Living the Questions with Courtney Koester

How might we be reinforcing the very wound we’re trying to heal without even realizing it?

In this episode, I’m reflecting on a deep realization that recently clicked into place for me: that some of our most painful beliefs may be reinforced not only by what we’ve lived through, but by the subtle, unconscious ways we continue abandoning ourselves. I explore what it means to get honest about the wounds that rise to the surface in tender moments, to listen to what we truly believe beneath logic, and to notice how our repeated choices may be communicating something powerful to our inner world.

I talk about the connection between self-abandonment, feeling disposable, people-pleasing, perfectionism, and the quiet ways we may learn to place ourselves last without even realizing the deeper message that sends. I also reflect on what it means to build a more conscious, compassionate relationship with ourselves. One rooted not in cliché or bypass, but in curiosity, honesty, grace, and small brave choices over time.

This is an episode about core wounds, self-worth, relationship, and the slow practice of returning to the parts of ourselves we may have left behind. If you’ve ever struggled to believe that you matter, I hope this conversation offers a place to get curious about what’s been reinforced, what’s ready to be understood differently, and what it might look like to begin offering yourself another way.

Ready to take these conversations deeper?

• Share Your Voice — Leave a voice message with a question you’re living into: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.speakpipe.com/LivingTheQuestions⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Book a 1:1 Conversation Session — Like your own personal episode, these sessions are a space to live your question through thoughtful conversation: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com/conversation-sessions⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Rehumanizing YOU Coaching — This is a space for deep inquiry and integration, where your questions become the path. If you’re ready to untangle old patterns and step into a more aligned, embodied way of being, explore more here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com/rehumanizing-you⁠⁠
• Congruence Workshop -- a place to begin reconnecting: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://kyliemcbeath.myflodesk.com/congruence-evergreen⁠

Resources:

• Website: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Podcast IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/livingthequestionspodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Business IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/ckoesterinspired⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• 1:1 Coaching Offerings: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com/rehumanizing-you⁠⁠

Enjoyed the episode? Don’t forget to subscribe and leave a review! You can also connect with us on Instagram @livingthequestionspodcast or join our community group at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://livingthequestionspodcast.substack.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

Things I Genuinely Love — Affiliate & Community Spotlights:

• ✨ Disobedient Goods & Apparel: offers judgment-free sticker tools for self-guided practice, discovery, and mapping — designed to spark curiosity, connection, and a deeper understanding of the paths we walk. Explore the collection at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠www.disobedientgoods.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and use code LIVINGTHEQUESTIONS15 for 15% off your entire order.

• 🤍 FOND Bone Broth: my personal FAVORITE for nourishing, gut-loving bone broth that’s as comforting as it is healing! Use code: COURTNEY-KOESTER for 10% off at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://fondbonebroth.com/COURTNEY-KOESTER⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠




• ☕️ Living Tea: my go-to source for wild and organic Teas, along with amazing Tea education to deepen your practice! Use code: CKOESTERINSPIRED for 15% off at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.livingtea.net/courtney⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠




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How do we live the questions when life doesn’t go according to plan?

In this one-year reflection on Living the Questions, I’m sharing what this podcast has taught me about creativity, trust, visibility, and the deeply relational nature of being alive. Over this past year, I’ve found myself returning again and again to the tension between making plans and allowing life to unfold. Between wanting direction and needing to leave room for surprise, change, and something more honest than control.

This episode is a reflection of what it means to keep showing up, to keep listening, and to let the questions themselves shape us. I explore discernment, being seen, the unpredictability of life, and the difference between the kind of challenges that deepen us and the ones that ask us to choose ourselves more clearly.

If you’ve been navigating change, uncertainty, or your own unfolding, I hope this conversation meets you there and gives you something honest to sit with.

Ready to take these conversations deeper?

