If you want to view paradise, simply look around and view it.” WONKA
There once was a boy. this boy just wanted to live a simple life. his goals were to have a kid, a wife and be able to provide a decent life for them. more than he had but not the life of royalty. he didn’t want lavish cars. he didn’t want a mansion. he just wanted some freedom and security. maybe no ambition isn’t the right word it’s more hyper focused ambition on simply just that life. that piece of dirt to call home. that tire swing ,that treehouse that picket fence. a room for each kid and nobody to tell him he can’t do something. he noticed that many people around him had goals of moving or making lots of money and going to college. he loved school. after all, it got him to this point, so why not love it. he loved his girlfriend, and he had faith the rest would follow. after somewhat of a slow start, he found a good job he bought a house, got married, and was well on his way to that simple life. much further ahead in life than most. during this, he worked hard in school and worked to move up the ranks every year he did just that. it wasn’t easy, and somewhere along the way, he did get distracted from his ambition in life for whatever reason he found himself disconnected from his own life. like it was a movie just playing out, and he was watching it. going through the motions hitting some bumps . it took an earthquake to wake him from his sleep, and believe me, he was shook. you keep thinking if I do this when this happens. if only one thing would fall in line. lifes a powder keg, it doesn’t take much to derail you. A simple match blows up the whole house. at times, it’s hard to take your own advice. sometimes we just want to stay lost sometimes we want to wallow in the despair because it’s easier. think about it. It’s easy to wake up and be pissed that things didn’t turn out how you’d like. maybe you have a shit job and a shit car, and everything is broken. It’s easy to point out the things that are wrong. you need to stop and think wow this is what I have. Don’t think about what you don’t have. “You can’t wait until life isn’t hard anymore before you decide to be happy,” Nightbirde. and you will fail. we all fail, and we all try. Thank God we get that opportunity. all I want to do is be with my family and provide for them. i want my kids to have the craziest childhood. I want them to have the highest possible standard of parenting to live up to. I want them to have unreasonable goals. I want them to look back at their childhood and say my dad was bat shit crazy in the best way. I want them to see me and their mom and say i want a love like that. An unrealistic Disney kinda love . “it’s that I can’t eat, can’t sleep, reach for the stars, over the fence,World series Kind of love.” It takes 2. dont read this and think I have all the answers. don’t say it’s easy for you to say. It’s not I have to wake up every day and have this ambition. these goals one step, one breath at a time its fucking hard because there’s no time to give . how do I give equal parts of myself to my kids my wife my job myself. there’s no parts left. I will tell you this: it’s definitely a mental game, and your attitude will affect all aspects of your life. some people have all the time and all the money and are the saddest people in the world. Remember , all things burn things are just things. memories are forever. your kids won’t remember how much stuff they had. they will remember how many memories you gave them.they will remember how much time you spent with them. cardboard boxes are cheap and yet the most fun thing in the world to a child. don’t let your ambition get in the way of your life. there won’t be time later for you to make it up. time is now time is oh so finite. Brace yourself for this life its not gonna stop. One minute its diapers next its college. Then its retirement. Love your family hard and fast. Enjoy every moment. It’s so hard to enjoy the moment when we’re in it. It’s so hard to stop and think one day these are the moments we’ll stop and think about. They are the only moments worth thinking about. I love my wife and kids more than anything. The best things to ever happen to me. Lifes not always easy but loving them is. You haven’t heard much from me on here. There’s just no time for my thoughts anymore. Im still here taking one step at a time. Thinking about my next steps. Enjoy your life. Falling and failing changed my life. We got a long way to go. I leave you with a song that hits for me. My family is my dream that came true. As always much love from the wessmans. Adapt and love.

