In this episode, I sit down with my homie Devan Rajkumar, known publicly as Chef Dev.

We dialogue on topics you may have never seen from Dev. The angle we take it was both deepening and illuminating.

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2:30 - reality: Serious vs playful, devan deconstructed

3:50 - what is ping pong for you? 

5:20 - devan doesn’t lose

6:15: focus in vulnerability *

7:25 - why do people excel

8:25 - oscillation between the fear of failure

10:25 - get into space of liberation through unconditional witnessing 

11:30 - instinct would have been to dismiss what invitations were brought forward

12:05 - excelling due to insecurity

13:00 - 13:50 - deep dives, can sometimes be unsolicited

14:15 - who the fuck am I? **

15:30 - the edge that they hope to nurture. Seen by who on superiority and existentially?

17:30 - parents and mediators

18:30 - consistency in being authentic. Mask for a long time. ** open to dad hearing. to 19:15

19:35 - responsibility vs obligation

20:00 - longing for connection. The story doesn’t matter

21:40 - opportunity for parents 

In this solo episode, I explore the experience of a patient who chose to leave against medical advice in a really rough state and it contrasted the story of death that someone the same age who was my close friend went through.

Thank you for tuning in. More layered stories to come.

My guest on this episode is my dear friend Gina. The show notes are shared below. This conversation touched on deeply important subjects I wish the world would reflect upon! I know I needed it.Gina's love for life and commitment to being in service of others while dancing, singing & playing all the way through.connect with her: instagram.com/ginadaringgreatlyShow notes:3:25 - Origins of connection5:05 - points of transformation - 6:15 - remembered for 7:057:30 - affirming groups - 9:05 9:05 - connection to community, connection to self 10:10 - transform challenge to triumph. Inauthenticity & ego, with humility to name it herself. 12:1012:40 - something happens when Im not listening to the PINGS 13:5514:00 - screams of the accident - 15:5516:00 - people pleasing - no need to show up in the right groups’ - mirror of authenticity & trust - 18:3018:30 - conditional worth - seen in ER 19:55 what does reclaimed unconditional love look and feel like? - 21:15 - the polarization of the ‘people pleaser ‘ ** 23:15 - wounding patterns - until it’s reclaimed - look at those patterns, there’s a little child inside of you. Reclaiming connection with that inner child.25:20 - self love is loving all of your shadows - 26:1026:20 - heroine’s journey - 27:27:30 - **shit** - 29:10 - rock bottom - the end of coping29:50 - relational rock bottom, medicine space, at the core of emotions, shame, and there, too is love. 33:45 - grieving few who have the opportunity to put the guards down. 34:30 - addressing the inner critic36:00 - unconditional witnessing 36:40, profundity, get to work the next day! a reconnection of the highest order 37:2037:25 - integration of transformation 39:30 - life is the ceremony, integration can take a lifetime. 41:3042:30 - psychedelics used to recharge ego when unintegrated 43:10 44:00 the renaissance of perception 45:10 45:20 - new states of habituality45:45 - callous renters during AirBNB, property wake up call.46:50 - window into new ways of thinking and behavingThe autobiography *** 48:3049:50 - child autobiography 51:00 the victory human life 53:15 -Gina dance and play54:10 - play, pleasure, reclamation55:45 - disempower living56:30 - the illusory beliefWhen we are in play, we can Yang better. Yin fuels yang. Need balance. 59:00 children losing play, becoming adults1:00:00 Canadian men’s soccer team1:01:20 - invitation to play - 1:05:001:05:20 - availability to intimacy 1:08:101:08:00 male patriarchy 1:11:30 safe to merge and express needs in order to heal 1:13:001:13:00 sex is a psychedelic1:14:00 sex as a drug1:15:00 the phone and how it robs immersion1:16:20 the intention1:17:15 sex as a coping mechanism 1:18:30 sex as a distraction 1:19:00 - long term relationship so enmeshed1:19:30 emotional rupture, emotional safety, emotional repair. 1:22:30 emotional repair1:22:50 - therapy Get clear on my burdens  and intimacy on every moment 1:25:521:25:55 - pleasure in yourself, distractions,,enrich life1:26:40 - end of life play will ensue, love will ensue, connection1:28:25 - we can have it all with layered prescriptions 1:29:30 - whole, perfect and complete shit1:30:15 - cacophony and tangential, delayed reward1:31:40 - outro*This episode was recorded in March of 2023. Technical issues brought on a delay that have finally been resolved*

Welcome to Season 2!

Im giving a personal update as we dive in.

Some are prescriptions, some are personal frustrations and worldly occurrences that feel like the are rotting at my core at times.

Thank you for being here as I expand on them.

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This episode features Dr Gabrielle Pelicci, Ph.D. She even says herself in the podcast that it's one of the things she does, not who she is! She is so much more than that, as are you.