• Share Your Voice — Leave a voice message with a question you’re living into: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.speakpipe.com/LivingTheQuestions⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Book a 1:1 Conversation Session — Like your own personal episode, these sessions are a space to live your question through thoughtful conversation: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com/conversation-sessions⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Rehumanizing YOU Coaching — This is a space for deep inquiry and integration, where your questions become the path. If you’re ready to untangle old patterns and step into a more aligned, embodied way of being, explore more here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com/rehumanizing-you⁠
• Congruence Workshop -- a 60-minute on-demand workshop + 19-page companion workbook filled with grounding practices, reflective prompts + practical tools designed to help you come back into your body, clarify what’s true for you + begin living from a place of deeper congruence: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://kyliemcbeath.myflodesk.com/congruence-evergreen

Resources:

• Website: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Podcast IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/livingthequestionspodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Business IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/ckoesterinspired⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• 1:1 Coaching Offerings: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com/rehumanizing-you⁠

Enjoyed the episode? Don’t forget to subscribe and leave a review! You can also connect with us on Instagram @livingthequestionspodcast or join our community group at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://livingthequestionspodcast.substack.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

Things I Genuinely Love — Affiliate & Community Spotlights:

• ✨ Disobedient Goods & Apparel: offers judgment-free sticker tools for self-guided practice, discovery, and mapping — designed to spark curiosity, connection, and a deeper understanding of the paths we walk. Explore the collection at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠www.disobedientgoods.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and use code LIVINGTHEQUESTIONS15 for 15% off your entire order.

• 🤍 FOND Bone Broth: my personal FAVORITE for nourishing, gut-loving bone broth that’s as comforting as it is healing! Use code: COURTNEY-KOESTER for 10% off at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://fondbonebroth.com/COURTNEY-KOESTER⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠




• ☕️ Living Tea: my go-to source for wild and organic Teas, along with amazing Tea education to deepen your practice! Use code: CKOESTERINSPIRED for 15% off at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.livingtea.net/courtney⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠




• ⭕️ Circle Community: A beautiful, all-in-one location for your community to gather, remain connected, attend workshops, join memberships, etc. Love an aesthetically pleasing and easy-to-organize digital community space. Explore more here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://try.circle.so/8amtv3uilqpo

I’m living into the question of what happens when we stop letting urgency run the show, especially when urgency is shaped by survival instructions we didn’t realize we were still following. This episode came from a week that left me totally run down. Not because I didn’t get everything done, but because I did, and instead of feeling proud, I felt depleted. I’m reflecting on the moments where I override my own limits, when I default to prioritizing what feels most immediately tense or pressing, and how that can unintentionally mean those closest to me receive what’s left over. I explore more about what my survival instructions have been, how this patterns has played out in my life, and what I’m learning about living more congruently with my energy, time, and relationships. This is a conversation about unsustainable doing, softening control, and what it looks like to build a more honest and sustainable rhythm, one where we don’t abandon ourselves in order to keep the peace or "hold it all together."

Ready to take these conversations deeper?

• Share Your Voice — Leave a voice message with a question you’re living into: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.speakpipe.com/LivingTheQuestions⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Book a 1:1 Conversation Session — Like your own personal episode, these sessions are a space to live your question through thoughtful conversation: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com/conversation-sessions⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Rehumanizing YOU Coaching — This is a space for deep inquiry and integration, where your questions become the path. If you’re ready to untangle old patterns and step into a more aligned, embodied way of being, explore more here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com/rehumanizing-you
• Anchored Abundance -- join the waitlist to learn more about this new 7-week journey my dear friend Ky + I are co-creating, all about reclaiming our relational capacity to live, give, receive and belong in a world that has forgotten how: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://kyliemcbeath.myflodesk.com/abundance-waitlist⁠⁠⁠⁠

Resources:

• Website: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Podcast IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/livingthequestionspodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Business IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/ckoesterinspired⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• 1:1 Coaching Offerings: https://www.ckoesterinspired.com/rehumanizing-you

Enjoyed the episode? Don’t forget to subscribe and leave a review! You can also connect with us on Instagram @livingthequestionspodcast or join our community group at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://livingthequestionspodcast.substack.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

Things I Genuinely Love — Affiliate & Community Spotlights:

• ✨ Disobedient Goods & Apparel: offers judgment-free sticker tools for self-guided practice, discovery, and mapping — designed to spark curiosity, connection, and a deeper understanding of the paths we walk. Explore the collection at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠www.disobedientgoods.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and use code LIVINGTHEQUESTIONS15 for 15% off your entire order.