It’s not money. It’s not things.It’s not how you treat people. It’s not what you’ve done. It’s not what you will do. I’ve had money. I’ve had things I’ve been praised for achievements. I’ve done some things and I’ll do more. That being said greatness to me is holding my little kids’ hands. it’s throwing a ball. it’s being there for them when they fall and when they walk. it’s treating them like they are precious. Because they are the most precious. It’s doing things that they see that are good and right. It’s showing them what honer, strength and love are. It’s working hard for them. It’s a hug at the end of a long day. My greatness is the family i built.100 percent. It’s easy in this life to lose track of that, and I do at times. Most people lose track of the only things that matter. Gold is nice because it allows you to provide for your family, but gold is cold. blood is warm. it’s usually 1 degree warmer than body temperature. Gold can’t save you. Family and friends can. I go all in on my friends and family. I’m there if you need help, and when my kids grow up, I will have shown them many things, but not all things because they will still need me for a few things. Please don’t lose sight of your greatness. it’s fine in this life to have a career it’s fine to strive for great achievements in all areas. that being said, if you have the honor of being a parent, I’m here to tell you that you’ve arrived. You’ve achieved something so great already. I have my beliefs of where we go when this world ends and you have yours. One thing we can agree on is that the gold you pile up in this world doesn’t go anywhere when you do. It’s your kids and your memory, your spirit carries on. You could say after a few generations we forget those who came before and you’d be right but we remember our parents and their personalities are from their parents. it lives on. my mom liked cheese on French toast and apple pie. I do as well. I remember her in that because I am her greatness. love you, mom. miss you every day. all this is to say find the greatness that you have , not that you might have when you die. Realize that you are the person you’re supposed to be. my goal is not to pile up a stack of gold but to be a better father tomorrow than I was today. The Pew Research Center found millennial dads have tripled the amount of time dedicated to childcare compared to dads from 1965. to me, this is the greatest sign that we are on the right track. we are three times more invested in our children. Good job, men. Keep it up. i want the best i only want the best for you. how powerful is our love for our children that we’d die or kill for them. I do nothing in this life for myself what I do is for my wife and kids I get up at 3:30 in the morning for them because they are my greatness. my reward is the love they give me in return. I got the better part of the deal. so in that aspect, I’m the greedy one I want their love. I can’t get enough. be great in your lives and in everything you do. if it’s just sweeping floors or if it’s doing someone’s taxes, being a parent, a husband, being a son, and being a friend. be excellent. I’ve been absent from this blog and I’m sure many people have stopped listening to me this was never about you. this blog was an amazing awesome crazy ride. to put my word salad down here was my therapy it got me past the sadness the anger the denial. it still has a place in my heart it got me to greatness and the lessons that I’ve learned here by just opening up have been invaluable. maybe you think I’ve overshared, and you’d be right, but I’ve undershared in my life. it can be hard to open up in real life. it’s easy here to just let it loose. it’s been great talking at you, and I hope I’ve uplifted some. I hope we leave this place better than we’ve found it. please reach out to me if you need some help. reach out to your family. start a blog find your greatness, you won’t regret it . As always much love from Indiana adapt and love.

We all have our own kind of crazy
Yes some of our brains are just hazy
Some drink too much booze
Jump overboard on a cruise
Life’s a movie
Just call up Scorsese!?

From the book Limerick Explosion.

in 2019, 1in8 people or 970 million people lived with a mental disorder.

An emotional regulation problem in thinking and / or behavior.the world is focused on anything but helping these people. your people. your kids. your family. yourself. we have failed. we have let it go unnoticed. undiagnosed. Where’s it come from. is it social media? is it the news? is it your genes? it’s everything. now keep in mind many people go through hell and still come out with perfect mind and spirit. I consider myself a person of strong spirit. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not easy. it’s not easy to wake up early go to work deal with ass clowns on the road or anywhere for that matter. I think everyone is one step from the edge. and some can be pulled from falling. maybe it’s just a simple thought that pulls you from darkness. or a kind gesture. there are those that are in over their head. clinically significantly disturbed in the mind.

Anxiety 301 million. 58 million of witch are kids.

