Yep, I fully solved it now.  Like, at this point, I don't even need to talk about Christianity anymore.  I can move on to making a billion podcasts about another religion.  I legit solved the entire lore and myth of Jesus.  And this time, it’s with facts and knowledge. Not just my own wonders or feelings.  



So yeah.... Uh.... guess I need to find a new religion to disprove or find interesting to talk about.  Who knows who it will be...it could be any of you.  Will it be Judaism? Islam? Perhaps Confucianism?!? Shinto!!!!????  Who knows. But be prepared.

Boy do I love to ramble and give way to much detail to circulate the ENTIRE subspace of the idea/point im trying to make. It's definitely a problem of mine, but I guess it's my only way to memorizing something or working out something in my head. I think its because while im talking, im imagining the situation happen to. Like I see the "movie" of the memory in my head so I'm describing everything I see similar to Thane in mass effect.

Either way, yeah I'm glad I had the epiphany. Truly makes me look at things in a different light.

Like, say my descriptions on YouTube or in these podcasts, you can TELL it’s me talking.  Every sentence has my soul in it.  You can hear the way I’m saying it and my voice.  Imagine if I talked all officially. Here is an example:



Now, I’ll use the AI to enhance the grammatical correctness and readability of my sentence. I want it to be easy to read and acceptable to an editor for a magazine, book, or journal. However, I notice that it doesn’t sound like me anymore; it sounds generic. Who is speaking here? Is it me, someone else, or the host of this podcast? Am I supposed to imagine the host speaking here? Or is it just a simple description created for Google or Apple to improve my search rankings? You’ll never know. It’s such nonsense. I detest how we’re forced to sound like this so frequently.

This was a thought I had back in Hong Kong and then discussed with a friend while touring Shenzhen. It does truly make me wonder if the release of the truly god tier AI is worth the trouble once it's created. Not in the "we humans can't handle the knowledge" way, but in a "we humans can't handle be useless" way.

I truly don't know. Cause it's a bit different from "Alien Disclosure" cringe, because its not a "omg normal people can't handle the truth it might disrupt all belief systems and scare everyone into chaos" bs... the fear is more rather we'd be ok with not having a purpose anymore. Literally no purpose at all. Truly a complicated and interesting question. One that would have to be taken very VERY seriously.

Once I saw the connection, things really made so much more sense.  And then I started seeing it everywhere.  Like we humans can't help but add a deeper lore to things.  No matter what it is.  It could be something as simple as a crashed object in Roswell, and decades later there's an entire galactic community of grays, Nordics, lizards, whatever tf and a war between devils and 6th dimensional creatures that are part of a galactic alliance where actually 1/10 of humanity are secretly aliens are we don't know it and blah blah blah.....



Like....we just can't help ourselves from adding overcomplicated spaghetti lore.

I have to learn that many people on this Earth are just flawed.  Like it's a pretty narcissistic thing to say, because it makes me seem like I’m perfect, but it's the truth. So many people have massive flaws and I need to stop thinking automatically that I'm one of them. 



Like I definitely have my moments, but I can't keep blaming myself for the flaws of others.  I have to just learn that it's truly the way the cookie crumbles. When things happen, it just happens.  There's no way to really change or do things differently.  Things could've been done differently and the same thing could've still happened.  People are just crazy. Sadly, life isn't like the animes...

Also, a side note, since I'm typing this months in the future, the old lady, at least as of now, I’m okay with her.  I'm definitely standoffish around her since I still remember the situation and it was off-putting and changed my mental model of her, but nothing bad has happened since.  So technically, I’m chill with her now.

Don't worry this is I think the last time I go on a tangent about jews and such. At least I think. Idk, I did a ton of podcast in such a short amount of time so hard to remember months and months later.

But yeah either way it's still wild to me. Like I get that they for sure seem to nepotize hella, but literally every one does. Not that it's a good thing, but it's a strange thing to focus on. Like you don't see people, for example, jumping on Chinese or Japanese for how they seemingly have large family businesses where they only hire their own people and blah blah blah. But whatever, doesn't matter to me. As a black ******, it's all different shades of gray for me. Not like from my perspective it changes anything rather one slightly different genetic blood line drops my resume or doesn't give me a chance vs another slightly different genetic blood line. They all not giving me a chance equally.

It's a sad truth that took a while for me to realize. There's nothing that can really be done. Like I'm sure it will happen eventually, but it will take decades of slow movement into middle class lifestyles and then the softening of the people/monetary opportunities for the community to change.

And the ironic part, by the time it happens, the "Black Community" probably won't even exist anymore for it to even matter. Not only cause interracial relationships are quite common and will become more common, but because as cultures infuse more, many people of the "community" won't feel they have much in common with it.

It will be an irony like no other. Right when the community finally escapes its cage it was forced into, it won't matter cause it won't really be a community....

No but seriously, like I get it now. Like it's not enough for me to complain about cause not like taxes really effecting my pansy af small salary amount, and not like I spend lavishly anyhow (literally just saving and saving until something changes in my life....), but I truly don't understand where this money is going. Like the country apparently overspends its tax dollars SO HEAVILY that we need to take loans from other countries...and even then, we take so much loans from our own citizens and other countries that we are in a deficit that will never be paid back...

It just doesn't add up. And worse, when you see how these high up politicians live....it's like....you shouldn't be able to afford this life style...

All I'm saying is, stuff don't add up and its no wonder the richest of society just dodge em.

Terrible audio. I think it's due to the way I uploaded the file to the computer. Sometimes it for some reason gets really glitchy. But it's too late now. Spoiler, I'm editing AND then later uploading this literally months after I made it. So I'm way too lazy to fix it.... but it's a mini wiz so whatever.

But yeah it's crazy how detailed dreams are. Like for real, there is nothing quite like it. If death is like that...then maybe death isn't so bad...