Kisses and Chaos

After over a year of sharing my messy dating life, heartbreaks, healing journey, attachment issues, toxic relationships, and personal growth on Kisses & Chaos 💋, I've decided it's time to take a step back.

In this episode, I open up about why I'm taking a break from the podcast, the emotional impact of processing trauma publicly, setting healthier boundaries, protecting my relationship, and learning that not every part of life needs to be shared online.

We talk about mental health, self-worth, healing after toxic relationships, finding a healthy relationship, burnout from content creation, privacy in relationships, and what comes next for me, my music, and the future of Kisses & Chaos.

This isn't goodbye forever it's simply a new chapter.

In this episode of Kisses & Chaos is absolute CHAOS 💋😭

me and my bestie Steven talk about everything from Grindr horror stories, toxic exes, lesbian dating, attachment styles, long distance relationships, and accidentally falling in love during what was supposed to be my hot girl summer.we get into the viral cripple kink story, getting f*cked better than your ex for the first time, truck bed hookups in Denver, queer dating culture, healing after toxic relationships, therapy, ADHD relationships, and why healthy love can actually feel terrifying after chaos.we also spiral about Olivia Rodrigo, Madonna, Katseye drama, queer pop culture, Slutbass, and the girls/gays/theys 💋

if you love messy relationship stories, chaotic best friend energy, queer dating podcasts, healing after heartbreak, and brutally honest conversations… welcome to Kisses & Chaos.

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hi babes 💋

this week on kisses and chaos i’m asking… am i ready to date after a toxic relationship?

we talk about:

• dating after a toxic ex
• why healthy love feels weird
• missing the idea of your ex
• signs you’re not ready to date
• navigating dating + healing at the same time

plus some chaotic updates from my current dating life.

if you’re trying to move on but still healing… this one’s for you 💋

hey angels !!! welcome back to Kisses and Chaos

i know i kinda disappeared for a bit… so this is a full life update on everything that’s been going on lately.

in this episode i talk about:

• what’s been happening with my ex
• how i’m starting to feel more indifferent (finally)
• the spiral of checking their socials & why it keeps you stuck
• where i’m at with dating right now
• everything going on in my life + music behind the scenes

this one is very real, very chaotic, and just me catching you guys up on where i’ve been mentally and emotionally.

if you’re trying to move on, detach, or stop caring about someone who hurt you… you’re not alone 🖤

missed you guys so much

This week on Kisses & Chaos, I’m talking about rebranding your life and not giving a fuck what anyone thinks.

Yes, this is my fourth “era.”
No, I’m not spiraling.
I’m evolving.

We’re getting into:
• Killing old versions of yourself
• Separating ego from alignment
• The truth about haters
• Identity grief
• Growing up in your 20s
• Being misunderstood
• And how to actually reinvent yourself

If nothing sticks, maybe you’re not glue.
Maybe you’re fire.

Stay cunty.

In this mini episode of Kisses & Chaos 💋, I get brutally honest about how I replied to my ex and tried to be “cool” with them after our breakup. We talk about clean breakups, staying in contact, jealousy, emotional access, and the uncomfortable truth about when being “friends” is really just keeping the door open.

If their name still makes your stomach drop… this one’s for you, baby.

Let me know in the comments — are you friends with your ex?

hi babes 💋
this is a short, chaotic mini-episode while i’m getting everything ready behind the scenes.

today we’re talking about 5 ways to make this year your bitch choosing a feeling instead of a personality, romanticizing the boring, letting go of imaginary timelines, and stepping into emotional maturity without losing your edge.

if you’re feeling behind, overwhelmed, or stuck comparing yourself to who you thought you’d be by now this one’s for you.

say it with me: 2026 is gonna be my bitch.

love you always

In this raw and unfiltered episode of Kisses & Chaos 💋,

I talk about the moment my rose-colored glasses finally shattered and how I realized my toxic ex was not the love of my life. I break down trauma bonds, narcissistic behavior, emotional manipulation, breadcrumbing, and the psychology behind why it’s so hard to leave unhealthy relationships. From online harassment and messy friend groups to glow-ups, healing out loud, and reclaiming my self-worth,.

If you’re struggling with no contact, toxic cycles, emotional addiction, or recovering from a manipulative partner, this episode is for you.

Topics covered: toxic relationships, narcissists, trauma bonds, emotional manipulation, breadcrumbing, no contact rule, breakup recovery, self-worth, dating red flags, glow-up after heartbreak.

Inthis episode, I’m talking about why Mercury retrograde is making us miss ourtoxic exes and breaking down the five stages of breakup grief — denial, anger,bargaining, depression, and acceptance. I get real about spiraling duringretrograde, sending that “one last message,” getting randomly unblocked, cryingat night, trauma bonding, and trying to heal while still craving someone whohurt me.

If you’ve been:
• stalking your ex’s socials
• romanticizing someone who was chaotic
• craving “closure”
• or feeling like a delusional little lover girl

…this episode is literally for you, babe.

I’m sharing my full breakup lore, why retrograde brings back old patterns, howtrauma bonds mess with your brain, and why missing them doesn’t mean they’reyour soulmate — it means you’re withdrawing.

If you’re healing, heartbroken, or just trying not to text your ex at 2 AM,play this. We’re choosing ourselves now. 💋✨

Hi babes, welcome back to Kisses & Chaos. It’s Luci!
Today we’re talking about the difference between a twin flame, a soulmate, and a trauma bond because the way we all romanticize chaos and call it fate is actually insane. And yes, I’ve done it too. Like… deeply.

I’m breaking down:

• that euphoric destiny feeling of a twin flame

• the calm “I can finally breathe” love of a soulmate

• and the rollercoaster addiction that is a trauma bond

I share my own stories. the insane passion, the red flags I ignored, the “I can fix her” delusion, the withdrawals, the chasing potential… all of it.

If you’ve ever said “but it just feels different with them”, this episode is for you.
You’re not crazy.
You didn’t imagine the connection.
You just deserve something that doesn’t set your nervous system on fire to feel alive.

We’re healing.
We’re self-respecting.
We’re still manifesting the tall hot soulmate.

Rate, review, subscribe, and let’s get into the chaos. 💋