What it is
fear worry that impacts everyday functions
types include separation,panic, and social.
a worry wart. Famous people with Charles Darwin, Barbara Streisand, Kim Bassinger

Depression 280 million, 23 million of which are kids.

great sadness. short lived emotions. feeling empty. guilt low self-worth, low energy. could lead to suicide. Jim Carrey ,Isaac Newton, Edgar Allen Poe. All have or had

Bipolar 40 million
depression mixed with a manic euphoria
all the symptoms of depression one minute, the next extremely talkative,high energy high self-esteem biggest highs lowest of lows.
could lead to suicide. Vincent Van Gogh,Jimi Hendrix, Marilyn Monroe. Had

PTSD
victims of traumatic events wars,abuse and disasters. avoidance of memories of such events. nightmares. Famous people with Mick jagger, Shia LaBeouf,Oprah Winfrey.

Schizophrenia 24 million 1 in 300 people
usually live 10 to 20 years with. delusional. easily,agitated.scattered thoughts. disconnected from what’s real. John Nash, Brian Wilson, Lionel Aldridge. Had

Eating 14 million, of which 3 million are kids
body weight and shape disorder
unhealthy could lead to suicide and / or substance abuse. Famous people with Jane Fonda, Elton John, Russell Brand

Neurodevelopmental
intellectual, motor,language,social issues.
ADHD in attention and / or hyperactivity impulsiveness that negatively impacts a person’s school,job, and social life. starts in kids and could last forever. someone with it has low self-esteem and is sensitive to criticism. 2.5 percent of adults and 8.4 percent of kids.
types
predominantly inattentive presentation
trouble staying on task ,staying focused. is care less without follow through. loses things poor time management
predominantly hyperactive presentation
fidgety talkative high energy impulsiveness won’t wait for turn.
someone could have both nobody has the same exact adhd. They can pay attention just not to things that don’t intrest them. Intelligence has nothing to do with it but being smart can help someone function with. Someone with adhd has trouble sleeping normal ,with diets and short term memory. Someone with adhd needs to find their lane where they can thrive.

nobody knows for sure where it comes from. Several genes have been linked to it, though. it may also not be adhd it could be mood,anxiety,injury,substance abuse, thyroid, or steroids. It could be everything everything all at once. JFK, Albert Einstein, Adam Levine.

so thats some facts but the truth is we all have a mental disorder it’s not some percentage of the population. It is the human condition. There are tons of conditions I couldn’t even cover in this little blog. It’s what you do with the hand your delt. It’s how you treat others. It’s how you love. It’s how you fight. I struggle with my emotions just like you. I joke to hide the pain. I joke to hide the self-doubt. I’ve grown, and I have my people. maybe that’s you. hello my friend, we haven’t spoken in a while. I used this blog to get through the darkest part of my life. You gotta find that thing that lets you cope with this world. I’ve always had friends, but it’s hard when your friends are gone or lost. Hard to open up to new friends. My wife is really the only person on this planet who knows me. She’s seen me at my lowest. She’s brought me to my highest. My kids are my cure. They are my living method. Now it’s true at times that kids can be a cause to some of your problems. But they are my purpose in life. They are my success. They and she are my whole world. You might be asking yourself why this blog why today. It’s not because I’m some kind of social justice warrior. It’s just to show you how fucked up the world is how we are all just trying to get to the next moment. one problem at a time and it’s to put your problems into perspective. To show you that people with more problems then you exist not to down play your problems. Take your adversity and make something out of it. As always much love from Indiana. Adapt and live. Cheers to this crazy fucking life. Thank God we get to live it.

