Idk what hormones are flowing through me right now that’s got me so excited and high energy but we must ride the wave while we can. This is to keep my damn self accountable on taking all these big feelings I have and turning it into something I can look back and be proud of. Something to comfort me in my time of need. Something to validate myself because I’m tired of craving the external validation of others and it’s gotten me nowhere but a prescription for the big sads I feel. And a big ass chip on my shoulder. It’s not all my fault but we have to take responsibility for the chip and create a delicious dip that fuels our bodies. What am I even talking about? Guess what? it doesn’t matter! Because no one may ever see this!!! How freeing! Did I ever talk about perception in a podcast? I’m sure I have. Maybe we should revisit that topic. Anyway, I love you so much. Talk to you later, bye. 💕

We jump from late 2024 to early 2026. Once again loneliness and longing has brought me to ramble with no point really but to get it out and comfort myself and maybe you.