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There is a specific kind of loss that does more than hurt. It rearranges you. I know because I lived it. A business I believed in fell apart. A few friendships did not survive the fallout. A decision I made in good faith went sideways in a way I never saw coming. And somewhere in the middle of all of it, I stopped trusting the voice inside me that said yes in the first place.
This episode isn't about the mistake. It's about what follows: confidence fading, second-guessing taking over, hovering over the brake, even with a clear path.
I'll take you back to when it happened to me. After a meeting with an investor in New York City in 2012, I sat in a cafe with four close friends and business partners. Without anyone saying a word, we all knew it was over. The startup was finished. Two friendships didn't survive. For almost a year after, I was moving, but not freely. Every decision felt like a test I was set to fail.
If you've been there, this episode may finally voice what you've felt in silence.
What You'll Learn in This Episode:
(00:21) - Introduction: How to trust yourself again when you've been wrong
(01:36) - The friendship losses that made it personal
(02:19) - What happens when being wrong stops being an event and starts feeling like a verdict
(02:41) - The four-second leap: "that didn't work" to "I can't trust my own judgment"
(03:03) - How Alli pulled back, got quiet, started hovering over the brake
(03:42) - Fear as an excellent designer: it shows up looking exactly like wisdom
(03:42) - What self-distrust actually looks like (running decisions by five people, scrolling for someone else's experience, "waiting on God" when you heard from him two weeks ago)
(04:46) - Starting to ask a different question about what she'd lost
(05:16) - Grieving the losses as real, then separating them from a verdict about her instincts
(07:28) - The GPS analogy: deleting the app because it routed you through a construction zone once
(08:00) - Romans 8:28: not a promise that decisions will be perfect, but a promise that He works with all of them
(08:49) - What the rebuild is really about (hint: not becoming better, giving yourself permission to use the judgment you already have)
(09:28) - Step 1: Separate the data from the story. Two questions to ask about the decision you're still carrying.
(10:37) - The identity shift that changes everything: "I'm becoming a woman who evaluates decisions instead of using them as evidence against herself"
(11:22) - Step 2: Turn regret into data. One question that stops the replay loop.
(11:57) - What to do with the answer (and what to do if the answer is nothing new)
(12:38) - Step 3: Stack small trust reps. Physical therapy for your confidence.
(13:28) - Stacking evidence until your brain starts treating decision-making as something you can handle
(14:14) - Being wrong does
