Late Night Thoughts | Jonathan Harnisch | Facebook: December 7th, 2015: I feel so indebted to all of you, even to those who leave this Facebook page. Many of you have written suggesting that I may perhaps appear to be exhausted and in need of relaxation rest and some time off. I plan on doing so whether or not I end up succeeding in taking time off to face the universe, literally, completely and devastatingly alone. I look into the mirror every day lately, and I see a complete sleepless and lost stranger in myself and others in my "real" interpersonal life and conventionally accepted life itself. I've been battling severe comorbid schizophrenia and related psychotic and dissociative mental health conditions for most of my life now as well as otherwise "normal" life issues and so forth. I feel that it might be time for me to submit perhaps surrender and allow my mental and physical health conditions to take over my life experiences, permitting me to live a great deal more if not fully in my otherwise delusional and hallucinatory landscape in the world where I am most familiar and comfortable. Thank you for understanding, if you do. Overall, I am exhausted and need some time off. Thank you, everybody, I feel much better having written out these feelings, otherwise feeling abandoned in the overall enterprise at the same time neglected and abused controlled cornered trapped and stuck. -Jonathan Harnisch | Sent from my iPhone

Late Night Thoughts | Jonathan Harnisch | Facebook: December 13thth, 2015: Need time to think and work on some art projects. Want to get cut off from the world. Just want to be alone for a bit. This morning I have an important medical appointment for some blood conditions I endured over the last couple years but still surviving, I'd rather not go into detail about it. It's just scary. I am trying to hold onto the saying that most things we worry about don't happen, in other words, to hear bad news. I've done all I can since the last doctor's visit for the problem. I'll just say that it is potentially life threatening. But... I will end it there. It's just a bit scary, so I am cutting up some random and old film stock here in my production office for the time being to bring back memories from when I began shooting film on Super 8 and some early video, documenting my life. Feels nostalgic to see some of the footage after 20, 30 years. Sometimes I just miss certain parts of times past. But I'll be around. Just so happy I went in and on my own, for the first time ever in public otherwise overwhelmed by all the people and lights at the Apple Store to finally get my main computer fixed after months and months using an iPhone as my desktop. It's so weird knowing I have been given  a likelihood of 5 or so years left to live. Really makes you think, and cry. But I look at the world in a whole different way, just in case, you know? But I am not upset about it. I don't know quite why. I invited my father out to visit the other day, as well. We've been estranged since 2010. I am also giving away some of my expensive gadgets and things, like my huge top of the line 3D TV, to some of the staff here on my compound for the holidays. I mean, I don't need them. I like them, but I've worked hard this year and actually made enough money on my own, and not even as much from book sales, and film/TV checks from my distributor, but from Wall Street, my main career, technically as a hedge fund manager, like my father, just on a smaller scale, of course. By the way, regarding my last post, I am aware that 12,000 or so American's have died this year from gun violence, I didn't mean to cause any controversy. I don't know.