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Thanks for joining me for Season 1, this is our Season 1 finale episode. Join us in the coming months for the start of Season 2 (to be announced). We hit 34 episodes!

Hey, I need to be real to your right now. I’m so scared. I’m so scared about whether I’ll be able to make this Tv show. Why did I make the stakes so high? Why didn’t I walk away from it like I could have last year? I could be sipping on fresh coconuts in a hammock somewhere in Southeast Asia worrying about when my hair is going to turn grey. Instead, I’m freaking out about something that is still very much an idea. It hasn’t even grown into a business, no one has said anything, it’s all just a bunch of words on a piece of paper.

I stopped dreaming recently, I mean, I still had dreams while I slept, I stopped having dreams about my life. About who I wanted to be, about where I wanted to end up. I guess it’s just the reality of life, that eventually, maybe in your 20s, or maybe in your 30s, you get hit hard in the face by a good dose of reality. How does it feel? It stings. It feels like that time when you woke up from being asleep and miss being back asleep.

What are the stakes? Well, failure for one thing. Not being able to hit the bullseye. Our life is short so we’re told we have little room for error. But isn’t that the beauty of life, you should see the light side of it, otherwise, we’re all doomed to setting unrealistic expectations. You should embrace the idea that you can fail because it means you’re really living, you’re really taking risks worth taking.

What’s my dream right now? Well, like you, it’s probably to make something worthwhile out of this life. What does that mean? Well, I’m still trying to figure out the answer, but I think it involves giving back to society. If you’ve already got a dim view of people then you’re a goner. You’ve got to see the best in humanity.

I also need to stop dating. It takes up a lot of social energy- firstly, you want to create a good impression, so you spend a lot of time preparing for a date. You think about the kind of experience the other person wants to have, would you rather be exciting and surprise her or play it safe? I’ve always played it safe,  but I know I used to be far more exciting when I was younger. Dating and travelling. Two privileged things that go beyond the expectations I ever had for my life, but two things that are taking me away from my career goals. I want to be successful in my podcast, but I can’t be if I’m delaying writing a podcast because I had the most amazing date and I’m not at home to record it.