I realized that in 2020 I was constantly triggered by different things. From the fear of another shunt malfunction, to being a new mom again, potential marital issues, any and every thing was becoming a trigger. My moods were going bananas all the time. My past was brought to the forefront again because of the podcast and book, and here I was, stuck… again, ughhhhh. I knew it would be a matter of time before I had to get back in counseling, for the sake of my assignment and the remainder of my sanity.