The messy middle isn't always about a crisis you can name. Sometimes it's quietly losing your sense of self inside a relationship that looks fine from the outside — and not having language for what's actually happening until years later.

Dr. Jordin Wiggins is a naturopathic doctor, pleasure and intimacy coach, and founder of the Pleasure Collective. She built a thriving health clinic, checked every box success was supposed to look like, and was still disconnected, exhausted, and quietly unraveling underneath it — both in her business and in a relationship she didn't yet have language to call abusive.

In this episode, Jordin and I talk about starting over with your own desire after burnout, after betrayal blindness, and after losing your sense of agency inside your own home. We talk about why sexual dysfunction often isn't a personal failing at all — it's a power imbalance, an invisible labor problem, or a nervous system too dysregulated to access pleasure. We talk about responsive versus spontaneous desire, the orgasm gap, and why women's pleasure centers shut down in survival mode. And we get into what it actually felt like for her — a successful clinic owner who solved other people's problems all day — to rebuild her own identity, and her own desire, from nothing.

This is also deeply personal for me. We talk about my own relationship in my teens and twenties, and the both/and of loving someone while slowly disappearing inside that love.

This is a conversation about grief, identity shift, transition anxiety, and the messy middle of rebuilding your relationship to your own body, your own pleasure, and your own worth after everything falls apart. For anyone who has ever felt successful on paper and empty underneath — this one is for you.

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The messy middle isn't always something you can talk your way through. Sometimes you just need a place to breathe.

This week I'm sharing something a little different — an episode from my companion podcast, It's Both Guided Meditations. I'm in the middle of our move to Colorado, boxes everywhere, and I didn't want to go silent on you. But I also couldn't give you a full interview episode this week. So instead I'm giving you this.

This meditation is for the waiting. For the unknown. For the transition anxiety that sits in your body when you've made a decision but can't get to the other side of it yet. For the knot in your stomach and the tightness in your chest that won't turn off no matter how many times you check your phone or refresh your email.

We're not fixing anything here. We're not trying to be positive or push through. We're just finding a little awareness, a little steadiness, and a little permission to be exactly where you are.

Both things can be true — you can be scared and still be okay. You can have no control over the outcome and still have control over how you take care of yourself while you wait.

If this resonates, the full It's Both Guided Meditations feed is free and available wherever you listen. New episodes drop regularly for anxiety, emotional regulation, and real life transitions.

And I'll be back next week with something I'm really excited to share with you. 

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The messy middle isn't always about a big dramatic moment. Sometimes it's the house that won't sell. The city you're grieving before you've even left. The goodbye that keeps getting delayed while life keeps demanding you show up anyway.

This week I'm coming to you solo and I'm sharing where I am right now. We put our house on the market three months ago. We were under contract and then we weren't. Now we're leaving with nowhere to land yet, three kids including one starting kindergarten for the very first time, and a life I built here over ten years that I don't quite know how to say goodbye to.

In this episode I talk about the anxiety and transition anxiety that comes with major life changes when the timing is completely out of your control, the grief of leaving a place that rebuilt me after everything fell apart, the identity shift of not knowing what comes next professionally or financially, and the emotional complexity of being so ready to go and so heartbroken to leave at the same time.

I also talk about something I've been wrestling with — free will, predestination, and what it means when things aren't unfolding the way you thought they would. Is that a sign you're on the wrong path? Or is it just hard? And what do you do when you can't tell the difference?

This is a conversation about grief, starting over, mixed emotions, and the very specific kind of suffering that comes from grieving something you're still living inside of every single day. It's also a love letter to a city that saved me. And my last recording in this room — one year in.

For anyone in the waiting right now — anyone suspended in that in-between where you've made peace with what's coming but just can't get there yet — this one is for you. You are not alone in this.

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The messy middle looks different for everyone. Sometimes it's a major life transition. Sometimes it's the quiet, daily tension of living in a body you haven't fully made peace with yet.

One year ago this week I sat down with one of my best friends — Heather, a therapist, a mom, and one of the most honest people I know — and we recorded the very first episode of It's Both. I'm re-releasing it this week because I'm in the middle of our move, boxes everywhere, chaos everywhere, and somehow it's also the one year anniversary of this show. It felt like the most perfect, messy, both/and thing to do.

In this episode, Heather and I talk about the anxiety that comes with living in a body that feels like it doesn't fit the mold, the complicated messages most of us received about our bodies growing up that we are still quietly unlearning, and what body neutrality actually means — and why it might be the most realistic and honest place to start when loving your body feels impossible.

We talk about the duality of feeling strong and insecure at the same time. We talk about what happens when you spend a decade giving your body to everyone else and forget to ask what it actually needs. And we talk about the moment — floating in a pool with her kids — when Heather felt genuine gratitude for her body for the very first time.

