WELP, I'm all the way divorced now. Feeling like I had lost SO much of life pointlessly to person who could have cared less. What was I supposed to do now?? Well, I don't know what I was "supposed" to be doing,  but I sure know what I "was" doing - making EVERY kind of bad discussion there was to make!! Clubbin', Sexin', Smokin', and all the other shenanigans that hurting people do. 

BUT GOD!!! His mercy continually kept me from myself and I am ever so grateful. He was never far away. God ever so graciously let me -do me- and then as He has a way of doing, He began to pull me right on back in.