What are they? I’m asking. what are they to you? how do you or I find the right words. how do we comfort those who have lost someone or something. How do you know how to apologize. do we know how? what are the words that will shoot straight to the soul. the perfect words at just the right time. I believe that for some, it comes naturally. some are given a way of words. some of us have to stumble and ramble around just to end up where our minds would like us to be. I believe that’s me. I’ve been told on numerous occasions that I’m blunt. that I say the first thing that pops into my head. that maybe at times I’m a little mean, but with me, you know it’ll be an honest answer. I’m not pc. I’m not anything. for me, the right words are the words. I don’t agonize over them in my head for hours or even minutes. the right words for me are true words, no bs. that’s not to say that I’m without thought. if this blog has taught us anything. I do have some thoughts. I hope some right words have caught you at your right moment. truth is lifes hard and sometimes lonely. sometimes we want to be alone. sometimes, our own words are the only words we need to hear. you ever listen to yourself on like a recording it sounds weird right like a different person. It’s not how you imagine you sounding right. sometimes, I surprise myself with my thoughts it’s not how I imagine my thoughts to be. I don’t get too religious on here, never have, but I am religious. I believe in God, and you may call it whatever you’d like. You are entitled to your own thoughts. your version of God or something might be completely different from mine, that’s ok. for the purpose of this blog, and since they are my thoughts, I’ll use my God as an example. the right words that I say sometimes come from him, I think, and that’s why they sound foreign to me. he gives me the right words to say at times, I believe. you know I’m watching the reboot of quantam leep, and it’s not bad. it’s pretty much what got me on this right words kick. if you’ve seen the show, you know what it’s about. If you haven’t, it’s about leeping through time into another person to change history through them. save lives and stop tragedy. it’s a lot about having the right thing to say at the right moment at the perfect moment if you will. maybe it’s a song that hits you at your lowest. maybe it’s your heroes who speak to you. this world is tough, and growing up is tough. so much change, so many hormones. so many paths you might go down. and maybe all it took was the right words to get you on the right path. having the right words is something I don’t really worry about except for my kids. you know, meeting the love of your life. your person, if you will at such an early age, can give your kids unrealistic expectations of love. not that I don’t want them to believe in true love and not that my true love didn’t come with any problems. my kids just need to believe it will come when it does. so when my daughter comes home crying and says she’ll never love again, I need to have the right words for her, not that she’ll want to hear from me. or maybe my kids are bullied, or they steal something crash the car whatever you get the point. I pray that I have the right words. there was a time I didn’t have the words. I didn’t know what they were. my whole world crashed and burned, and I was at a loss. and I heard an uplifting song, and I had an uplifting thought. what if I don’t let these words in this moment fill my head. what if I just start typing and see what comes of it. thus, this blog was born, and you could say it played a role in reconciliation with my wife. it played a role in the birth of my children. something born of sorrow. I turned positive. I bettered myself . I didn’t bottle it up. I didn’t go out out and get into fights. I gave myself the right words. the words I needed to hear. I’m eternally grateful for this. I’m grateful for the daughter of my dreams. The joy my son brings and the wife of a thousand lifetimes. words are how we communicate how we grow, and I believe these words don’t ever get old and always feel right. I love my family.
As always, much love from Indiana. adapt and live.

I used to sleep in. I used to worry only about myself. I used to stay up late. I used to lose my wallet. I used to leave my car parked wherever. I used to bury my head at work. I used to be sad about the things I didn’t say. I used to have less compassion. I used to drown my feelings. I used to have less responsibility, yet I thought I had a lot. I used to think it was easy. it was ok. it was good. it would pass. it would change. I used to be lonely. I used to cry myself to sleep. I used to be lost. I used to be going nowhere fast. I never was. I’m not a father. I’m not a husband. I never had my blue-eyed blonde hair daughter. I never found true love. my life isn’t what I wanted it to be. I’m still lost. I’m a failure. I’m lonely. I’m sorry. I’m sad. I’m nothing to no one. I’m invisible. I’m unloved. I’m a drunk. I’m a liar. I’m a fraud. I’m used. we’ve all felt it at one point or another. we’ve all had these thoughts. I’m blessed that these thoughts aren’t my reality. I am a father it is what defines me. as well as a husband. i love my wife more than anything in this world. Nothing is more important to me. I had my blue-eyed blonde daughter and son, for that matter. I will never be alone. nobody is alone. I’m smart. I’m talented. I have value. people depend on me. it’s both the heaviest weight I’ve ever had to carry and the easiest all at once because it’s so rewarding. my kids love me for me. I’m a simple man. all I ever wanted is all I have. never much cared for riches or fame. I just want to live a long, happy life with my family. I want to sit on my porch for the rest of my life. with my kids. I want to go slowly into the unknown with my wife. I want people to say at my funeral that I was a father and a husband above all else. Nothing else would mean more to me than to try and be the best dad I can be. I know I fail and will fail at this. sometimes I yell a little too much. sometimes, I lose control. it’s not an easy job raising tiny humans that are trying to kill themselves or each other whenever you turn your back. Thank God that kids are resilient. thank goodness I don’t have to raise them alone. thank you wife, for the good, the bad, and the ugly. thank you for your patience because I know sometimes I can be a big baby. I know you sacrifice your own wants sometimes. I know sometimes you don’t even think of yourself. I know that comes with being a mom. moms are selfless when it comes to their kids. know you’re my best friend ,partner, and teammate. I know we get put on the back burner when it comes to time. our time is not ours. it’s the housework. it’s the kids. it’s work. know I wouldn’t have it any other way. I don’t regret anything. I don’t believe in anything more than what we are and what we do. I believe in meant tos and fors. I believe in moments we never get back and never lose. I believe in us. I’m passionate about our kids. our lives. I don’t care about the noise. it’s just sound. our kids are real. our love is real. let’s be passionate about them. take time. even though we’ve changed. I’m still here with you. We’ve done 2 little big somethings right. As always if you’ve stumbled upon my blog. I hope it helps you. I hope you find something or someone. even if that someone is just yourself. find yourself. it doesn’t matter who you used to be. it matters who you want to be. all fall short. all can be redeemed. all can learn. all can grow. all will be found. all is not lost. Adapt and live.

