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hey everyone,

welcome to the show where i babble about stuff that nobody cares about.

nevertheless I know at least 2 people i know will give actual effort about hearing this,

not cause they like my work,

but because they genuinely care for me and i am thankful for that.

Today i want to address over the habit of complaining and broadly the habit of making excuses.

I don't really think that both of them are any different if anything they have a causal relationship with each other.

we all have problems,

Broadly divided in 2 categories,

one's that you solve and other's that you don't.

there's only 1 actual factor that decides the result,it's your motivation to solve it.

Just to make it clear your will to do something and your motivation to do something are 2 very different things.

your will to do something is about how much do you wish to do something,your motivation is how hard you want that to happen.

when we talk about someone's will only thing that matters is his mindset,

a motivation is a causal phenomenon that has various deep reasons.

from a time limit to a life or death situation.

anyway i advice you to be motivated rather than trust your will power.

put yourself in such situation so that the only option remaining will be make that thing happen.

Because from my experience procrastination will always overpower your willpower whereas whereas your fear of consequences will always keep you motivated to make things happen.

Sometimes to solve a problem you will have to put yourself in a problematic situation.

And it has it's benefits too.

you will understand the problem better, in many cases you will start hating the problem so much that you'll have to solve it.

Hate and fear two strong human weapons that are highly underrated.

i know i sound like a terrorist but this is a fact.

Complaining about something is similar to making excuses.

when you complain about something your focus will move from solving something to how the problem is.

I won't stretch this any further i don't want to want to bore you.

but i'd encourage to think about this.

Hope you are drinking enough water.

Bye.

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Hi,

To whoever is listening,

Stay safe,

Cause none of us is.

We or at least I have talked about freedom on these journals several times.

It's like a recurring theme here.

We all are bound by different things in our lives.

But before we discuss them,

I want to project my opinion about why I strive for freedom?

In most cases the things that bound us comfort us in someway,

May it be your bed or Instagram or alcohol,

But the things that comfort us control us.

A decision for something starts becoming the only option.

When you get too comfortable to the routine,

The brain starts to get into autopilot,

Now you are addicted to the dopamine,

To the comfort of the routine,

But you might think what's the problem if I'm comfortable. The problem is you won't always be comfortable, you'll have to face a tougher situation but when you are addicted to comfort the task will seem humongous,

I myself experience these feelings on a regular,

I'm learning to grow out of them,

Rest when I need to and resting cause I've got nothing better to do are very different things.

I'm can observe myself addicted to procrastination, giving up too early, inconsistency, inability to say no and the list will go on and on.

Currently I'm reading a book named Ikigai by hector garcia and francesc miralles.

There's a concept that they present in the book that advises us to try at least one new thing everyday,

Something am that's out of your routine,

In that way, you break free from the autopilot mode of your brain that has been addicted to the routine.

Another technique is mindful thinking,

To put it in simple words is to becoming aware of you and your surroundings,

Observing yourself, understanding why you make the choices you make, knowing more about yourself,

Understanding yourself,

Making a note of your self growth physically and mentally on a daily.

These stuff seem to stimulate your brain,

Freezes it's rusting,

There's more I need to share but next time,

Amigos.

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Ok this is important,

Maybe to you,

Definitely for me,

I had always been clueless About what I really want,

No real purpose to be honest,

I've been searching for a meaning for a long time,

That took me nowhere

And it's not just me

Most of us not just kids or teenagers even adults.

I look at people and see them doing what they don't want to and I mean it's not a problem but only if doing it is necessary to take you to the place you want to.

And God bless me,

I don't want to be like them.

Most of the efforts I was making was towards getting money.

And when I finally got a job I was clueless

What to do now,

I never even realised why I was chasing money,

Until recently,

What I'm chasing isn't money, but rather it's primarily 2 things that I yearn for,

1. Freedom

2. Strength to protect others

I've talked about this before, freedom is what will make you happy, not necessarily that your life will be easier but certainly you won't be a slave anymore. How do I except myself to be of use to someone else, if what I do is follow someone else.

So yeah certainly freedom is one, I have so much to talk on this but maybe some other time.

Secondly, strength.

When I say strength I mean the ability to protect the people I care about. For me, strength comprises of physical health, Money, mental clarity, peace, Courage and Control.

It's a lot and I'm pretty it'll take me a lifetime to achieve and I'm not even sure that if it'd even matter but that's what I wanna do.

The thing I wanna be is helpless.

To protect my parents, my girl and anybody I care about.

I'm pretty clueless still, but at least it's a n

nightlamp in dense fog.

Thank for listening, hope this was useful somehow.

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You know I haven't stayed alone for a long time.

But I have it for a even longer time.

It gives a feel of Independence,

A certain amount of freeness,

Freedom of thinking,

Freedom of living life at your own terms,

Freedom of making your own decisions.

You don't have to think about anyone else except yourself.

You have an opportunity to be you.

