If I’m Not Witnessed by Others, Do I Even Exist?

A raw, unfiltered dive into the existential and the everyday, where Jenny explores the tender space between needing to be seen and learning to witness herself. In this episode, recorded in real-time flow with no edits or polish, she unpacks the pull to disappear from social media for a year, the cycles of burnout and renewal, and the unsettling question of whether creativity still matters if no one is watching. Blending personal truth, astrology, human design, and the quantum mystery of the observer effect, this is part journal entry, part soul inquiry — an open invitation to anyone questioning their own visibility, value, and creative life force.

In this deeply reflective episode, I share an honest, late-night transmission on the energy of “I don’t chase, I attract.” From the bed, in the quiet after a full-on weekend, I talk about the shift from toxic positivity and hustle to nervous system peace, soul alignment, and surrendering to the moment. I open up about navigating mental health, letting go of old programming, learning to rest, and trusting the divine timing of life. This one is for those walking the path less travelled—those who feel deeply, live intuitively, and are learning to honour their unique rhythm.

It’s raw. It’s real. It’s a love letter to the ones doing the deep inner work. You’re not alone.

⚠️ Sweary Warning ⚠️

Welcome to an ad hoc conversation with my cousin and soul sister Hayley Bird where the conversation flows,weaves, twists and turns as it always does when talking to someone who is all about soul exploration and personal development.

This podcast episode has come off the back of a phone call we were having, and is recorded directly on my phone (wow I know!), so there is an occasional beeping which is slightly annoying, but hopefully not too distracting! 

We were discussing the things that are coming up for us over the last couple of days, such as consistency, flow, our right to change our minds, and the way society tells us otherwise. The conversation gets onto one of our favourite topics: shadow work, where Hayley expertly explains Carolyn Elliotts book existential kink and how the law of attraction is missing this vital part.

The book discussed is: “Existential Kink: Unmask Your Shadow and Embrace Your Power; a Method for Getting What You Want by Getting Off on What You Don't - Book by Carolyn Elliott”

Hello hello and happy 2025.... What a start to the year its been.... No intro and outro here, just me sharing where I'm at.
This vulnerable real talk is a little update and share about what has been going on for me. I have realised I am suffering with mental burn out and depression and I sensed I needed to get recording and see what wanted to come out.
This is an episode for anyone else feeling the pressure to be consistent in an infinitely inconsistent world.

You can find my talk with Holly at:

https://spotifycreators-web.app.link/e/77wJIoDQ5Pb

You can find my talk with Jo Bardol at:

https://spotifycreators-web.app.link/e/t2XhxkDQ5Pb

Welcome to a super informative and inspiring medicine conversation with Joanna Bardol, one of the most caring and calming souls I know. Jo is so informative and the knowledge she has to share with the world is so needed, so it was an absolute honour to have this chat with her and share it with you all.

Big love and I hope you enjoy xx

You can contact Joanna on email: [email protected]

Or telephone: 07828 669395

Settle in for a little life run down and story time with Jen.

So often we can feel that our stories are pointless or not worth sharing, but our experiences are what shape us into who we are, and can be how we turn our experiences into teachable moments and ways in which we can hold other people through similar situations.

As I step deeper and deeper into my authentic expression with self love and empowerment, I know I am activating in you, layers of your own narrative, voice and stories that want to be birthed and shared.

Together we rise. Share your words. Share your magic. Share your thoughts feelings and reflections. The world needs your voice.

Big love xx

Find out more about how you can work with me or attend my events at www.jennygilescreativerebel.com

Join myself and my wonderful cousin Hayley Bird for a guided conversation all about the liminal space between the reality you find yourself in and the dream reality you are calling in.

We have been inner world soul journeyers for many years now and getting to travel this path together has been so healing.

I felt called to record this podcast episode and trust the flow of the medicinal conversation today, and I am so glad I did. Thank you H for being a magical guest and I know these words and this magic will find those that need it.

We talked about The Void space, connecting into our Souls and coming back to oneness with our own inner light, leaving behind all the societal and social norms placed upon us. We dive into AI and talk about it's magic and the co-creation we can play with this world changing technology.

All views and opinions are are own. Trusting these messages and healing conversations find those that need to find the light in the darkness.

Big love.

You can find more of what I do at:

https://jennygilescreativerebel.com

https://www.instagram.com/a_creative_rebellion/

You can follow Hayley and her journey at:

https://www.instagram.com/hayleyincheltenham/

This message NEEDED to flow from me today. After sharing I feel a renewed sense of inner peace AND divine action coursing through me. My hope is that this finds those that need to hear it too.

It's time to tap into our Power and our Divine Feminine energy. Leading with Love.

The oracle cards I mention are the ones I am currently birthing, "Creative Muse Oracle Cards" and you can find out more about them here:

https://jennygilescreativerebel.com/creative-muse-oracle-cards

Today something was bubbling up inside of me and it NEEDED to come out!

Talking all things Creative Rebellion and what it means to live a creative life rebelling against anything that isn't aligned with your soul callings.

I definitely felt fired up and I think that shows. Haha.

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More on those in the next episode too!

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Holly Charles is a modern day mystic, channel, medium and teacher, with 19+ years experience in the Spiritual & Wellbeing world. She aspires to inspire others, help them connect more deeply with their souls, and share tools and ideas that will help people progress on their pathway and deepen their spiritual awareness.

Not only that! She is also the most magical and amazing friend. Getting to riff all things spiritual with Holly was so lovely and I know there is so much wisdom to be found in this guided conversation.

We talk about "Trusting the Process", empowerment, personal and spiritual development, the haters and the love and light brigade, mediumship and channeling and generally all sort of magically aligned and guided nuggets of wisdom.

It was my absolute pleasure to have Holly on the podcast and I hope she will be back again very soon.

You can find Holly at:

https://www.hollysholistichealing.co.uk

https://linktr.ee/holistic_holly

Holly's upcoming event we talk about is:

A Talk on De-mystifying Spirituality.

Tyn Cellar Farm,

Margam,

Friday 19th July 2024

19.30-21.30

https://book.stripe.com/3cscQi6QNbXYg6IaEO?fbclid=IwZXh0bgNhZW0CMTAAAR0tQyck1wXY2z-87ChwbfYBSWrqgDeeu0ZwkZU-geinQcxhiUqTbcvceS0_aem_THTYPouxjNezT8JlytUzRg

Sharing those we have mentioned.

Lee Harris:

https://open.spotify.com/show/7BI6Xi6dTyuPk3dEPMd0ZN?si=a3c6708a883542aa

Astrology for the Soul:

https://open.spotify.com/show/6mN2OQpNT1z6BxDh7MqiQv?si=37135928faaa437a