dad, what does true love feel like?
well, kids, it’s the hardest, simple thing to describe. what I mean is it’s so simple to me I feel it I live it. you guys feel something similar for me and your mom, right? you’ve loved us since you were born. so imagine what you feel for us. that should get you started in the right direction.
dad, you’re silly.
it’s easy with me and your mom. our love is comfortable silence. it’s wanting to tell each other good news. it’s being able to tell each other the bad.its complaining to each other about others ,it’s sharing all of life’s moments. it’s taking care of you guys. it’s peace in the chaos. it’s one of the only things I’m sure of. we don’t always understand each other, but we know each other, and we try. it’s trying when you have no more try left. it’s finding that person in life that completes your life. your mom completes my life. she has different skills than I have. we compliment each other. she gave me you 2 and we love you. she takes care of you guys and me sometimes. love isn’t always 50/50. sometimes, it’s 80/20. it’s real and true because I’ve never felt that way about anything or anyone else. I’ve known your mom now longer than I haven’t known her.
I want to write something dad.
dear mommy I love you mom. I love you and I play I spy with you I want you to say. i love you.
that’s all it is kid. it’s I spy. it’s laundry. it’s cleaning. it’s all the good and all the bad. it’s everything we want and more. it’s worth dying for. it’s worth living for. it’s worth finding. it is faith in another person. it’s honest. it’s someone else before yourself. selfless. it’s precious and rare and should be treated as such. I consider myself lucky. your mom is my whole world she’s the most beautiful person I’ve ever met. that’s true love kids its a lifetime wrapped in a moment the moment I met your mom. I truly love your mom.

