Insecure Black Girl

In this episode i dive into the many ups and downs i've had with my journey in becoming a woman. From a young age i realized what was expected of me as a growing girl and it turned me off from the idea of becoming a woman. As a child I believed that being a woman was to always look presentable, not being too loud, working extremely hard, and satisfying men. I saw what was required from women by our society and it left a sour taste in my mouth. For a long time I rejected most things connected to femininity because of the terrible association I had with being a woman. I didn't enjoy the objectification i seen women being put through. Or the social hierarchy women have to deal with. I felt as though all women were competition and I actively compared myself to every woman or girl I saw. I spent most of my life not feeling like a "real" girl or women. I also discuss the ideal women or "IT" girl that is always portrayed in the media, that sets unrealistic expectations on girls and women everywhere. To end this episode i give examples of women who inspired me to be myself and redefine what womanhood looks like to me. Being a women is a beautiful thing that looks different for everyone, and I am so grateful to be in a space in my life where I truly feel connected to myself and my womb.

In this episode I breakdown my feelings of the word cringe and what it means to be cringey. I talk about how through watching some of my favorite artist be vulnerable both artistically and creatively, it allowed me to give myself freedom to authentically express myself. Even through the cringeness of it all. It further pushed me to realize just how subjective cringeness is. It brought me to a place where I saw that, as a nation we view raw, organic human emotions and vulnerability as, not only crigney, but something to be hid. I realized the feeling of cringeness can only be conquered by doing it even when it feels cringey, even when its awkward, and even when you're insecure about it! This new level of awareness has allowed me to deal with my social and performance anxiety head on. Along with improving my self confidence and personal development. 

In this episode I discuss how I came to the conclusion of how everything we do is political. From the way we live our lives. To the friendships we have. The conversations we hold, and the relationships we value. Everything is political. I dissect my unhappiness with the way our country is ran and how it drove me into a depressive angry spiral. Apart of me coming out of this depressive episode was understanding that love is the foundational vibration of everything. And with that I realized that being angry with the world wouldn't help me change it. So instead I decided to be the change I wanted to see. I know this episode will reach the audience it is intended for <3  

Hey everyone! In this episode I talk about my absences and my return. I discuss an amazing break through I had on New Yrs Eve and how it has pushed me closer to myself and my spirit. I finally understand what and who is holding me back. Very short but insightful episode, I can't really put it into words, just listen to the shit lmao. Oh and I did cry a bit, it's been a minute since i've cried on an episode so that was well over do. Starting 2023 off strong lmao. 

Hellooooo, it feels so good to be back recording and posting podcast episodes! I truly did miss the podcast. In this episode I go into detail about my disappearance from the podcast, and what was going on in my life. During my break I moved into a new apartment and came to a few new revelations about my life. I talk about manifestation and the role it plays in my life, while also discussing how I manifested my new apartment. I hope you enjoy this episode, and new episodes will be posted every thurs! (The name of the podcast I was referring to in the beginning of the episode is The Bonnet Bunch podcast, by Azariah!)   

Hey everyone I filmed this episode two weeks ago but couldn't bring myself to edit it. I'm so glad i did tho because while editing this episode I was able to take some of my own advice. In this episode I talk about how I prioritize my own healing. And what tools have aided me in my healing journey. I talk about forgiveness of self. I discuss shadow work and journaling along with yoga and meditation. I also dive into the importance of setting boundaries and break down what a boundaries are. I really hope someone can take something from this episode, luv y'all <3. 

Hello! This past year I've really been prioritizing my creativity, and in return I have healed a lot of different parts of myself. In this episode I talk about what my personal definition of creativity is ,and what it means to be a creator. I discuss how important creating is and allowing your creative expression to show in your everyday life. Anything that is not growing is dead. So never stop trying, exploring, or creating. I hope you all enjoy this episode :).

Hey everyone, I'm gonna be honest I woke up on demon time and this episode is a little sporadic lol. In this episode I discuss my opinion on roe v wade and my disdain with the supreme court justices and really the whole government. Throw the entire government away! I discuss how black women are God and the original mothers. And how as black people we all need to pull our fate out of these white institutions. I go more in depth in the episode so I hope you all enjoy :) 

Hey everyone, In this episode I talk about some of the plights of being a young adult. Everyone telling you 'you have all the time in the world' while simultaneously beating the life out of you and telling you to get your ish together. I discuss the illusion of a career and the facade of money. With the economic state of America I don't believe I can record an episode without talking about capitalism and the recession we are currently in so i do touch on that and how that has affected the new working class. aka my generation! I give little anecdotes about my recent shroom trip and discuss the importance of intuition. I also got really emotional several times so if you don't like crying you might wanna skip this episode lol. I hope everyone has a great day and learn something from this episode!