Dude,

I've experienced a lot of change lately. Most of this change was just unbelievable. However at this point I've got no choice other than to go with the punches and start a new life. Accept that shift in destination. "Where" the wind blows I must say. I am afraid. Really. I am super afraid, but I'm not so afraid that I want to stop. I can't stop now at this point. This dream wakes me up at night. It forces me to write. It forces me to think and see myself as more than just some loser. I have dreamed big things and KNOW they will come true. Just you watch. I just have to get out of my own way. 

I love you. 

Thanks for being here.

Kandice.

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Yep, I said it. Prequel.

It's the conversation before the true conversation i'd like to dive into. What is love to you? What does it look like? How do you know it's real? What does THAT feel like?

What is ...love?

Every year we tend to rinse and repeat the same process. Same job. Same hopes. Same ambitions. It's this crazy cycle of just.. telling yourself "Not my dreams today, i've got work instead". Of course there's always time for rest, for moments of clarity. For moments of feeling like "whew" what am I doing with my life? 

That's okay! It's just not okay to sit there. 

When I tell you I believe in you, dude I mean it. I mean it now, 5 minutes from now, I mean it tomorrow too. I believe in you. Go accomplish those dreams. Heal that inner child & LIVE!! 

*CAUTION*

This dork right here? Yeah, this dork right here got so excited to produce a podcast that she absolutely FORGOT to not only double check, but TRIPLE check her microphone. Thus, this podcast will end up having a slight echo. As bummer as this sounds, it may not be the first nor the last of mistakes. I guess you can say that's the beauty of being able to make little failures and make them back up by doing better the next time. I have definitely learned a valuable lesson on making sure all the I's are dotted and those T's are crossed. Life can be so tight, so unforgiving that It's so easy to yell at yourself in hopes of solving a problem. Just like in the saying "When life gives you lemons." Make solutions, make lemonade baby. :) 

Thanks for being here. We look forward to sharing more work. Don't worry, we're just getting warmed up. 

Lastly the little piece of poetry at the end has now been titled "Midnight Stars." 

Until text time.

Kandice,

Signing out. 

I had this discussion with a friend about our mental health being so debilitating that we can't go to work. We cant exist. We can't survive. The pressures build like some experimental explosion in our heads. It gets deep, it gets intense, it gets "real". The fact that many people would choose to stay silent about the true issues of society is absolutely insane. We live in this rat race, a place where we're doing nothing but spinning on a wheel awaiting our untimely doom, or death, whatever the "end" looks like to you. We drown in our daily responsibilities with the expectation to put a smile on our face & thank God we don't live like other people right? It could be worse right? Well it is. This isn't some pain Olympics . It's humanity deteriorating at its core.  One thing we all share in common? 

Our pain.