You tought me how to be a good person. You showed me by example. How to turn the other cheek. You showed me joy. You gave me life. I remember so many good things about you and still it was short. I see you holding my kids I see you in my kids. I see you looking out the window reading your Bible. You gave me my faith. You taught me to read and write. To walk. To eat. You taught me to think for myself. I miss you. I miss what could have been. I believe you’re looking down at us. I can take strength in that. So much of my childhood was you. The ghost of you haunts my days in the best ways. You are a mountain, a sunset, a bird that stops by to say hi. You always put me first as a kid I see that. I’m sorry I was short with you and maybe harsh I’m not sure if that’s the you in me the honest the straight forward. I dont like to lie. I don’t like the bs. I’m very to the point to a fault .Now that I’m a father I understand your choice even less. Not that I’m not at peace with your choice. I just know that there’s nothing I wouldn’t do for just 1 more moment with my kids. That’s why we do it. That’s why we do anything and maybe you felt as though your job was done. I don’t believe a mother’s job is ever done . You prepared me for life. It was your job to enjoy the fruits of your labor my kids. To see the happy ending. There may be many women in my life but there’s only one you. mom.anyway I’m glad you were my mom. I wouldn’t be me without you and I like me. I like the father that I am. You can take most the credit for that. You would’ve loved gwen and she would’ve loved you that is a fact. At least she has ashleys mom to give her double love the kids might actually be too loved lol. So grateful the kids get to experience the love of a grandparent rest easy thats covered. I’m sure giddy would’ve reminded you of me. I see a lot of myself in gwen she wants to be the star. she wants to make others laugh at her no matter what she does or how embarrassing she acts. She has little to no fear. giddy is giddy. smiles from ear to ear. You know I never pictured a son and yet he completes our life. Our fairytale. work is work same old same as they say. I know I never talked much about work and maybe that’s because I just do it. it’s hard to explain what it is. The house is good. Lots of work and upkeep. Your porch is still waiting on you. Maybe I’ll see you there. The kids mother has become quite the mother who knew lol. no I knew. I knew she had it in her. Shes a great mom. patience when she’s out. caring when she’s half asleep. thoughtful about everything. I couldn’t do it without her. Sure I can handle the kids here and there but 24/7 no way. Thanks for being my first teacher mom. Life went on without you oh so fast. I know it’s all part of life. I do wish for one last conversation I wish I could say all these things to you but this will have to do. I know it’s not over. happy mothers day mom and all the great mothers in my life and out there. Be the teacher your kids need. I know it’s hard to raise Humans and many women carry that torch. Even when it seems like you’re failing I’m telling you you’re killing it. kids just need to be loved and sometimes to draw on the walls. Words could never explain the gratitude I have for the moms in my life. Much love from Indiana adapt and love.

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don’t belong
And no one understands you… (simple plan)

hello my friends do you have regrets. do you ever wish for a different life or that you did it all different. that’s ok if you do. but you already know my advice on the issue of regrets. I don’t have them. my mind won’t let me have them. I can honestly say I didn’t choose to dance in every scenario. I’ve made countless mistakes. and yet I have 2 healthy kids and a wife the truly is my better half. and you know what if you’re reading this there’s still time for you to follow your dreams there’s still time for you to dance as long as you have breath in your lungs. clear eyes full hearts can’t lose. I’m reminded of a song I like called take it all back by judah and the lion. the song is weird because it’s sad it’s about regrets and yet the song makes you feel hopeful. when I got divorced I would listen to it and it was sad I would probably cry yet I felt great hope from it. I felt like it put into words how and what I was feeling and now I dance around the living room with my daughter and wife to it. if that’s you if you’re low and lost give it a listen and I hope you dance. I’ll throw it to the bottom of this blog. I’m not gonna lie to you 2 kids , a wife and a job is hard to juggle. it’s hard to find the time to dance. sometimes it feels like I’m just pushing ahead towards tomorrow not going anywhere like I’m stuck in this loop of job, sleep, eat and repeat. other times come when I lift my head up and time zipped by i get to play with my kids or dance or go for a walk with the family or just go to breakfast and it makes the routine of work sleep eat repeat all worth it. I have a good life. I heard a piece of advice about being frustrated with your kids or life when they act up and I like it. the advice was close your eyes and imagine you’re 80 all alone and your kids are all grown. maybe you still see them maybe you don’t but regardless you’ll miss them and even the bad shit they do. kids are monsters and life is a rat race a shit show if you will. if you have kids you know the house is always dirty before, after and during cleaning it. there’s always chores ,projects and whatever comes with a big house and it can get stressful taking care of everything. I feel bad when I can’t devote my time to my kids, project or wife. I need 3 of me. maybe 4. life the great balancing act. sometimes we get in our own ways. I know I do. the wife will tell you it’s hard for me to sit still. you know I’m trying to set myself up for success and it’s true my mind is always think about the next project. even that can be stressful at times. I want to make an awesome life for my family. I want the tree house for my kids I never had. I want the play room for my teenage kids. I’m selfish that way I want my kids to want to be home. I want to live in comfort . Just can’t get lost in that wants that I forget what I have. this blog is cool. I might not get to say goodbye to my family anything can happen at anytime. life is short. I’m happy to have a record of my thoughts. I’m happy my kids can get a sense of the type of father they had and they can see and know how I feel about them. not that I’m going anywhere. it’s just a fail safe. anyways it can be hard to see this life through a kids eyes. it’s all worth it hard shit is worth it. a realistic positive outlook is a good way to live. we put so many burdens on ourselves. I think I’m a good dad and I still wonder everyday if I’m doing it right. I hope I’m doing it right. I guess that’s half the battle I guess to question yourself to be self aware is hard sometimes. it’s the right way to be though. I question because I care so much. I don’t want to lose my family I don’t want to lose my wife again. I don’t want my kids to hate me or be burdened by me. I want to make their lives excellent. I want them to dance. I want them to take chances because they know I have their backs. I want you to take chances. I want you to dance. I want you to beleave in love. I want you to have your cake and eat it to. as long as I could remember I’ve wanted nothing but to be a father. only dads know the way we feel about our kids. words could never describe. I could write this blog forever and still never convey my feelings for my kids. how may things are you willing to die for to kill for. there’s nothing in the world that can change my mind. I’ll be dancing through this life with my kids and my wife. you got to let go of your fears that your not good enough. so stop reading this get off your ass and dance. take that step towards your dream. tell your kids you love them. tell your wife she’s everything. you can spend your whole life collecting things or you can spend it sharing moments with those that matter most to you dancing in the moonlight. as always love from the wessman clan in Indian. adapt and live. if you’ve enjoyed the read please let me know. I don’t do this for money. I do it to connect with my inner thoughts. I do it for my wife and kids. I do it for a lost soul. I do it because there’s so many negative things in the air. I do it because it’s hard for me to say my thoughts. I do it for you. the lonely. I do it so you know you’re not alone in your fears we all have them. hell I may be the only one who reads this and it’s ok to dance alone sometimes.

