The holidays are supposed to feel joyful… but what if they don’t?

In this episode of IJNG Podcast, I talk honestly about what I’m calling Not So Holy Holidays — not because God isn’t holy, but because sometimes the season doesn’t feel holy to us.

Sometimes it feels heavy. Sometimes it feels quiet. Sometimes it feels like survival.

I share personally about grief, starting over, unmet expectations, and learning how to trust God when joy feels fleeting and life looks nothing like the word or vision you thought He gave you.

We talk about surrender, standing on holy ground in the “in-between,” and why God’s promises are still trustworthy even when the process doesn’t make sense.

If you’re navigating the holidays feeling behind, discouraged, or unsure of what God is doing — this conversation is for you.

In Part 2 of my conversation with Justine, we shift into a lighter but just as powerful space. We talk about obedience, faith, why God tests us, and what it really looks like to grow with Him in real time.

This episode feels like sitting with your homegirl, laughing, learning, and discovering God together — no perfection, just honesty. If you’re in a season of becoming, trusting, and figuring things out as you go, this conversation is for you. 💛

In this powerful two-part conversation, I sit down with my friend Justine as she opens up about her journey back to Christ — from battling depression to facing deep trauma and still finding her way to forgiveness and healing. Her story is raw, honest, and full of grace. We talk about what it means to trust God again after pain, and how His love meets us right in the middle of our brokenness. This one is for anyone who’s ever felt too far gone — you’re not. 💛

Sometimes control just isn’t giving… no matter how hard we plan, pray, or try to piece life together. I’ve realized there are moments we just won’t have all the answers. This week, I’m sharing what I’ve been learning about surrender, imposter syndrome, and the beauty of trusting God when it doesn’t make sense. We’ll talk about confusion, frustration, and what to do when you’re tired of not knowing. If you’ve ever tried to fix what only faith can heal—this one’s for you. 💛

In part two, we go deeper — talking about legacy, forgiveness, purity, and what it means to walk with God through every season. My grandmother’s wisdom and honesty are the kind that stay with you long after you listen.

In this first episode, I sit down with my great grandmother — the matriarch of our family — to talk about her story, her faith, and what it means to trust God when life doesn’t make sense. From growing up in the foster system to raising generations with love and prayer, this conversation is a reminder that faith isn’t perfect, but it’s powerful.

In this episode, we get real about the tension that comes with trying to believe when life is lifing. I’m joined by my great-grandmother—my very first guest—whose faith has carried her through decades of trials, losses, and breakthroughs. We talk about what it really means to trust God, especially when it feels like your circumstances are saying the complete opposite.

From generational trauma to the silent battles many of us carry, we explore why faith can feel hard to hold onto and how our lived experiences can shape (and sometimes limit) what we believe God can do. This conversation is layered—raw, wise, and full of truth for anyone who's ever felt like faith just isn’t giving.

If you’ve ever struggled to believe, questioned what God is doing, or felt disconnected from the people in your family or church because no one’s telling the full story—this one is for you.