Learn to count your blessings instead of your losses, we don't have the right to question God, its okay to let him know how we feel about a thing, think through the times God has come through and just be appreciative of that.. Don't let your thoughts pressure you but be patient with it, God's will surely come to pass in your life. Do well to write a letter to Abba he is ever ready to listen and will definitely give you a feedback, just write and let him know how you feel