one day I woke up well on my way with my dreams true with you. Today we got a big house with nice clothes and you with a big old Diamond ring. Just happy to have you . I don’t need to take anything back. I got you. I’m awake. I’m awake

odds of royal flush.649,739 : 1.)
odds =chances.
that all life is a series of chances a series of we met or didn’t. we lived or didn’t. we won or didn’t. nah . wouldn’t it be nice if we could just break life down into an equation. but it can’t be. Not that I don’t believe in odds. there are odds. (odds of being struck by lightning 1 in 15,300.)
there are also meant tos and fors. paths that we take. my path was always leading towards my kids and my wife they are meant tos. I thought my odds had run out. they were a distant dream for a minute and then I had 2 just that fast.(odds of you being born, and you being who you are 1 in 5.5 trillion.)
It simultaneously feels like I’ve been with my wife and kids for a lifetime and like I just met my wife to be in high school. maybe that’s love. maybe love is a time machine ok shit I’ve gone way off track. love and time machines. who cares this is my place. (odds of finding true love 1 in 262,144). odds are parenting is hard. odds are you will not be perfect at that. so pressure off right. (odds of twins 1 in 250). fuck dodged that bullet huh. Couldn’t imagine how hard 2 babies would be. sometimes life feels surreal. I catch myself thinking holy shit I have 2 kids. I’m a father. I’m in charge of molding someone. feels like the mold just started to dry on myself. I hope I’m doing a good job. what are the odds. odds are if today was a dark day. tomorrow will be brighter. there is a lot to be upset about in this world. find the things that make you happy. kill those that bring you down with kindness. I’ve always said I never regret anything in my life because to have such regret in my opinion is like saying your life didn’t work out as you would’ve liked. I do believe there is room for wishing somethings ended up better. without having regrets. example I wish my mom would’ve taken care of her cancer I can’t have regrets that she didn’t just wishes she did. sometimes the odds are stacked against you and you can choose to fight the best way you know how or give up. I don’t believe my mom gave up. I believe she fought the odds as best she could and she lived how she wanted in the end. we could all be so lucky and all have the kind of courage to tell everyone around us eat shit I’m gonna do me. (odds of dying from breast cancer 1 in 39) odds are I’m not always right just mostly. no i don’t think that. I think there is a lot of gray in the world. You can’t always have your cake and eat it to but sometimes you can have your pie and eat it to. Sometimes a compromise is exactly what you needed. If you’re married odds are you’ve accepted that fact. Only those unwilling to compromise get divorced. Sometimes Only the blind can hear and the deaf see. Odds are you find me confusing at times. What I mean to say is it’s those around us that can help us see and hear if Only we give them a chance. Nobody Whats to go it alone. Nobody wakes up and says can’t wait to be lonely. Odds are you’ve felt lonely. God knows I have. My loneliness is what gave birth to this blog a place for me to talk to myself. Put mind to paper and figure shit out. I’m only human after all so Odds are I’ll fail. Odds are we’re all a little fucked up. I think there’s a perfect amount of fucked up. What I mean to say is everyone has something weird about them. Maybe it’s the way you say something Maybe you like cheese on your freanch toast. Hey don’t knock it till you try it. Odds are we’re all still learning. Odds are your kids are monsters little cute Monsters. I mean I have absolutely no idea why they do somethings. But as a parent I need to be patient. Example you ask come into a room dump all of something out and run off and do other shit. Other Example you ask. Asking for something getting said something and saying you don’t want it. When you take said thing away crying. Odds are if you’re a parent you get it. (Odds an adult will have coffee today 1 in 1.8) I could sit here all day and talk to you about Odds but I won’t. I consider my odds to be lucky and my life for that matter. Be kind ,be loving , beat the odds . I truly believe odds are we will probably be alright. As always if you read this much love to you from Indiana adapt and live.