• 🤍 FOND Bone Broth: my personal FAVORITE for nourishing, gut-loving bone broth that’s as comforting as it is healing! Use code: COURTNEY-KOESTER for 10% off at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://fondbonebroth.com/COURTNEY-KOESTER⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠




• ☕️ Living Tea: my go-to source for wild and organic Teas, along with amazing Tea education to deepen your practice! Use code: CKOESTERINSPIRED for 15% off at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.livingtea.net/courtney⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠




• ⭕️ Circle Community: A beautiful, all-in-one location for your community to gather, remain connected, attend workshops, join memberships, etc. Love an aesthetically pleasing and easy-to-organize digital community space. Explore more here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://try.circle.so/8amtv3uilqpo

Have you ever felt like asking for help meant you were somehow falling short? In this week’s solo episode, I share a dream that opened up a deeper layer of my relationship with support, avoidance, and shame. What began as a simple image of not wanting to drive in the rain turned into a powerful reflection on nervous system regulation, internalized pressure to “just push through,” and the quiet bravery of asking for what we need. I explore how often we mistake needing help as "failure" and how transformative it is to reframe it as an act of trust and congruence. This episode is for anyone learning to meet themselves with compassion, especially when it feels like we “should” already be "further along".

Ready to take these conversations deeper?

• Share Your Voice — Leave a voice message with a question you’re living into: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.speakpipe.com/LivingTheQuestions⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Book a 1:1 Conversation Session — Like your own personal episode, these sessions are a space to live your question through thoughtful conversation: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com/conversation-sessions⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Rehumanizing YOU Coaching — This is a space for deep inquiry and integration, where your questions become the path. If you’re ready to untangle old patterns and step into a more aligned, embodied way of being, explore more here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com/coaching-offerings⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Anchored Abundance -- join the waitlist to learn more about this new 7-week journey my dear friend Ky + I are co-creating, all about reclaiming our relational capacity to live, give, receive and belong in a world that has forgotten how: ⁠⁠⁠https://kyliemcbeath.myflodesk.com/abundance-waitlist⁠⁠⁠

Resources:

• Website: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Podcast IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/livingthequestionspodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Business IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/ckoesterinspired⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Coaching Offerings: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com/coaching-offerings⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

Enjoyed the episode? Don’t forget to subscribe and leave a review! You can also connect with us on Instagram @livingthequestionspodcast or join our community group at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://livingthequestionspodcast.substack.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

Things I Genuinely Love — Affiliate & Community Spotlights:

• ✨ Disobedient Goods & Apparel: offers judgment-free sticker tools for self-guided practice, discovery, and mapping — designed to spark curiosity, connection, and a deeper understanding of the paths we walk. Explore the collection at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠www.disobedientgoods.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and use code LIVINGTHEQUESTIONS15 for 15% off your entire order.

• 🤍 FOND Bone Broth: my personal FAVORITE for nourishing, gut-loving bone broth that’s as comforting as it is healing! Use code: COURTNEY-KOESTER for 10% off at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://fondbonebroth.com/COURTNEY-KOESTER⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠




• ☕️ Living Tea: my go-to source for wild and organic Teas, along with amazing Tea education to deepen your practice! Use code: CKOESTERINSPIRED for 15% off at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.livingtea.net/courtney⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠




• ⭕️ Circle Community: A beautiful, all-in-one location for your community to gather, remain connected, attend workshops, join memberships, etc. Love an aesthetically pleasing and easy-to-organize digital community space. Explore more here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://try.circle.so/8amtv3uilqpo

Wow, this episode felt like an exhale to record. It’s an honest reflection on where I am right now: a season of integration, self-trust, and embodied alignment after a long, messy, beautiful descent. I talk about the relationships I’ve rebuilt with parts of myself, especially the anxious, younger part that used to run the show, and how somatic work has helped me create real groundedness. We explore what it means to trust ourselves in real time, to let go of the perfectionism that keeps us braced, and to live our way into new questions, not just answer them. If you’re navigating change, honoring complexity, and/or learning to stay with yourself in the hard and the good, I think you’ll find something here that speaks to your own unfolding too.

Ready to take these conversations deeper?

