I was just sitting down and meditating and I don't often do that the only time I ever do really is when I just have this urge to sit down and meditate which is every so often and basically I just sit down and start meditating I don't really think about it it's not premeditated meditating and I was sitting there and some random images and associations were going through my mind a little bit and then it subsided and it became really quiet and I realized I realized in that moment that my attention or the center of my felt sense of who i am who i was at that moment at least it dropped into my heart and i've read before that some people have actually have the sensation that they reside in their heart and just in that moment a few minutes ago i really felt that I didn't feel like I was my head I felt like I was my heart and and maybe I have felt that way for a while and not notice it but that was the first time that I really noticed that I felt like I was my heart and then I was breathing and noticing my breathing and I was talking in a different video about breathing and how certain types of breathing especially even amounts of breath into even amounts of breath out is coherent breathing and after a while it produces a coherent heartbeat and there's an app called stress doctor that helps one do this and there's another app called complete coherence or that's the website and the complete coherence guy I forget his name I remember watching a talk and he talks about how the heartbeat has to be coherent in order for the right sort of electrical nutrition to go from the heart to the brain because there's actually more neurons going from the heart to the brain then from the brain to the heart so more information is actually going from the heart to the brain and if the heart's beating erratically or stressed that basically goes along with stressed emotions which probably means there's a storm of thoughts and feelings going on in the body in the mind that correlate with that stressed heartbeat so all that information a lot of it is actually coming from the heart if the heart was calm the mind would probably be a lot more calm but what I was thinking about today when i realized that i was actually residing in my heart was that i was just wondering if it matters as much to breathe coherently or if the coherent breathing is sort of a way to be mindful and actually calm the heart to be in the heart and the subtle difference here is I'm wondering if a person is just in their heart if the heart is naturally more coherent instead of having to sit down and coherently breathe and there's still a ton of value in that I'm just wondering that if a person naturally was in a state of breathing coherence or heart coherence then naturally there'd be breathing coherence there'd be the proper electrical signals and energy going from the heart to the brain naturally so is it as much to practice breathing coherently or could it also be helpful to actually have the felt sense that we reside in our hearts more so than our minds and how to do that I don't know exactly perhaps not having so many thoughts in one's head all the time when naturally might feel more connected to one's heart I just feel personally that thoughts in general are very detrimental whether positive or negative there's way too much emphasis on thinking and reasoning and logic so if there's a bad logical thought and you place it with a good logical thought it's still logic and there's a lot more to life beyond that logic and what is more to life beyond that logic is life itself and life isn't logical life is life it's like a living energy vitality force so being in one's heart center is like being connected with the vital force the heartbeat that electromagnetic energy field that it creates which is thousands of times stronger than the electromagnetic field of the brain so that goes along with some of my thoughts around how a lot of mental health troubles are actually problems of the heart and and to me I feel like if we're always incoherent it almost accumulates so that incoherence or that breathing pattern that we are with the heartbeat those two things combined and are almost like recorded in the body from moment to moment so even if we're thinking wonderful thoughts and going along if there's some kind of underlying stress and the breathing stress as well or one's not breathing very well it's still causing accumulated stress in the body which can at some point cause some kind of overload and an overload example might be something like going into a psychosis which if there's a bunch of stuff underneath the surface that one's not dealing with but one is going on about one's business on the superficial level eventually the stuff brewing underneath the surface can catch up with somebody or can we can be sort of jolted into something worse than it is or dr. Daniel Siegel talks about the term allostatic load which just meet means one's sort of accumulated stress that's built up so this incoherence can actually possibly be recorded and accumulated as an allostatic load so even if once able to go through the day and get through the day but they're always extremely stressed that would be like increasing that allostatic load and then making a person more susceptible to some kind of breakdown which is basically all those images and thoughts and feelings accumulated eventually can't be ignored anymore and it is very becomes to the point where it's actually crippling because those images in that world of those images and thoughts and feelings takes over one's life and the heart has a language of symbols and images and feelings it doesn't have so many words it can it can create words too but they're not necessarily going to be logical then going to be rational they're not going to be related to maybe what's going on in the moment because it's the accumulated garbage from from the past and not only one's personal past but even the collective because I feel that you know we we actually kind of share the same heart and you know I got my heart from my mom and she got her heart from her mom and her dad like together and so and you go on you go on you go on until you've gone many generations well that's all encoded in the heart and you know even when somebody has a heart transplant sometimes they have the memories of the person they got some the heart from well that could go even just through the genetics and the lineage of a person from generation to generation how can it it's logical that it could be encoded in the DNA that encodes for the heart and so those subtle images and that subtle past information can actually still maybe come up because maybe a person in their past in the past history of the family didn't get to resolve certain things and maybe they are passed to the next person to kind of look at those things and resolve those things in the family lineage and this is just all pretend I'm just making this stuff up just for fun and I'm sort of making it up as I go but that that dimension that collective heart whether it's personal collective familial it's it's all there and it's all piling up for somebody to deal with and if it's not me it's going to be somebody else on my family or or somebody somewhere else in the world who doesn't even know me they might have to deal with something thats related to me because we all share that one heart and so by being in one's heart and being coherent it's actually creating more coherence in the entire reality because we are connected we're not separate so it's possible that a person can actually heal a lot of that stuff just by being connected to one's own physiology instead of so connected to that abstractness of the thoughts and the words and the images that the brain cells they create those images but those images aren't the brain cells they're not the physiology the physiology is like the oxygen it's your posture it's your as you're breathing it's your heartbeat is its electricity it's all of that and so we need to pay attention to that aspect as well and and that's that's kind of my thoughts on some of that there's there was probably more to it but it just felt really it felt really interesting to be connected to my heart like that and I'm almost wondering if if that will continue to be how I feel when I'm actually going about my daily life and I think it could be good if I if I do feel that way and and I just I think there's a subtle difference between being in one's mind all day long thinking thinking thinking and then sitting down for 10 minutes and doing ones coherent breathing practice which has value versus taking some of the energy and power away from the thinking process and actually being more connected to one's heart and that was another thought I had it was about how a person that goes into mania like I've experienced a lot of that experience feels very beautiful it feels very feels everything's beautiful and very there's so many different characteristics but the main one I'm thinking of right now is beauty and then the opposite of mania which is psychosis is actually it's all ugly it's all terrible and scary and terrifying so it's terrifying whereas the beautiful mania part was very it felt very much like love and and it feels like to me that beauty's trying to burst forth through some of us but then we when we get pulled back from being sort of beyond the boundaries of what consensus reality feels is normal in terms of good feeling and we snap back we have to go through the bad feeling aspect of some of this and and through the beauty might be more real because it's like it's actually feeling like it's happening in reality whereas the ugly is all these images and thoughts that aren't really there and then we have like these hallucinations so we go from being this experience of real feeling beauty to this terrifying ugly thought image dimension and and to me that's just the collective ugliness of all the stuff people think all day long and have thought all day long for the past 10,000 years and it's not really real and that's why I feel like we shouldn't really feed it more energy anymore because it's just as scary it's difficult to go beyond it but with so many people feeding that that beast because that's a collective domain we also all share

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