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This is dedicated to my best friend and soul sister, Rebecca Ann Murray. I will always cherish the intimacy we shared during our moments wrestling with our own mortality. You taught me so much about grace in the face of death.

I got the “hierarchy” wrong… I’m learning about it now.. but this is what I got wrong, partly. Goddess elevates ( of course she does, see how strongly our culture hypnotizes us) and in her place is the High Priestess… (sits with Jesus. Buddha, NA)

I found my archetype. We all have one. I am empathic which is both a curse and a blessing. I know how to protect myself now. Ironically, I learned that from exploring my narcissistic side, it’s the antidote for an empath who has suffered too much narcissistic abuse.  I don’t consider myself psychic other than my empathy and a strong intuition. I read people pretty well because I was a trauma kid. Emotional abuse is the least recognized form of abuse. Silenced by exclusion and by my own introverted nature.  It is both intentional and unintentional.  It is  the internalization of others unhealed projections, real and perceived.. It took me 48 years to mature, talk about stunted development. I just needed to heal some soul wounds and  get my identity back, it had been stolen.

Using my spiritual imagination helped heal me. I healed from past lives and this one.. how in the world did I do that? I now look in the mirror and I am not focused on my flaws. I now see this stunning soul. And regardless of your beliefs, race, religion, sexual orientation, educational level, socioeconomic status, political affiliation etc., I want you to find your value/voice too.

And  did that story come full circle? ⭕️ ( negative self talk, project unhealed wounds to create my reality, laws of attraction. I learn the hard way)   I think so. I hope so…no more layers, please.

And that’s the story I want to leave my kids. Triumph over tragedy and resiliency. Internal strength in one’s vulnerability.  Walking my talk. Tenacity. Being the leader that I wished I had had.

I’m protecting my gifts and myself now. I am learning that with my diverse spiritual gifts comes great responsibility. I did not know I had them when I started this.

1-2-3-4.. I am sliding my feet and  legs into fifth (5) position, arms arabesque. I think my grand jeté was a pretty one. A beautiful first leap of faith. And curtsy.

When listened to from beginning to end… do you experience the kundalini rising? Or was that too ambitious a thought?  Do you see Kabbalah, the mystic quest?

Do you see what was beneath my shadow side? The shadow of my shadow? (Duh… the Light…)The desire to truly love and respect the other and truly be loved and respected by the other … it’s not a special or unique desire.…it’s oneness. And I hypothesize it’s underneath all of our shadow sides.

Welcome to the Age of Ascension.

It’s now obvious that this was all a science lesson, right? I was never very good at science, but no more analyzing the past, I need to get back en pointe.

I surrender.

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