hello son and daughter. one day you’ll read this and perhaps all my blogs. you’ll get a window into me and your moms life. I hope you find the joy in my words. I hope you see how I willed you into existence. how I wanted you so much. you are so loved one day I’ll be old and gray and you’ll have to help me do simple things. till then remember how me and your mom kept you guys alive which isn’t always easy. I hope you see that you were born out of true love. you are the essence of that true love. we are in a bit of a rough spot now. toddlers and babies aren’t easy. you guys are sick and whiny. no mater what happens in life you guys were worth every minute of every day and you will continue to be the joy in our lives. please follow your dreams. be smart be passionate be kind to each other especially. I don’t have the best relationship with my sister or brothers for that matter. some of that is old scars some of that is distance. I wish for you both to find that thing in life that you love. whatever that may be. of course I have my own wishes for you but nothing you could do will disappoint me unless you become a chiropractor quack. family and blood is strong and important. I hope that me and your mom instilled that in you. I hope we tought you that you can have your heads in the clouds and still be successful. Have a little faith but question always ask questions. if you’re wondering where your crazy came from that’s me and your smarts are your mom. God only knows where me and your moms love has taken us it led us to you guys and I’m sure it stands today. if I can give you some love advice it would be that in my experience it wasn’t ever a question of who I was going to marry the minute I met your mom I knew. I knew that very moment. so when that time comes for you guys you’ll know when it’s right. I never had a single second thought. never a question. hopefully we’ve taught you guys some real life skills. hopefully you still have time for us. we just want to be in your lives. money advice save a little spend a little. laugh a lot. you guys are such happy children maybe because you can feel our love maybe it’s from my mom. you never got to meet her but shes the happiest person I’ll ever know.I don’t know I hope you never lose that. I hope you’ve enjoyed the Christmas decorations and Halloween decorations. I hope you’ve had a great childhood. never too old to act like a kid. to imagine to innovate to have fun. I get to relive childhood through you guys and I thank you for that. It was destiny that made me your dad. I can’t say it was a calling I had because it was something I was born with. I was born to be your father. it took your mom some convincing but she got there. obviously. I hope this finds you both well. shit maybe you have a kid already and you know how I feel. but hey I’m getting ahead of myself. maybe your going through puberty and I’m embarrassing you. don’t worry that’s normal I’m sure I’m still embarrassing your mom. I’m so excited for you guys and for getting to watch you both grow. I know you don’t always agree with us one day you’ll learn why we did and said what we said. Make it a good one .

Adapt and love dad.