This is a conversation about emotional complexity, identity, and the messy middle of learning to live in your own skin. For anyone who has ever stood in front of a mirror and felt two completely opposite things at the same time — this one is for you.

If you're new here, this is the perfect place to start. This is where it all began.

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The messy middle doesn't always announce itself. Sometimes it arrives at 40 years old with three kids, a career you left behind, and a life you have to rebuild from the ground up — while you're still in the wreckage of the one you lost.

Donna Jean Kendrick was 40 when her husband Greg died by suicide. What followed wasn't a clean grief arc. It was the duality of relief and devastation existing at the same time. It was quiet minivans and shower tears. It was oodles and noodles budgets and concussions at baseball games and a zero book of business and a mission she didn't know she was building toward yet.

In this episode, Donna and I talk about the anxiety and major life changes that come with losing a spouse suddenly — and what it actually looks like to survive, then slowly, imperfectly start to thrive. We talk about the complicated grief of suicide loss, the identity shift from wife to widow to single mother, the emotional complexity of finding love again and blending a family of six kids, and what it means when the beautiful life you build after only exists because of the one you lost.

We also talk about the moment her stepchildren's mother passed in 2024 — and how her own kids, who had been there before, knew exactly what to do.

This is a conversation about grief and relief. About the gap between surviving and living. About transition anxiety, identity shift, and holding the love of two people at the same time without looking away from any of it.

If this episode brings up anything difficult, please know you can reach the 988 Suicide and Crisis Lifeline anytime by calling or texting 988. You are not alone.

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The messy middle doesn't always look like one hard thing. Sometimes it looks like being biracial, bisexual, a therapist, a storyteller, a single dad, and a first-time memoirist — all at the same time, all in the same body, all navigating the anxiety of major life changes while asking the same question: who am I when I can't fit into one box?

Johnzelle Anderson has been living in the duality his entire life. Growing up mixed race in Southwest Virginia in the 90s, raised in whiteness while being told he looked like a man he was never allowed to know, navigating a marriage, a separation, a bisexual identity shift, and a trip to Sierra Leone with his six-year-old daughter — all while starting over and helping other people heal from the exact kinds of wounds he was still uncovering in himself.

In this episode, Johnzelle and I talk about what it feels like to grow up being asked "what are you?" — and what it takes to finally answer that question for yourself. We talk about the transition anxiety that comes with losing who you were before you know who you're becoming. We talk about writing a memoir structured not in chapters but in tracks, because that's how memory actually moves. We talk about holding mixed emotions — grief and gratitude, identity and belonging, connection and isolation — all at the same time. And we talk about what it means to be worthy of connection — not entitled to it, worthy of it — and the difference between the two.

This is a conversation about identity, emotional complexity, and the messy middle of becoming more fully yourself. For anyone who has ever felt like too many things at once and wondered if that meant something was wrong with them — it doesn't. That's just what it feels like to be human.

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The messy middle isn't always about a crisis you can name. Sometimes it's the slow realization that the timeline you had in your head — married by 30, partnered by 35 — just isn't happening. And instead of asking what's wrong with you, what if you asked something different?

Shani Silver has been single for over 13 years. She's 43, she deleted her dating apps in 2019, and she wrote the book — literally — on reframing singlehood. Her newest book, What If We Never Get Married? A Happily Ever Answer, sits with the question most of us are too scared to ask — and finds out the answer is so much better than what we've been taught to fear.

In this episode, Shani and I talk about the anxiety and life transitions that come with aging into singlehood, the grief of a timeline that didn't happen, and what it actually looks like to be happy while single — without swearing off love or pretending you don't still want it. We talk about how the dating industry destroyed dating culture for profit, why light bulb moments are for movies and not real human lives, and what partnered people don't realize they're doing to their single friends.

This is a conversation about permanence, grief, desire, and radical permission. You can want love and be happy alone. You can be in the messy middle of a life that doesn't look like what you planned — and still be living a full one.

For anyone navigating major life changes in how they see themselves, their relationships, or their future — this one is for you.

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The messy middle of being surrounded by people and still feeling completely alone. Jason Lange is a men's embodiment coach who helps men reconnect to their hearts, their bodies, and to each other. The data is staggering: in 1990, 3% of men reported having fewer than three close friends. By the late 2010s, that jumped to 15%. Post-COVID? Likely even higher.

This is a conversation about life transitions, anxiety, and major life changes for men navigating the loneliness epidemic. About why male friendships stay surface level, why so many men turn to alcohol, porn, or overworking to self-regulate, and what it actually takes to go deeper.

We talk about triangulation — the default mode of male connection where the focus is always on a third thing (sports, an activity) instead of each other. About why men collapse in shame during sex instead of staying connected. About the difference between sexual performance and sexual connection. And why men's groups might be one of the most powerful tools we're not talking about.