• Share Your Voice — Leave a voice message with a question you’re living into: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.speakpipe.com/LivingTheQuestions⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Book a 1:1 Conversation Session — Like your own personal episode, these sessions are a space to live your question through thoughtful conversation: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com/conversation-sessions⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Rehumanizing YOU Coaching — This is a space for deep inquiry and integration, where your questions become the path. If you’re ready to untangle old patterns and step into a more aligned, embodied way of being, explore more here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com/coaching-offerings⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Anchored Abundance -- join the waitlist to learn more about this new 7-week journey my dear friend Ky + I are co-creating, all about reclaiming our relational capacity to live, give, receive and belong in a world that has forgotten how: ⁠⁠https://kyliemcbeath.myflodesk.com/abundance-waitlist⁠⁠

Resources:

• Website: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Podcast IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/livingthequestionspodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Business IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/ckoesterinspired⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Coaching Offerings: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com/coaching-offerings⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

Enjoyed the episode? Don’t forget to subscribe and leave a review! You can also connect with us on Instagram @livingthequestionspodcast or join our community group at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://livingthequestionspodcast.substack.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

Things I Genuinely Love — Affiliate & Community Spotlights:

• ✨ Disobedient Goods & Apparel: offers judgment-free sticker tools for self-guided practice, discovery, and mapping — designed to spark curiosity, connection, and a deeper understanding of the paths we walk. Explore the collection at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠www.disobedientgoods.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and use code LIVINGTHEQUESTIONS15 for 15% off your entire order.

• 🤍 FOND Bone Broth: my personal FAVORITE for nourishing, gut-loving bone broth that’s as comforting as it is healing! Use code: COURTNEY-KOESTER for 10% off at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://fondbonebroth.com/COURTNEY-KOESTER⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠




• ☕️ Living Tea: my go-to source for wild and organic Teas, along with amazing Tea education to deepen your practice! Use code: CKOESTERINSPIRED for 15% off at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.livingtea.net/courtney⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠




• ⭕️ Circle Community: A beautiful, all-in-one location for your community to gather, remain connected, attend workshops, join memberships, etc. Love an aesthetically pleasing and easy-to-organize digital community space. Explore more here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://try.circle.so/8amtv3uilqpo

What if remembering who we are isn’t about striving or fixing, but about softening into the truth that’s already there? In this episode, I have the honor of welcoming my dear friend + beautifully-hearted human, Kylie McBeath, for a conversation that feels like a true remembering. We explore the beauty and challenge of weaving our soul work into our lives, especially when we’ve walked through initiations like motherhood, grief, and identity transformation. Kylie shares so vulnerably about navigating the transition from maiden to mother, what it means to reweave our capacity to receive, and how we can soften our way into deeper trust with life. We talk about grief as a doorway, about rehumanizing ourselves in a world that demands extraction, and about what it means to live into interdependence rather than hyper-independence or old models of codependency. If you’ve ever wondered what it means to live in alignment with your values while holding many identities and responsibilities or what it might look like to open to abundance in a way that doesn’t require overworking or abandoning yourself, this one is for you.

Kylie McBeath is a woman / mother / wife living these questions:

• How do I weave my soul’s work with the sacred work of motherhood?
• What does true interdependence look like beyond codependency or hyper-independence?
• How can I soften into receiving while staying anchored in who I am?
• What does it mean to steward the next generation and the earth with integrity and regard?
• How do grief and joy open the doorway to deeper abundance?

Connect with Kylie:

• Kylie's Substack: https://kyliemcbeath.substack.com/
• Kylie's Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/beingisbeautiful

Invitation to Join Us for Anchored Abundance:
If this conversation stirred something in you, if you're longing to live with more integrity, nourishment, and alignment, we’d love to invite you into Anchored Abundance, our 7-week journey into somatic integration, relational healing, and rehumanized ways of living, working, and receiving.

Together, we’ll explore how to soften out of survival patterns, reweave our capacity to receive, and create lives rooted in enoughness, devotion, and shared care.

✨ As a listener of Living the Questions podcast, you can use the special code PODCAST for $111 off through Friday, October 10, 2025.

Learn more + register here: https://kyliemcbeath.myflodesk.com/anchored-abundance

Ready to take these conversations deeper?

• Share Your Voice — Leave a voice message with a question you’re living into: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.speakpipe.com/LivingTheQuestions⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Book a 1:1 Conversation Session — These sessions are a space to live your question through thoughtful conversation: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com/conversation-sessions⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Rehumanizing YOU Coaching — This is a space for deep inquiry and integration, where your questions become the path. If you’re ready to untangle old patterns and step into a more aligned, embodied way of being, explore more here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com/coaching-offerings⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

Things I Genuinely Love — Affiliate & Community Spotlights:

• ✨ Disobedient Goods & Apparel: offers judgment-free sticker tools for self-guided practice, discovery, and mapping — designed to spark curiosity, connection, and a deeper understanding of the paths we walk. Explore the collection at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠www.disobedientgoods.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and use code LIVINGTHEQUESTIONS15 for 15% off your entire order.

