lil booj episodes:

• November 29, 2024you get it all ft. cutdeep (king theta)

  Made it to this point last year

  Ruminating what I did to deserve this

  Crossed arms in the blacked out cashmere

  Like this treatment has a purpose

  It’s cold in my chest another rest won’t make it better

  I used to think it had a reason

  It’s rough out west I’ll tough it out like the weather

  We used to always give it meaning

  Take take take from me what you want

  Take take take from me what you need

  And you get it you get it all

  Yeah ascend the filler might

  Dosing again no wonder why

  Going for days alone you might chase it down

  We get it we get it don’t mind

  And these days your heart reflects all the weather

  Cause it gets colder in December

  And last week when you left thought I’ll get better

  But now I wake up with no purpose

  And you’re so damn broken

  Can’t fix your heart it’s frozen

  And I don’t wanna spend another night alone

  You’re all I know

  Take take take from me what you want

  Take take take from me what you need

  And you get it you get it all

  Yeah ascend the filler might

  Dosing again no wonder why

  Going for days alone you might chase it down

  We get it we get it don’t mind

  ...more

  

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• November 28, 2024pepper (iledless)

  pepper (iledless) by lil booj

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• November 22, 2024clear (dead spyro)

  I’ll melt the sand to make it clear this time around

  And you can weigh it out

  Hold tight to what you found

  I’ll melt the sand to make it clear this time around

  Yeah this time around

  Yeah this time

  2X

  I just wanted to be efficient

  Wanted to help, I’ll listen

  Take care of everything that’s when you were my everything

  I just wanted to be no different

  Wanted to help

  You missing

  All of the reasons and now I can’t deal with anything else

  If I enjoyed being selfish I’d given up on

  this way long ago yeah way back

  And now I’m longing for another go

  No another go

  Need another chance maybe it’ll change that

  Out on the balcony I thought that you were proud of me

  But lately I’ve been waiting for the smoke to get louder

  Don’t think it’s fastening

  My breath goes out keep passing me up

  Hold that to yourself and maybe this will go faster

  2X

  I just wanted to be efficient

  Wanted to help, I’ll listen

  Take care of everything that’s when you were my everything

  I just wanted to be no different

  Wanted to help

  You missing

  All of the reasons and now I can’t deal with anything else

  ...more

  

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• November 15, 2024poor thing (dead spyro)

  Poor thing, thought it went missing

  Darling yeah caught up on a listening

  For why could it end up this way

  Can’t lie yeah I thought they would miss me

  Poor thing, thought it went missing

  Darling yeah caught up on a listening

  For why could it end up this way

  Can’t lie yeah I thought they would miss me

  Hope you got your lenses I'm tough to read like

  Like a poem there's meaning that you just can't see oh

  And whether it's meant to be or whether it was left to me ah

  Yeah I've gotten this way without forcing keys don't force the bleed no

  Would you really resent me if I let go of these maladies in my head

  Leaving me lessening my pain in such a way that leaves me dead

  Poor thing, thought it went missing

  Darling yeah caught up on a listening

  For why could it end up this way

  Can’t lie yeah I thought they would miss me

  Poor thing, thought it went missing

  Darling yeah caught up on a listening

  For why could it end up this way

  Can’t lie yeah I thought they would miss me

  She placed her hand on my collar bone

  Said I wasn’t even going home alone

  Try to keep it alive even though we were doubtful

  Keep telling lies yeah I’m sure it's a mouth full

  Yeah I’m sure it’s a mouthful

  And I’m sure it feels good to believe

  In each and every thing you say

  But it won’t but it won’t be my way

  ...more

  

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• November 09, 2024in the meantime (dead spyro)

  Can I get one more minute before you go and mess it all up

  Would you do that for the meantime meantime

  Would you give one more vision seeing where did you fall from

  Would you do that for the meantime meantime

  Can I get one more minute before you go and mess it all up

  Would you do that for the meantime meantime

  Would you give one more vision seeing where did you fall from

  Would you do that for the meantime meantime

  So persuade me till I’m nauseous

  You don’t wanna be the one to cause this and

  I can be your crash test dummy

  Send me head first I’ll land on my feet

  Evidently burning slowly

  Tired of the pavement show me concrete

  I won’t falter on my own conviction

  Vindicated I don’t feel the sickness

  Listen up when you’ve really gone the distance

  Go ahead you can write it down and list them

  Can I get one more minute before you go and mess it all up

  Would you do that for the meantime meantime

  Would you give one more vision seeing where did you fall from

  Would you do that for the meantime meantime

  Can I get one more minute before you go and mess it all up

  Would you do that for the meantime meantime

  Would you give one more vision seeing where did you fall from

  Would you do that for the meantime meantime

  ...more

  

