it would be nice to create enough context where people could completely avoid the medical system this context isn't necessarily for people who think they have a mental illness it's more for people who think they don't have a mental illness so in that way it's not actually talking about a medical problem I don't feel for myself like talking to myself in this way I've been talking about my medical problem I want to transition out of the medical model myself it would have been an amazing if six years ago they had a different context and I could have avoided it all together by understanding this process and therefore not fearing it so I don't think trans consciousness or neuro re-emergence is a medical problem and so if people are able to have that context because really it's something that's been medicalized that isn't necessarily medical it's a natural phenomenon it's been turned into what it is because of the way it's perceived and received and responded to reacted to it was responded to a reacted to it in a completely different way it would transform into something else even over the years before people were just kept in institutions and never released and thought that they could never live in the community and now most people are living in the community but they're medicated so to me it only makes sense that in however many years from now most people might be on medications for a short period of time and then not on anything so it'll be seen as something that can be completely recovered from and honestly recovered from does that saying it's an illness it's it is a transformation so the medication might help to slow down the process of transformation in the intensity of transformation but the process still has to be completed and integrated which might look like somebody completely redesigning and recreating their life and it's pretty difficult to redesign and recreate one's life if one is completely dulled out by a lot of medications and then basically told to live in your parents basement for the rest of your life whereas if it was received as a transformation one would be supported to create a new life as the process is unfolding in order for the process to integrate and ease up because one is moving towards that which the transformation is energetically pushing one through towards and there was another thing that guy said when he did that talk about the factors that are important one was genuineness and I like I can't be genuine working in the medical model because I don't see it that way so I can't be my genuine self and this is more my genuine self and I'm finding this easier to do which is to speak as my genuine self when I shared my story a while ago and I thought I did a really good job I never heard from the person that invited me to share and I thought it was strange because I thought that maybe it was an affirmation that they didn't like what I had to say not that I said anything too extreme but it just made me feel that way I guess or as I shared my story at this other thing and somebody emailed me and said that was good i want you to write an article about your experience there and i don't usually expect anyone to say anything when i share but the person who didn't say anything had a lot of opportunity to say something like so and i'm not saying that as bad i don't care it's more I'm saying that as perhaps that's not the right direction for me to go if I'm unable to share as my genuine self and I feel like maybe one day people won't be pathologized right away they'll be supported through their distress and then if a year later they're still struggling maybe then the trouble with a lot of this too is that the help is tied into the diagnosis and there's help like finding a job or getting an amount of money per month because one can't work at the present moment lots of different supports so the whole system of support would have to be redesigned because people would still even though they're not maybe mentally ill they still might need financial support for a number of months in order to integrate the experience and and move through their transformation and actually I did mention a study that somebody mentioned where they were using the open dialogue approach to people who had their first psychosis and within two years seventy two percent we're back to work now people that are just medicated I don't even know what the percentages that goes back to work within two years but it's probably very small I don't even know like ten twenty percent or something so maybe it's not true that it would have to be reworked that much because perhaps people would really just get back to life and then not need this pathologizing so somebody who has psychosis doesn't necessarily need diagnosis of schizophrenia they could just have psychosis and two years later be fine but usually it's like psychosis oh and you have a few other things all your have schizophrenia and then it's turned into something chronic and then the medications that are given increase the chronicity and and ensure the pathology it like locks a person into that paradigm because generally once somebody's put on meds there's not like a time limit there's no oh well after two years we'll see how you're doing will reduce the meds so one gets stuck in that automatically so I think if it was received differently people would transform and transcend and and move on with their lives and move into a better version of themselves minus the parts that were naturally just trying to fall away through the ego scramble and maybe the University of trying to get rid of the ego all together is just trying to get rid of a certain percentage of the ego elements that are preventing a person from being their best self because what the universe needs is a person to be them their best self doesn't matter if they have ten percent ego or ninety percent ego if it's their best self it's their best self and I feel like the more ego one has the more strong it is the last one sees things in an altruistic way from a perspective of oneness so it could just be trying to introduce more oneness and altruism and yeah the ego is not necessarily bad because someone like Tony Robbins probably has a huge ego but he's using it for so much good and I wrote that our bio mechanical energy is limiting our programming what I mean by that by doing habitual behaviors all the time were not reprogramming our brain we're not doing new gestures that are going to shape our brains in different ways and and also when we're inhabit we're not perceiving we're not learning we don't have any new information so that's actually stopping new insight and perception eliminates programming and programming is biomechanical energy wastage because the programming is causing us to just act in habits which is just wasting our biomechanical energy going to work watching TV and so our thermodynamic energy that entropy is not actually being turned into new information we are thermodynamic energy information processors I think this has something related to when I'm coming to the end of my up down cycle usually I feel freezing cold by the end of it and I think there's something to do with entropy there with thermodynamics with information related to thermodynamics and I don't know how that works but it it's like perception of more information by having a clear mind screen having access to more bits of information that information has to be integrated it has to go somewhere which is sort of a it's changing the entropy of the system in a way and it's it's absorbing energy so it makes us cold so usually we have an ego compass and we get turned into Gaia's compass and also Gaia's voice in map consciousness and in a way it's like being in dialogue with Gaia I've thought before about the