Joke prioritised her career and other adventures over starting a family, until she met her ex-wife and embraced the idea of starting a family. When they divorced, Joke decided to try to become a single mom by choice (SMBC) instead. Five years and many struggles later, her fertility journey sadly ended without a baby. In this episode, Joke talks about grief, how she decided to try to become a SMBC, emotional burnout and how to move on and try to live with the trauma of infertility and being childless, not by choice.