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• November 09, 2024hex (sorrow bringer)

  Yeah she put me in a hex

  Asked me where we goin next

  Keep it to myself until she ask again

  I just wanna hear her voice

  Second favorite noise beneath another heartbeat heartbeat

  Got a silver necklace on her wrist

  I’ll take us to a place that don’t exist unless we make it up again

  Always end up on her own

  It takes us up and down maybe move into a new town next week

  Propped up by the night sky lit up bright

  No words can describe how I feel this time

  Hold tight we can live here side by side

  Shadow casted by the moon light stay in line

  Frosted over kinda hard for me to read this sign

  Say aloud that you wanted this all confined

  So so so

  Yeah she put me in a hex

  Asked me where we goin next

  Keep it to myself until she ask again

  I just wanna hear her voice

  Second favorite noise beneath another heartbeat heartbeat

  Got a silver necklace on her wrist

  I’ll take us to a place that don’t exist unless we make it up again

  Always end up on her own

  It takes us up and down maybe move into a new town next week

  Oil painting up n down the walls

  Liminal spaces keep her calm

  Keep her on the lull yeah

  I just had another vision think it might come true

  Dressed up nice I can’t recall

  Yeah she put me in a hex

  Asked me where we goin next

  Keep it to myself until she ask again

  I just wanna hear her voice

  Second favorite noise beneath another heartbeat heartbeat

  Got a silver necklace on her wrist

  I’ll take us to a place that don’t exist unless we make it up again

  Always end up on her own

  It takes us up and down maybe move into a new town next week

  ...more

  

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• November 08, 2024early morning promises (king theta)

  Early morning promises never see the light of day

  What was it like when you were half the earth away

  And nights I couldn’t sleep I told myself it wasn’t cause of you

  Now I’m older think it’s over take the hint I’ll take the clue

  I’m just glad I found some folks that keep me around

  And passing down the torch I wish the flame would just go out

  This ideation holds its grip

  I’ve gone too far with it by my side

  This echo goes in my essence

  Don’t abide don’t abide

  It’s just a cheap trick they play to keep you off their mind

  Oh oh

  Early morning promises never see the light of day

  What was it like when you were half the earth away

  And nights I couldn’t sleep I told myself it wasn’t cause of you

  Now I’m older think it’s over take the hint I’ll take the clue

  Afternoon I find myself starting off the day too late

  Remember who I was when you were half the earth away

  Now I cannot eat I cannot sleep no answer will comply

  And now I’m colder broken shoulder lean on me I’ll bid my time

  Is it way too much to ask

  For something in this life

  To maybe just last

  Long enough for me to even know what the hell to do

  I get far enough

  But all I really needed was you

  ...more

  

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• November 03, 2024make it so (pekarot x red jon)

  make it so (pekarot x red jon) by lil booj

  ...more

  

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• October 31, 2024outlasting (michael harrison)

  These dreams that I

  Have seen as of late

  They wake me up quickly as if for my sake

  Cause when I fall

  It’s all done for you

  And know what I’ve done

  I’m pedaling through

  And magnesium and iron pills

  Swallow it down

  To keep me still

  I’ve fallen down

  I get back up

  But not before I felt the ground

  With gravel stuck beneath my skin

  I take a moment to breathe it in

  And what I saw with crystal eyes

  Outlasting me and you combined

  And now I say with certainty

  I am the person I wanna be

  I wanna be

  I wanna be

  I wanna be

  ...more

  

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• October 25, 2024how did you forget ft. brecken + halfhearted (michael harrison)

  And they always ask

  How did you forget

  I didn’t choose to

  I got distracted

  and that’s my fault

  I’ll own up to it like it was written on the ground in chalk

  If I controlled it from the start I think I could make that call

  (brecken)

  I was walking so far

  Thought everything was okay

  Locked in my car

  All the stuff you’d given back to me

  One chance now its all gone

  Coulda give you the world but now i write a song

  About all of the misery that me and you have come by

  I don’t need you temporarily like i need sunlight

  Like life forever and ever just take me back

  I could write a letter cause we’re better with a gap

  I thought it was all good

  Gave you everything that i could

  But you never gave it back to me

  (halfhearted)

  Tryna find my way back up

  Bet you wish you never messed around

  I been tryna keep my head up

  But my demons keep pulling me down

  I gotta get outta this town again

  But you made it so i never get out

  Lay me down to rest in a flowerbed

  Pull my petals and my roots out the ground

  And they always ask

  How did you forget

  I didn’t choose to

  I got distracted

  and that’s my fault

  I’ll own up to it like it was written on the ground in chalk

  If I controlled it from the start I think I could make that call

  ...more

  

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