idea of being a thought leader and I actually think that thinking in its classical sense of rationalizing and abstracting only produces new ideas to a varying degree and it's pretty small and that's still what's seen as thought leader because people are not generally thinking up new things for themselves or maybe they are and they're not sharing them so it's generally pretty limited in terms of the extent like a thought can be different from an old thought to a varying degree and it's seen as something profound and a person who is able to collect a number of those and be charismatic enough to share them as seen as a thought leader and I actually feel like the word thought and leader doesn't go together very well because thought is just from memory and thinking is very limited and if we think that that process is what is going to lead us out of the struggles that humanity is in right now we are mistaken and to say thought leader like that's a great thing actually gets us trapped thinking that thought is going to save us when Einstein himself said we're not going to solve today's problems from the current level of thinking that created them because every thought new thought is from that same level of thinking it's from the level of reason and logic and I feel like the thoughts and the ideas and the insights that come out of map consciousness are from a level of love and some of them are harder to make sense of because they're actually from somewhere beyond work that were even capable of seeing right now and dr. David Boehm said we need a new source of thoughts and ideas he said that in an interview with David Suzuki and I feel like this other state of consciousness is at least one of those sources of other thoughts and ideas from beyond personal ego thought and personal education and exploring and recombining people's old ideas so I feel that perception extrapolation is actually more of a leading thing pattern recognition and extrapolating which I guess might be called lateral thinking in a way and when one can see laterally when one can see with one's entire peripheral vision I actually read dr. David Hawkins said that when you switch into those higher levels of consciousness love and above I think you actually start to see more with your peripheral vision than your focal vision and that's why I don't really subscribe to the idea of focus because when one is focusing one's only going to see what one's focusing on and that is limited by one's education and the trajectory of one's life whereas if one is not focusing one can actually take any perspective possible and who knows what that's going to be is just going to be whatever in the moment so actually feel like it's more like extrapolation leader extrapolating beyond and maybe some people who are thought leaders are extrapolation leaders I just don't really feel like thought is the best word to describe what's really needed which is more like perception insight learning seeing for oneself actually and then unfolding through words and language what it is that one is trying to paint a picture of that one actually saw just like how Einstein would have some big insight and then would take two years for him to put it into a way that people could actually understand what it was that he was trying to say and even then people still didn't necessarily get it or have the context through which to understand it we need to hallucinate a more meaningful reality maybe all meanings are hallucinations and delusions but the ones that consensus reality says they're okay to believe all those are okay and I feel like the stress in the body's actually what causes some of the epigenetic changes and maybe the bipolar biotypes that lead to these perceptions that are seen from the outside as loose nation and delusion in order to move us out of the poison of society and start to co-create something outside of the realm of stress and it's almost like those perceptions are what reduce the stress someone might still be in the same stressful environment but then they have these perceptions and hallucinations and so called delusions and those are almost like self-medication to be able to keep one okay and in a way that's why we fantasize in our mind because we can't stand the present moment so I think there's a self-medication thing in the hallucination but also it's showing what we could move towards in order to create a reality that we wouldn't have to hallucinate in order to experience and the stress of this reality is like a collective stress and then all of a sudden these children they're being born without being able to acquire the language which in a stressful reality acquiring language would just increase the stress it would increase the collective stress so it's like a distressing necessary reaction Gaia is trying to grow other brains and it does it in conjunction with the heartbeat and the heart is sensitive to stress and if it's beating in a stressful way is creating stressful molecules and then the brain is unable to learn but I think at a certain amount of stress the brain starts to try to learn again by creating these hallucinations our brains aren't fully grown and our brains are being misused we're misusing the prefrontal cortex that has all this noise going on I feel like normality is still a very delayed brain it's been developmentally delayed we're stuck in ego consciousness what kind of brain grows in love I just had a sense that the scale of consciousness is also related to our spine like the chakra systems i guess like the lower energies are sort of shame around our base chakra and things and then we get into courage which is kind of like our gut and then we get into love which is our heart and then we get into probably joy is like the throat chakra being able to sing and speak and so I just feel there's like this instrument that we are and the lower chakras are not necessarily bad though they're associated with shameful things because I just remember when i was in terror i was having these sensations in my lower chakras and i was also feeling absolutely terrified like fight or flight I wonder if speaking to sort of integrates the heart chakra and the higher chakra because the speaking is in between so it's a way to sort of integrate and give voice to both and the language we use is important language below the level of 200 of anger of jealousy of shame that is going to make us weak whereas above 200 is courage it's going to make us strong and that's why I think all this self dialogue will actually help make my nervous system strong partly because I've created a lot of context a lot of brain cells a lot of neural plasticity around this and it's all strength stuff so in that way I feel like it's possible my nervous system is stronger in that I've used my words and my body and everything to speak about this to speak it into neural reality at least and then perhaps having that context in my own nervous system I can emerge as that as I go about my daily life and I feel like our nervous system is meant to perceive Gaia not the little me and referring every perception to that we're misusing our nervous system we're misusing our brain we're misusing our voice we're being used by it I think that's one of the fundamental differences is using our voice versus being used by it using words creating words playing with words versus having them play on us if we get stuck in word loops I think they're only naturally going to be negative because they're not reporting on actuality because if we were actually perceiving actuality we would be an ecstasy joy and bliss and love there's no other way to be the fact we her own voice in our head saying repeating stuff is delusion and is illusion

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