That's how your name was saved in my phone at first
Then you started showing your ass
And I changed it to “growing”
So id have patience with you and give you a pass
Cause my big heart, life experience, and gods gifts
Gave me the ability to see through people's walls and facades
You kept the best parts of you out of dodge
Only pouring your feelings into me with each stroke
The first time was on mothers day and I blocked you the next day
We’ve been playing this game
You call and text and dm from burner accounts
Begging for another chance to let me down
Just when I finally settle into the idea of just fucking you
Released my hopes and dreams of more into the ethers
You come collect my soul like the pussy reaper
Soaking your mattress through two towels and your sheets
I still find jewelry that wasn’t left by me
A sight I wasn’t surprised to see
Cause I was already shown in a dream
And again you say unto me
And the hopeless romantic in me wants to believe it's true
And though I play dumb with you
I clearly see the lies and contradictions
Your words and actions never align
Until you slide ya dick in
Now my ass over here writing poems
Calling my friends and venting
I love you and I hate you
I wish I could take the dick and leave you
To get dragged by the likes of you
I'm a Goddess and we both know it
Your an incubus and it's been showing
The way you feed on my energy
All at the expense of my own heart's strife
But I'm done with your games
The cancer new moon has made the scene plain
My mind, my heart and pussy are on the same page
Protected by a violet flame
I'm releasing my shame and guilt
I'm done trying to bend you to my will
Who am I to try and change your mind
You've already decided you're not worthy of good big deep full love
You would know better than i
I've inhaled in your hell
Letting go of the ties that bind
Releasing all chords to the divine skies
Returning your energy back 3 times 3