• 🤍 FOND Bone Broth: my personal FAVORITE for nourishing, gut-loving bone broth that’s as comforting as it is healing! Use code: COURTNEY-KOESTER for 10% off at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://fondbonebroth.com/COURTNEY-KOESTER⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠




• ☕️ Living Tea: my go-to source for wild and organic Teas, along with amazing Tea education to deepen your practice! Use code: CKOESTERINSPIRED for 15% off at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.livingtea.net/courtney⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

I’m so thrilled to share this first guest conversation of Season Two with my dear friend, James-Olivia Chu Hillman. Our relationship has been a constant source of depth, curiosity, and sweetness in my life and this episode is an invitation to sit at the table with us as we move through big questions about devotion, attention, regard, belonging, and the everyday practices that root us in who we are becoming. Together, we explore what it means to live into devotion, to place our attention with care, to tend to “spiritual and relational hygiene,” to honor our changing bodies and seasons, to discern what is truly urgent within our collective, and to remember that belonging is both essential and reciprocal. This is a conversation about living into the questions of being human and I hope it meets you where you are as it did for me.

James-Olivia Chu Hillman is a facilitator, mediator, and lover of extraordinary, uncomfortable, life-changing conversations. They teach skills for relating across difference and guide people into deeper joy, connection, and right relationship — with themselves, their communities, and the world. Drawing on the lived experience of moving through life in the U.S. as an autistic, multi-racial and sometimes white-presenting “other,” James-Olivia brings relentless compassion, radical inquiry, and a wholehearted refusal to abandon discomfort in service of truth and belonging. At the heart of their work is a devotion to disobedience, regard, and the belief that we can learn (and unlearn) our way back into relationship even when it’s messy, uncertain, or hard.

Connect with James-Olivia:

• James-Olivia’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/inquisitive_human
• James-Olivia’s Website: https://inquisitivehuman.com

References From Episode:

• Andrea Gibson's Invitation: https://www.facebook.com/AndreaGibsonPoetry/posts/one-of-our-deepest-human-desires-is-to-be-known-and-ive-learned-that-to-know-peo/692232118929953/
• Christabel Mintah-Galloway, RN, BSN's Post: https://www.instagram.com/p/DGdvIy3Om7s/?igsh=ZnlzZHBxeW5naG9h⁠

Ready to take these conversations deeper?

• Share Your Voice — Leave a voice message with a question you’re living into: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.speakpipe.com/LivingTheQuestions⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Book a 1:1 Conversation Session — These sessions are a space to live your question through thoughtful conversation: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com/conversation-sessions⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Rehumanizing YOU Coaching — This is a space for deep inquiry and integration, where your questions become the path. If you’re ready to untangle old patterns and step into a more aligned, embodied way of being, explore more here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com/coaching-offerings⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Anchored Abundance -- join this new 7-week journey my dear friend Ky + I are co-creating, all about reclaiming our relational capacity to live, give, receive and belong in a world that has forgotten how: ⁠⁠https://kyliemcbeath.myflodesk.com/anchored-abundance

Things I Genuinely Love — Affiliate & Community Spotlights:

• ✨ Disobedient Goods & Apparel: offers judgment-free sticker tools for self-guided practice, discovery, and mapping — designed to spark curiosity, connection, and a deeper understanding of the paths we walk. Explore the collection at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠www.disobedientgoods.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and use code LIVINGTHEQUESTIONS15 for 15% off your entire order.

• 🤍 FOND Bone Broth: my personal FAVORITE for nourishing, gut-loving bone broth that’s as comforting as it is healing! Use code: COURTNEY-KOESTER for 10% off at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://fondbonebroth.com/COURTNEY-KOESTER⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠




• ☕️ Living Tea: my go-to source for wild and organic Teas, along with amazing Tea education to deepen your practice! Use code: CKOESTERINSPIRED for 15% off at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.livingtea.net/courtney⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

Have you ever asked yourself, “Am I doing this for me or because I don’t want to upset someone else?” In this episode, I talk about what it’s been like to move from old patterns of people-pleasing into deeper self-trust, and how murky that process can be. We talk about internal safety, the tension of not knowing yet, and why it’s okay if things aren’t clear right away. If you’re learning how to take care of yourself and still stay connected to others, without abandoning either, this is for you.

