Very personal as always. I am going on like I do. I think I am almost ready to go. If I can gather my courage.

Just a little recap of the last 24 hrs.

Ugh... when am I going to stop thinking this negative crap. Lol this is me just thinking out loud. I totally intended to go a different way when I started this recording. I suppose this is Depression for you. Its just invasive negative thought. I felt very numb most of the time around this recording.

Just updates about activities of daily living...

Mostly walking my mind through the motions to get some peace. Letting go of something I can not have right now. Trying to find a way forward.

Deciding to end my journey, return to MUSKOGEE. That last morning.

I finally get back on the road.

False start. Beginning 2nd journey.

Talk about mistakes I am currently making right before I leave for my SECOND ATTEMPT AT LOSING THIS WEIGHT. CURRENTLY 407 POUNDS.

Couple segments. I just play with story format. Free thought.