*TRIGGER WARNING* listener discretion is advised, with discussions of relationships, emotional abuse, control/manipulation, ED, self-harming, and suicide ideation. there is also sexually explicit language and profanity. i read an account from my life in 2019, nearly five years later. this is the first part. just happened to find it in my room weeks ago, or perhaps the past couple of months since we last spoke together. stay tuned. xo