Ready to take these conversations deeper?

• Share Your Voice — Leave a voice message with a question you’re living into: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.speakpipe.com/LivingTheQuestions⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Book a 1:1 Conversation Session — Like your own personal episode, these sessions are a space to live your question through thoughtful conversation: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com/conversation-sessions⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Rehumanizing YOU Coaching — This is a space for deep inquiry and integration, where your questions become the path. If you’re ready to untangle old patterns and step into a more aligned, embodied way of being, explore more here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com/coaching-offerings⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Anchored Abundance -- join the waitlist to learn more about this new 7-week journey my dear friend Ky + I are co-creating, all about reclaiming our relational capacity to live, give, receive and belong in a world that has forgotten how: ⁠https://kyliemcbeath.myflodesk.com/abundance-waitlist⁠

Resources:

• Website: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Podcast IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/livingthequestionspodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Business IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/ckoesterinspired⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Coaching Offerings: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com/coaching-offerings⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

Enjoyed the episode? Don’t forget to subscribe and leave a review! You can also connect with us on Instagram @livingthequestionspodcast or join our community group at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://livingthequestionspodcast.substack.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

Things I Genuinely Love — Affiliate & Community Spotlights:

• ✨ Disobedient Goods & Apparel: offers judgment-free sticker tools for self-guided practice, discovery, and mapping — designed to spark curiosity, connection, and a deeper understanding of the paths we walk. Explore the collection at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠www.disobedientgoods.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and use code LIVINGTHEQUESTIONS15 for 15% off your entire order.

• 🤍 FOND Bone Broth: my personal FAVORITE for nourishing, gut-loving bone broth that’s as comforting as it is healing! Use code: COURTNEY-KOESTER for 10% off at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://fondbonebroth.com/COURTNEY-KOESTER⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠




• ☕️ Living Tea: my go-to source for wild and organic Teas, along with amazing Tea education to deepen your practice! Use code: CKOESTERINSPIRED for 15% off at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.livingtea.net/courtney⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠




• ⭕️ Circle Community: A beautiful, all-in-one location for your community to gather, remain connected, attend workshops, join memberships, etc. Love an aesthetically pleasing and easy-to-organize digital community space. Explore more here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://try.circle.so/8amtv3uilqpo

As the seasons shift, I’ve been thinking a lot about time -- not just the kind that lives on a clock, but the kind that moves through the body, the heart, the soul. This past year has been one of deep undoing and even deeper remembering. In this first episode of season two, I’m sharing some honest reflections on what it’s looked like to live inside grief and transformation, to walk the lonely road of coming back to myself, and to honor the milestones no one else can see. If you’ve ever found yourself in a season where everything looked still on the outside but everything was changing inside, this one is for you.

Ready to take these conversations deeper?

• Share Your Voice — Leave a voice message with a question you’re living into: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.speakpipe.com/LivingTheQuestions⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Book a 1:1 Conversation Session — Like your own personal episode, these sessions are a space to live your question through thoughtful conversation: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com/conversation-sessions⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Rehumanizing YOU Coaching — This is a space for deep inquiry and integration, where your questions become the path. If you’re ready to untangle old patterns and step into a more aligned, embodied way of being, explore more here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com/coaching-offerings⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Anchored Abundance -- join the waitlist to learn more about this new 7-week journey my dear friend Ky + I are co-creating, all about reclaiming our relational capacity to live, give, receive and belong in a world that has forgotten how: https://kyliemcbeath.myflodesk.com/abundance-waitlist

Resources:

• Website: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Podcast IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/livingthequestionspodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Business IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/ckoesterinspired⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Coaching Offerings: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com/coaching-offerings⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

Enjoyed the episode? Don’t forget to subscribe and leave a review! You can also connect with us on Instagram @livingthequestionspodcast or join our community group at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://livingthequestionspodcast.substack.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

Things I Genuinely Love — Affiliate & Community Spotlights:

• ✨ Disobedient Goods & Apparel: offers judgment-free sticker tools for self-guided practice, discovery, and mapping — designed to spark curiosity, connection, and a deeper understanding of the paths we walk. Explore the collection at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠www.disobedientgoods.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and use code LIVINGTHEQUESTIONS15 for 15% off your entire order.

