Quiet Moments with Quilla; Redefining Life's Chaos

What happens when God says NO; when He gives you a desire of your heart and then takes it away? 

Listen in, as my guest Sophia Browne talks about illogical faith and believing God after major disappointment.  Losing a baby at 28 weeks gestation and then finding out you that she had cervical cancer.

May 2nd was Bereaved Mother's Day (in case you didn't know, like I didn't), lets take some time out of our day to remember the women who have loved and lost their babies 💔💕.

Ms. Tamika L. Blythers is an educator of over 20yrs, an author, and a superb transformational speaker who is always ready with a word. 

Get ready to enjoy, be encouraged, and be enlightened because she is is coming with the GEMS! Here are a few tidbits of what we're talking about in this episode...

Resetting the default. Being intentional. Seeing, saying, getting. and V.O.W.; 9 Points of Impact Transformational Guide to Greater.

Wife and mother of two tween boys, Billita Robinson asked to be dropped off at the ER for what she THOUGHT was an asthma attack and ended up in a coma for 4 days!!   Listen to this episode as she recounts her near death experience and how she knows that it was nothing but the hand of God that kept her!!

Evangelist Sheryll Roberts shares her story of being sexually violated by family members from the ages of 4-15. How she was angry at God for allowing such things to happen, microwavable healing, and ultimately asking God to give her a desire to forgive those who had wronged her. Listen in as she talks about her road to hope and healing.

After recording the last episode, Alexis and I had a side bar conversation (as usual) and decided to record some of it. It's raw and uncut, no fancy background music... just straight facts. You gotta listen to understand, I don't want to ruin it with details, sorry-not sorry.

Minister Alexis M. Lott dropped by and talked about ALL KINDS OF CHAOS that she's experienced... being born as a product of infidelity, having sickle cell disease, molested at a young age, AND abuse at the hands of a parental figure!!  WHEW, she's had to navigate through some seasons of hardship and struggle to say the least. 

Listen in as Alexis shared how God pursued her and brought her to the other side of safety. She is now a life coach (and a brand strategist) helping other women by leading them into purpose and out of trauma.

A few months before my first shunt revision when my baby was only a few months old I remember saying “I don’t like my baby and I don't think he likes me either” Crazy, right? Those headaches had me trippin'. But honestly even after the revisions, something still wasn’t quite right. I STILL WASN’T QUITE RIGHT. I would have these crying spells and be completely overwhelmed with caring for him; mentally, emotionally, and especially physically. And yet, I pressed. I was determined to press beyond the pain as I always somehow have been able to do. But this thang wasn’t moving. 

I never experienced any of this with the other kids. I reached out to a few other fairly new moms about what I was going through and the common thing that came up was postpartum depression, anxiety, and rage. I sought out a new therapist/counselor, one that I felt could relate my new norm. I also have an upcoming appointment with my primary doctor to discuss my concerns and if medicine is the solution, then so be it.  

There is not one situation that God does not/is not/cannot/ will not/did not overcome and we have instructions on how to do the same, even if it's with the help of medical professionals and medication. Use ALL of the sources AND resources that God left at our disposal.

I remember posting on social media something like "when it’s your passion, you do it on purpose." I also remember posting one day that God had opened up the floodgates of heavens, meaning that internally the creative waters were flowing and God had reopened my access to vision. So boom; putting two and two together, there you have it folks, … the name of my business absolutely had to be Floodgate Purpose & Passions LLC.  

Just break things further into perspective for you, one of the definitions of floodgate is a last restraint holding back an outpouring of something powerful or substantial. So when God opened the floodgates (unclogged my shunt because the fluid wasn’t flowing properly) it opened my portal for some powerful creativity to just flow. I now know that was His purpose all along and the passion I have now is a result of it all. The Floodgate opened, purpose flowed, and passion exuded.

I realized that in 2020 I was constantly triggered by different things. From the fear of another shunt malfunction, to being a new mom again, potential marital issues, any and every thing was becoming a trigger. My moods were going bananas all the time. My past was brought to the forefront again because of the podcast and book, and here I was, stuck… again, ughhhhh. I knew it would be a matter of time before I had to get back in counseling, for the sake of my assignment and the remainder of my sanity.