Chris e harv

That's how your name was saved in my phone at first

Then you started showing your ass

And I changed it to “growing”

So id have patience with you and give you a pass

Cause my big heart, life experience, and gods gifts

Gave me the ability to see through people's walls and facades

You kept the best parts of you out of dodge

Only pouring your feelings into me with each stroke

“You love me”

Yes, id say

“Say it”

I love you

“I luh yo ass too”

The first time was on mothers day and I blocked you the next day

We’ve been playing this game

you push

and I run away

You call and text and dm from burner accounts

Begging for another chance to let me down

Just when I finally settle into the idea of just fucking you

Released my hopes and dreams of more into the ethers

You come collect my soul like the pussy reaper

Soaking your mattress through two towels and your sheets

I still find jewelry that wasn’t left by me

A sight I wasn’t surprised to see

Cause I was already shown in a dream

And again you say unto me

“I luh yo ass too”

And the hopeless romantic in me wants to believe it's true

And though I play dumb with you

I clearly see the lies and contradictions

Your words and actions never align

Until you slide ya dick in

Now my ass over here writing poems

Eyes getting sweaty

Calling my friends and venting

I love you and I hate you

I know it's a cliche too

I wish I could take the dick and leave you

I look too good

I'm too fucking fine

My head to fucking fire

To get dragged by the likes of you

I'm a Goddess and we both know it

Your an incubus and it's been showing

The way you feed on my energy

I give you life

All at the expense of my own heart's strife

But I'm done with your games

I remember my name

The cancer new moon has made the scene plain

My mind, my heart and pussy are on the same page

Protected by a violet flame

I'm walking away

I'm releasing my shame and guilt

I'm done trying to bend you to my will

Who am I to try and change your mind

You've already decided you're not worthy of good big deep full love

And Maybe you're not

You would know better than i

*sigh*

I exhale the in hell

I've inhaled in your hell

Letting go of the ties that bind

Releasing all chords to the divine skies

I am free of you

And you are free of me

Returning your energy back 3 times 3