Episode 031 of Living in Response is a result of having a mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and physically hard day today and staying devoted to the process even when there’s a million reasons not to.

Thanks for your support on this unedited, unfiltered, and unbounded first steps onto my creative path <3

Topics Covered in This Episode:Summarized (mostly) with AI

1️⃣ I Didn't Want to Record (But I Did Anyway)I open up about why I almost skipped today’s episode—physical discomfort, tangled thoughts, and a heavy emotional cloud. But I chose to show up anyway, not from pressure, but from devotion to the process and my own body’s wisdom.

2️⃣ Pain, Puzzles, and My LiverAfter a recent ER visit and continued discomfort near my liver and gallbladder, I talk about the emotional toll of feeling physically unwell—how even with a thriving life, uncertainty in the body can rattle everything. I reflect on what it’s like to hold medical, energetic, and spiritual perspectives all at once.

3️⃣ Crying in My Partner’s LapSometimes, the only answer is a cry. I share how I broke down in my partner’s lap, not from sadness, but from sheer emotional saturation. There was no singular reason—just a flood of everything. And letting myself be held in that was healing.

4️⃣ The Inner Committee of ConfusionToday, my mind felt like a roundtable of voices arguing over what everything meant. I explore how my mental spiral made it hard to access clarity and how sometimes the most supportive thing isn’t “figuring it out,” but letting go of needing to.

5️⃣ Posting in a Spiritual Community (for the First Time)I reflect on my first vulnerable share in an online spiritual group, asking for perspective—not answers—on the layers I’m moving through. For the first time in a long time, I asked for help.

6️⃣ Astrology, Neptune, and the 12th House FogI unpack the transit of Neptune entering my 12th house and how it’s amplifying my sensitivity, confusion, and inner mystery. I talk about the Piscean mist, dream states, and how astrology reflects what’s already alive in my field. (I learned Astrology from The School of Living Astrology with Tyler Penor.)

7️⃣ Trying to Make Meaning (And Letting That Go)As someone who loves learning and living through frameworks, I found myself caught today between trying to assign meaning to my experience and realizing: maybe I don’t need to. Maybe it just is. Maybe the medicine is in the feeling, not the story.

8️⃣ The Relief of a Bath, a Cry, and a Rom-ComFrom watching A Cinderella Story to soaking in an Epsom salt bath, I share how small acts of care became turning points in my day. Sometimes, soothing the inner child is the most spiritual act of all.

9️⃣ Practicing What I Preach (Even on the Hard Days)Today was a chance to actually live the things I talk about—letting the body lead, moving through discomfort, and choosing gentleness. I didn’t bypass, I didn’t fix—I just lived it. And that, to me, is embodiment.

🔟 The Courage to Ask for HelpI reflect on how I wasn’t raised to ask for help—and how today I did it anyway. I talk about the generational and cultural barriers to support, and how reaching out to others (even imperfectly) is changing me.

1️⃣1️⃣ Spiritual Overload and Information FatigueAfter years of consuming spiritual tools, methods, and teachers, I’m feeling the effects of spiritual overstimulation. I share the challenge of integrating so many perspectives and how I’m learning to return to my own body as the final word.

1️⃣2️⃣ When the Body Doesn't Feel Good (and the Mind Spirals)I get real about how being in consistent discomfort has impacted my thoughts, emotions, and sense of purpose. I explore how chronic sensation can trigger existential loops—and how I'm slowly learning to interrupt that pattern with presence.

1️⃣3️⃣ Living My LogotherapyThrough it all, I ground in Viktor Frankl’s idea that meaning is always available—even in suffering. I reflect on how today’s practice wasn’t about escape, but about attitude. I chose not to resist what was, and that choice shifted everything.

1️⃣4️⃣ I Set the PaceI close with a reminder: I don’t need to rush through this process. I don’t need to perform joy. I set the pace. And today, that pace was slow, foggy, tender, and true.

Mentions & Resources:🌿 Viktor Frankl – Logotherapy / Man’s Search for Meaning🌀 Energy Work & Emotional Release📘 Astrology: Neptune in the 12th House✨ EFT Tapping 💫 The Power of Asking for Help🧘‍♀️ Epsom Salt Baths, Cozy Robes & Rom-Coms as Medicine

Deep gratitude for every part of the human experience, even the rough ones like today.

Mystically,

Belle

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