if you follow the law of attraction philosophy that says "follow your desires" you will be confused when you are doing shit that you dont want to do even though you are trying to get something that you want. But there are layers to this shit. there is a superficial emotional want, and then there is a life goal. life goals require a lotttt of discipline and doing a lot of what you dont want to do in the moment. if you want to succeed just get used to it!