Me processing inner conflict in real time (very non-linearly) about the way I feel about wanting to share and not forcing my ideas onto folks.

This is Living in Response, an unedited, unfiltered, unbounded exploration and experiment of speaking what’s on my mind and in my field.

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A Day of Conflict and Deep Reflection

Processing the heaviness that followed a journaling session—realizing that even though writing felt liberating in the moment, something about it didn’t resonate afterward. Exploring why certain ideas don’t sit right in the body, even when they feel true in the mind.

Tuning Into the Body’s Wisdom

How physical sensations like pressure in the chest or tension in the stomach reveal deeper conflicts for me. Using interoception to explore these sensations rather than forcing them away. Learning to approach resistance with curiosity instead of judgment.

Human Design & The Innocence Motivation Conflict

Reflecting on how my Innocence Motivation in Human Design contrasts with my mind’s urge to persuade, convince, or "get people to understand" certain ideas. Wrestling with the tension between wanting to share knowledge and feeling that pushing too hard pulls me out of alignment.

Reframing Desire & Agenda-Free Expression

Acknowledging that different people thrive on different approaches—some are meant to persuade, while others (like me) feel most alive when sharing openly without an agenda. Shifting from “people need to get this” to “I love this, and I want to share it.”

Living as an Open-Ended Experiment

Releasing the pressure to have a defined goal, vision, or creation. Recognizing that my current “project” is my life itself—an unfolding, evolving experience driven by curiosity rather than rigid expectations.

Pressure from the Creative World

Feeling overwhelmed by the influx of messages from the online space that insist on "having something to create" and "knowing your future self." Realizing that my creative journey doesn’t have to look like anyone else’s.

Permission to Just Explore

Letting go of the need to "fix" things or prove my worth through productivity. Trusting that being fully engaged with my curiosity is enough, even when societal conditioning says otherwise.

The Role of AI in Self-Exploration

How I use AI (specifically ChatGPT) as a reflection tool—helping to process thoughts, explore conflicting ideas, and gain clarity. Acknowledging the ethical concerns while also recognizing its potential when used with intention + using caution when using ChatGPT to discuss Human Design or Astrology because it is VERY OFTEN inaccurate.

Balancing Passion and Non-Attachment

Navigating the paradox of deeply believing in the power of energy work while also not wanting to impose beliefs on others. Learning to share from love rather than urgency or responsibility.

Integrating, Not Just Understanding

Recognizing that intellectual understanding alone isn’t enough—true transformation happens through direct experience, embodiment, and feeling. Knowing that change must come through the body, not just the mind.

Mentions & Resources

Not affiliated, just a fan

* Decolonizing the Body by Kelsey Blackwell

* Human Design Motivation

* The HeartMath Institute (Scientific research on energy fields and collective impact)

Final Thoughts

This episode is about sitting with inner conflict rather than rushing to resolve it, plus a bunch of stuff in-between. It’s about noticing when something doesn’t feel right, exploring why (sometimes), and giving myself permission to live in a way that feels natural—without pressure, without force, just curiosity and flow.

Thanks for being you.

Mystically,

Belle

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