Explaining how and why I’m not slutty enough

Sometimes the real damage doesn’t come from bullying—it comes from the little rejections that feel “too small” to matter. In this episode, I unpack the tiny humiliations I dismissed as normal: being excluded from kindness, treated as optional, judged by looks and status.

I spent years being the tag-along, the easy one to exclude, the girl who was never “enough.” This is the story of how early betrayals became a lifelong pattern—and why I’m finally calling it out.

If you thought the last episodes were unhinged—well, buckle up. I’m just getting warmed up.

From defending people to over-explaining choices that were no one’s business, I unravel why I still bend myself into shapes just to keep the peace — and what it costs me every time.

For years, I believed my body was a public conversation - open for comments, advice, and judgment. This episode dives into my long history with weight loss, diets, and the constant pressure to shrink myself just to be acceptable.

She creates the chaos, I do the cleanup — and somehow I’m the one everyone thinks is clueless. Make it make sense.

From missing books to stolen snacks, I learned early that kindness without boundaries is an open invitation.

In this part, I’ll dig further into the past and deeper into my feelings to unpack the people and events that created the total mess you’re hearing about now.

I grew up feeling like every word, choice, and even facial expression was on trial. In this episode, I unpack what it’s like to live under constant judgment from the people who are supposed to have your back — and why I finally stopped letting their verdicts define me.