is about accountability, childhood stupidity, and the uncomfortable realization that sometimes, you really are the asshole in someone else’s story.

Years of unsolicited criticism have programmed me to hear even genuine advice as an attack. From my weight to my family and reproductive choices, I explore why “helpful” advice makes me instantly defensive—and whether I’m really as close-minded as I sound.

The Villain I Chose to Be

Do you really owe people an explanation for every decision you make? In this episode, I talk about the moment I stopped justifying myself, why people-pleasing kept me trapped, and how learning to say “no” without guilt gave me a kind of freedom I wish I’d found much sooner.

After years of being expected to stay quiet, what happens when you stop? In this episode, I explore how bullying, resentment, and constantly having your boundaries ignored can shape a harder version of yourself. From entitled strangers to family pettiness, I unpack the moments that made me embrace my mean streak—and why I no longer feel guilty for refusing to be the bigger person.

From family gatherings to my first day of college, this is a story about fear, reinvention, and the small acts of courage that can quietly change your life.

At a family gathering, I went out of my way to avoid drama, avoid confrontation, and avoid Ruth altogether. Somehow, that still turned into me being painted as the villain. Meanwhile, Ruth turned a room full of people into a personal pity show, convinced everyone was talking about her.

Some people don’t need to raise their voices to hurt you — they do it with passive-aggressive comments, backhanded concern, and perfectly timed humiliation. In this episode, I unpack the exhausting toxicity of family gatherings, weight shaming, emotional eating, and the relatives who seem incapable of letting others feel confident or happy. From cruel comments disguised as honesty to weddings poisoned by bitterness and attention-seeking, this is the story of the moment I finally stopped caring about keeping the peace with people who thrived on making others uncomfortable.

After years of swallowing anger, trusting karma, and trying to forgive people who never stopped hurting me, the pandemic became the breaking point.