But it's a slippery slope,

Being alone provides a person with immense power to change himself and his life, but it is as addicting to take the easier road, giving in to your laziness,

Staying by yourself, gives you an opportunity to know more about yourself, understand yourself but the question is are you strong enough to accept yourself ? Like can you handle the fact that you are just a stupid ugly looking good for nothing loser and then say that I'm a loser who will change himself for better.

I know you must be thinking that yeah I can handle staying alone and maybe you can, but for most of us it'll be a tough but enlightening journey.

Many times the comfort of bed will triumph over your will of fire.

It'll also get lonely at times. And sad.

You'll cry and there will be nobody else around.

And that will make you even sadder.

What you need is a purpose.

If you have a vision, if you know what you want to achieve

And you are that deadass determined you'll get through it all.

These days will make you, now weather you stay or don't doesn't matter.

There are no wins or losses,

There are no sides,

There just you who did what was needed and you who did not.

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Time is a weird concept.

Past,present and future all three of them,

I don't think i can discuss all of them in one episode so let's focus on one of them,

one that matters the most,

The present.

One of the most weirdest concepts to define is time.

I mean i know what time is until somebody asks me what it means.

I've literally spent days coming up with an actual definition but i just can't

Maybe I'm just too dumb or i don't understand what it is or maybe it just doesn't exist.

Whichever it may be.

What i'm looking for is to use it for my own advantage.

When i instead of looking at time as a whole let's focus on 24 hours. or maybe a week's time.i.e.7 days.

Now I'm no Stephen hawking,so my techniques will be as raw as it gets.

I can divide time in 2 types:

1. the time spent in doing things that i want to do.

2. the time spent doing things that i don't want to do.

It's that simple.

But that arises the question why do stuff that you don't want to do,

the answer is you have to.

i know i know that isn't what the Instagram quote pages have sold you.

but that's the truth.

hear me out.

Let's assume you're dream is to visit Disneyland and you live in a third world city in India,

now can you just pack your bags and go to Disneyland,No

for starters you'll at least need money and a lot of it.

now you have spend time chasing that paper.

something you never singed up for.

that's what I'm saying

let's re-fabricate our division of time.

first, time spent in doing things i want to do.

second is the time spend in preparing for doing things i want to do.

and I guess that's it

anything that does not fall into these two isn't what you should be doing right?

I mean yeah we all want to do millions of stuff big and small

some of us want to have new clothes and some of us want a Mercedes

and it's all fine

until you are OK with it.

Whatever,That's all folks.

catch you next time.

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hi again to the 7 people who listen to this journal,

There are 2 human emotions that play the strongest role in the feeling game,

Some may agree with me,some won't.

And whatever i say will be totally biased on how i think the world is.

Anyway So i was saying the emotions that are felt the strongest are regret and disappointment.

We will try to absorb one thing at a time.

So let's talk about disappointment.

funny enough that's Something my parents would call me.

But jokes aside,I have had my fair share of disappointments and There was a time when I was just about disappointed by everything.

The world,the people around me,the society,the technology ,even myself.

when we stay with something too long,we start to understand it.

So i started observing the reason i was disappointed was because i wanted stuff to happen a certain way.

I wanted people to act the way i wanted.

I wanted the world to work as my wish.

Disappointment is closely related to expectations.

You expect something to happen and then it doesn't and then you get disappointed or irritated,basically end up having a bad day.

It's an endless cycle.

I'll be quoting elon musk here

he says:

"one of the biggest mistake that someone could do is wishful thinking,You want something to be true even if it's not true.Then you ignore the real truth because of something you want to be true.It's a very difficult trap to avoid."

Something similar is said in sun tzu's book the art of war.

Now I'm no rocket scientist but i think i have some bits and pieces that can be helpful.

Now as disappointments are results of failed expectations,

One way to avoid them is to have no expectations at all from anything,but we're human and it will be in fact impossible for one to have 0 expectations at all,

So a work around for that is to expect the worse from the world.

Consider every thing that can go wrong.

Like if you're in a fight consider someone punching you in the dick.

I know it's a bad example but you get the point.

If you expect things to go sideways you make yourself ready to face the worst,even better you try consciously to avoid those results.

And fortunately if things turn out great,It makes the experience better as you know what you have evaded.

But there's a downside,

It's paranoia.

But I'd rather discuss that in some other episode.

So that's all for now.

Thank you for listening.

adios.

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hello

and thank you to anyone who has taken up their time to listen to this.

Before I start let me tell you what this is and Who i am

My name is Apoorv,

I'm a pretty neutral guy nor really optimistic nor a negative guy.

what i believe is good things happen if we make them happen.

I'm gifted with the power of constant self reflection.

call it a boon or a curse whichever it maybe.

I am the master of small musings.

Anyway That's all about me,

the next things i had to address is the purpose of this,

what should i call this?

'the journal of small musings'

yeah that sounds right.

In the course of this journal we will try to touch all thoughts in my head.

play with them,

dream with them,

often kill them.

Hope we grow through this process both you and me together.

Journal of small musings episode one.