• 🤍 FOND Bone Broth: my personal FAVORITE for nourishing, gut-loving bone broth that’s as comforting as it is healing! Use code: COURTNEY-KOESTER for 10% off at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://fondbonebroth.com/COURTNEY-KOESTER⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠




• ☕️ Living Tea: my go-to source for wild and organic Teas, along with amazing Tea education to deepen your practice! Use code: CKOESTERINSPIRED for 15% off at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.livingtea.net/courtney⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠




• ⭕️ Circle Community: A beautiful, all-in-one location for your community to gather, remain connected, attend workshops, join memberships, etc. Love an aesthetically pleasing and easy-to-organize digital community space. Explore more here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://try.circle.so/8amtv3uilqpo

Ah, we're here — the final episode of season one of Living the Questions! It's wild to think this podcast began as a simple idea and a brave invitation to self — no clear roadmap, just a willingness to take it one step, one episode at a time and let it become what it wanted to be. And now, looking back on this full season, I’m deeply proud of what we’ve co-created here.

In this episode, I reflect not just on the themes, questions, and lessons we explored, but on how much this space invited me to live into the making of it — just as we’ve been invited to live into the questions themselves. The process of creating this podcast mirrored its own message: we found the shape by showing up, one honest step at a time.

This is a tender, spacious look back at what it means to become through vulnerability, wise discernment + protection, and the quiet unfolding of self-trust. I share what surprised me, the clarity I’ve lived into, what I’m integrating, embodying + still walking with, and the questions that revealed themselves along the way.

This collection of episodes has been a practice in returning to Self + remembering our humanness and I’m so grateful to have shared this journey with you! Here’s to everything this inaugural season has been + to the seeds it’s planted for what comes next!

Ready to take these conversations deeper?

• Share Your Voice — Leave a voice message with a question you’re living into: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.speakpipe.com/LivingTheQuestions⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Book a 1:1 Conversation Session — Like your own personal episode, these sessions are a space to live your question through thoughtful conversation: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com/conversation-sessions⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Rehumanizing YOU Coaching — This is a space for deep inquiry and integration, where your questions become the path. If you’re ready to untangle old patterns and step into a more aligned, embodied way of being, explore more here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com/coaching-offerings⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

Resources:

• Website: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Podcast IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/livingthequestionspodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Business IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/ckoesterinspired⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠
• Coaching Offerings: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.ckoesterinspired.com/coaching-offerings⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

Enjoyed the episode? Don’t forget to subscribe and leave a review! You can also connect with us on Instagram @livingthequestionspodcast or join our community group at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://livingthequestionspodcast.substack.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

Things I Genuinely Love — Affiliate & Community Spotlights:

• ✨ Disobedient Goods & Apparel: offers judgment-free sticker tools for self-guided practice, discovery, and mapping — designed to spark curiosity, connection, and a deeper understanding of the paths we walk. Explore the collection at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠www.disobedientgoods.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and use code LIVINGTHEQUESTIONS15 for 15% off your entire order.

• ❤️ Nisha Mody Coaching: Nisha provides short- and long-term coaching to help people who were taught to meet everyone else’s needs except their own to stop keeping themselves small (and be in their fullest expression!) If you’ve never coached with Nisha, email her at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠[email protected]⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, mention what you loved about this episode, and she’ll give you a free coaching session until June 24, 2025.

• 🤍 FOND Bone Broth: my personal FAVORITE for nourishing, gut-loving bone broth that’s as comforting as it is healing! Use code: COURTNEY-KOESTER for 10% off at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://fondbonebroth.com/COURTNEY-KOESTER⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠




• ☕️ Living Tea: my go-to source for wild and organic Teas, along with amazing Tea education to deepen your practice! Use code: CKOESTERINSPIRED for 15% off at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.livingtea.net/courtney⁠⁠⁠⁠




• ⭕️ Circle Community: A beautiful, all-in-one location for your community to gather, remain connected, attend workshops, join memberships, etc. Love an aesthetically pleasing and easy-to-organize digital community space. Explore more here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://try.circle.so/8amtv3uilqpo