I changed my name recently after my brother was arrested. The change in consciousness came after his arrest and the process of having to discuss the case over and over and over again. I will never call myself a victim, however, I did suffer and overcame child sexual trauma, my brother was the perpetrator and through the process of healing and understanding that the shame wasn't mine to carry or bear I learned - earned freedom.

In this freedom I felt encouraged to talk to others and while talking one day I ended up in a conversation where I for the first time understood the joy of having suffered this way. It's weird to say and probably weirder to hear but the truth is that he started interfering with me from age 2 (as young as I can remember) until age 11. From age 11 to my mid thirties I suffered from the shame and lack of acceptance and empathy from my family.

As an introduction to who I am and who I've been I want you to understand the person who is speaking to you in this podcast this is an a person who lived in fluffy life this isn't a person who changed her name to Kindness and now thinks that everything is bells and whistles and rainbows I'm somebody who suffered many times over in many different ways and like James said in the scripture I count it all joy. My suffering has proved beneficial and I share that with you in hopes that you can step back from your own suffering and see it as beneficial choose to see your path as valuable and required no matter how difficult it has been we can choose to change the narrative to change our thoughts and change our life.

this podcast started a bit different as I was editing a different version that I was going to post today totally unrelated and… well you'll see what happens.