Maybe the pain is simply because you haven't forgiven yourself for becoming some you didn't really love. And I'm sorry about that.I'm sorry I was never there for you and I was always trying so hard to hurt you. I'm sorry I was always running away and I'm sorry I never made time to play. I'm sorry for the mean things I would say and I'm sorry I didn't listen to the warning signs you were giving me. I'm sorry I let others hurt you and abandon you. I'm sorry I didn't call you more and I'm sorry I didn't visit more.I'm sorry I didn't ask you what you really wanted from me and I'm sorry I made you go through so much misery.I'm sorry I let them make you feel weak and unworthy.I'm sorry I let them control you and I'm sorry you felt like you didn't have a say.I'm sorry you were too afraid to talk to me and I'm sorry I always assumed you were happy.I'm sorry I wasn't open and compassionate to your needs.I'm sorry I didn't care about your dreams.And I'm sorry I created a life you didn't love and I'm sorry I broke trust. I'm sorry I let you fall and I'm sorry I was too late to stop it from hurting so much.I'm sorry cancer happened.I'm sorry you lost it all.I'm sorry I broke your heart.I'm sorry it got so much worse, but, I want you to know it'll never happen again.I want you to know I'm here for you, and I love you more than anything or anyone and I promise to make you my number one. I promise I will always listen to you from now on, and I promise to only do what you want me to do…I promise to make sure you feel good 100% of the time, and I promise to achieve all your dreams and I promise to never fall in love with someone that doesn't love you, like me.And I just hope someday soon you'll see that I really have changed. That I am a better version of me and that you can trust me more than anyone…And regardless of what happens to me, I forgive you for everything, and I hope that you too can forgive me.So I just wanna say,I love you, Sarah…Unconditionally and all conditionally.You are extraordinary and you light me up and I know you will do great things. Peace. LET’S BE SOCIALConnect with me via my favorite hangouts;+ @ ArtistSarahLong on Instagram+ @AlcoholInkArtStories+ @ ArtistSarahLong on Facebook+ Artist Sarah Long on YouTube+ Confessions of an Empath on YouTubeMore about me at artistsarahlong.com