My home groups a 100 Pounder Meeting. 

I resonate with those at the bottom who continue to eat.

I I thought my clothes would trick you when my face didn't

I never knew what a "Normal" body size was. 

I lied to myself everyday about what I would eat.

I have been in the program for about 20 years.  however 

3 years ago I was deep into a relapse, waking up in the middle of the night sick.

The day I got abstinent the change was so dramatic it affected me negatively physically and emotionally for weeks.

One day of abstinence is a miracle. 

Abstinence is scary, joyful, amazing and everything in between.

I continue to grow and change, make mistakes, work the steps and still looking for a way around it.