In the podcast, she describes defining moments in her life that contribute to the layers of who she is today, including her childhood, a mystical experience when her mother passed away when she was 21, the importance of relating in order to heal & psychedelics. In particular, the subject of healing, as her book 'All Of this Healing Is Killing Me' had me reading it literally, whereas she has a unique perspective on what it meant to her. I personally put that title alongside Bessel Van Der Kolk, MD's ' The Body Keeps The Score' for best titles I've ever read.

Near to heart, the role women have played in our history as healers, how that was largely dismissed through the telling of stories through history, and how her dissertation seeked to inform and reilluminate spotlight onto this necessary part of who we are as a civilization stood out in both the podcast and her book.

Please enjoy the podcast and feel free to reach out to Gabrielle or myself if need be!

About Gabrielle:

This show is for information purposes only, and is not intended to provide mental health or medical advice.

This podcast is a story.

One of a close friend of mine and many of you going through a challenging life experience for which a few of us went to support him.

There, in addition to the many things that arose, connection, appreciation, support, brotherhood, patience, pause were all important.

What also became evident were at least 10 illusions that arose that I see in the ER, and in life, too, that everyone upholds more or less, until moments arise where the illusion dissolves.

Top 10 biggest illusions. 

1. Tomorrow

2. Next breath

3. Health

4. Loved ones will be there

5. Functional faculties

6. Immortal

7. Eternal Time

8. Certainty

9. Who you think you are

10. Who you think you aren’t  

Bonus; That You Know

Please, after listening, take some time to contemplate, digest and integrate some of what surfaces in this podcast. If it feels right, like, share, rate and subscribe.

I love you, please enjoy this podcast.

My guest in this episode is my homie Dr. Alex Mailis. We went to York University together in Kinesiology and Health Sciences back in 2004! He's now a doctor of Chiropractic by training and in practice, one of the biggest hearts, with a cadence that embodies kindness and consideration.

Yes, Im saying that about a man. 

We had a powerful conversation on subject including his line of work, how people navigate their lives in pain, the power of appreciation, and the importance of pause. 

I really enjoyed our time together in dialogue, and I am sure you will, too.

Connect with Dr. Alex Mailis here: https://www.instagram.com/dralexmailis/

Work with Dr. Alex Mailis here: https://thepwc.ca/directory/dr-alex-mailis-doctor-of-chiropractic/

And here's his phone number: Just kidding

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This is a unique podcast, in that I had organized a men's gathering at my cottage after having hoped to connect with these high integrity men for over 3 years. We finally made it happen. 10 of us congregated and jumped on the podcast to discuss randomly chosen topics.

It veered into a discussion on traumas, the women in our lives, profound life lessons, medical realities, near death, love & what's on the horizon for masculinity, but most importantly, it highlighted the importance of spaces that men regularly can connect to alleviate the burdens they may carry.

Thank You to the following men who made this conversation possible

Larry Doremus https://www.instagram.com/nanoghost/?hl=en

Chris Hager https://www.instagram.com/casadehager/?hl=en

Eric Morris https://www.instagram.com/eatlocalfish/?hl=en

Ryan Burkholder https://www.instagram.com/burkholdergeneral/?hl=en

Ryan Mullens https://www.instagram.com/mullensryan/?hl=en

David Cedar https://www.instagram.com/davidcedar/?hl=en

Seve Mangrum https://www.instagram.com/sevemangrum/?hl=en

Joe Bubel https://www.instagram.com/josephbubel/?hl=en

Kyle Dow https://www.instagram.com/kyle_dow/?hl=en

Nicolas Canon is a man who is devoted to supporting humanity through many mediums. In person, groups, through medicine retreats. He is a great friend of mine and I even wrote the foreword for his First book ' Grace  - A Practical No Bullshit Journey From Pain to Purpose'. 

Books like this are important, because they have you reflect on how you can incorporate more softness into your life. Every human serves to gain from connecting to the stories that once hurt them, and now lead their lives in surprisingly prevalent ways.

Grace - The Book

https://www.amazon.ca/GRACE-Practical-NO-BULLSH-journey-Purpose/dp/B0BSX2X3ZW/ref=sr_1_1?crid=1SW1TKZ4LGX9G&keywords=nicolas+canon+grace&qid=1675066446&sprefix=nicolas+canon+grace%2Caps%2C83&sr=8-1

Nico's links:

https://www.nicocanon.com/

social:

https://www.instagram.com/nicocanon_

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So many nuggets of gold in this episode with Erick Godsey. When I was listening to this again, I wrote down 74 different topics that we went through! 

It was really important for us to touch on subjects that we both seek to support, address & help, including mental health, and how it is currently treated in a model that is discordant with the psyche and spirit of the individual. Maybe our pragmatic approach is completely inadequate to what is needed, yet completely in line to the times that we live.

He shares the story of the recent passing of his Dear friend. He decided to still do this podcast, and I am grateful that he honoured his friend with the consideration as well.

Erick's links:

https://www.erickgodsey.com/

social:

https://www.instagram.com/erickgodsey

Please enjoy this podcast, share it with anyone who you feel it may be of benefit to, share, rate and subscribe if you feel motivated!