In this episode:

— Why 15% of men now report having fewer than three close friends (and it's getting worse)

— The both/and of having friends AND feeling lonely because you never talk about what's real

— Triangulation: why men bond over sports games instead of eye contact

— How to take the first step: go first, don't wait, lead with vulnerability

— Living in your head vs. living in your body — why embodiment matters

— Why so many men in their 20s are showing up with ED (performance anxiety, not physiology)

— The missing nutrient of masculine connection, peer support, and love

— Why belonging and purpose are the two deepest needs for men

This is for anyone who's wondered why men struggle to go deep. For men ready to feel fully alive. For partners who want to understand what's beneath the surface.

Jason is a men's embodiment coach, podcast host (Evolutionary Men), and facilitator of men's circles.

Life isn't either/or. It's both. And you're allowed to hold all of it.

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The messy middle of getting everything you thought you wanted — and still feeling empty. Cassidy Gard spent years at Good Morning America producing breaking news stories that shaped the national conversation. Emmy Award-winning TV producer. High-achieving. Living the dream in LA. And also carrying generational trauma from growing up with an alcoholic father, absorbing vicarious trauma from the stories she told, and battling anxiety and depression behind the scenes.

Then the pandemic forced stillness upon her. She drove to Montana, bought a cabin she named Cosmic Goodness, and started rebuilding. She met her partner at a sound bath in Joshua Tree. She became a mom to two boys under two. She left the high-pressure career.

But then came the next messy middle. She moved to the suburbs of Long Island — a beautiful beach town where the nearest Target was an hour away. And she loved her kids fiercely AND she was bored, isolated, disconnected from the creative communities that fed her soul. This is a conversation about life transitions, major life changes, and the both/and of ambition and motherhood.

At two months postpartum with her second son, she made a radical choice: rent out the house and become a nomadic family, moving to a new city every six weeks.

In this episode:

— The both/and of loving your kids deeply AND feeling suffocated by suburban life

— Growing up with an alcoholic father and how perfectionism became survival

— Vicarious trauma from producing breaking news stories about mass shootings and the Me Too movement

— When the pandemic forced stillness and everything changed

— Meeting her partner at a sound bath on 2/22/22 in Joshua Tree

— The identity crisis of early motherhood: "Shouldn't I be content just doing mom life?"

— Postpartum anxiety after her son's injury at 8 days old

— Postpartum rage and resentment when her partner got to keep working

— The divine timing of life: scripting your future and making micro decisions that lead you there

— Learning to have fun with yourself before you can have fun with anyone else

— Becoming a nomadic family with a toddler and infant (currently living in Paris)

This is for anyone navigating the both/and of success and burnout, gratitude and emptiness, loving motherhood and needing more. For anyone who's built a life that looks good on the outside but feels hollow on the inside. For anyone in their own reinvention.

Cassidy is the author of Cosmic Goodness: Surrendering the Shadows to Live in the Light, a debut memoir published by Simon & Schuster (releasing May 12, 2026). She writes about childhood trauma, perfectionism, ambition, motherhood, and the quiet synchronistic moments that guide us toward what's next.

Life isn't either/or. It's both. And you're allowed to hold all of it.

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Have you ever needed to talk to someone, but you didn't want their advice? You didn't want them to fix you or solve your problem or tell you what to do. You just needed someone to hear you. Not interrupt. Not redirect. Not make it better. Just... listen.

The messy middle of holding it together everywhere else and falling apart inside. Erin Snow spent nearly 17 years as a legal advocate for survivors of domestic violence and sexual assault. She made history as the first paralegal in New Hampshire to represent clients directly in family court. And then she became a mother, went through a divorce, and was navigating life transitions and anxiety — with no space to say what she actually needed to say.

So she created one. The Unmuted Room is a professional listening service for people going through major life changes who need space to speak without packaging it prettily, without making it palatable, without managing how the truth comes out. This is a conversation about why sometimes the answer isn't advice, it's just being heard.

In this episode:

— The both/and of being an expert in trauma advocacy AND hitting rock bottom yourself

— Why what goes unspoken doesn't disappear — it just grows heavier

— The difference between therapy, friends, and a neutral listening space

— How we manage ourselves in every single room (work, home, relationships)

— "How do you want me to listen to you today?" — the question that changes everything

— When you need to say it out loud but you're terrified of what might come out

— The verbal smash room: letting it out however it comes out, no filter, no fixing

— Why listening is not "just" anything — it's the thing we're all missing

This is for anyone who feels like they're holding it together in public but falling apart in private. For anyone who needs permission to not be fine. For anyone managing how much truth they reveal because they're worried about the response.

Erin's work lives in the gap between therapy and friendship — a space where you can show up messy, raw, unfiltered, and just be heard. No treatment plan. No diagnosis. No solutions unless you ask for them. Just space.

If you've ever thought "I just need someone to listen," this episode is for you.

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