If I go back out I really will die due to my chronic health issues.

A consistent food plan is my salvation.

I share about my issues to let others know they are not alone.

I have friends outside of OA and they are Real friends.

Over 350 when I graduated HS.

On going pattern - Loose weight, have emotions, put it back.

Complacency does not support recovery.

When I had emotional pain in any form, food and sex really did help relieve it... for a while

I no longer focus on the food, I focus on my surrender. Seems to work better.

My need for acceptance led me to some REALLY BAD choices.

For me real healing must include abstinence.

Three questions for offering help.

I didn't come to OA to suffer, I came to be free. Today I am.

My process or recovery was SLOWbriety.

My Dad locked food not knowing what to do with me.

In college I had unsupervised access to all the food I wanted.

 * * Missing first 2 minutes of the talk * * *

Diets and drama worked for a minute.

I got to 12 step though my husbands' recovery.

Real recovery is more than meetings and prayer.

Terror, fear and hunger all felt the same in my body.

Yellow light foods are really red light foods I am unwilling to give up.

I was born prematurely. That was the last time I was underweight.

Growing up we showed love with food. I couldn't get enough love or food.

I did lots of diets, They all worked for a while and only once.

Every time I thought I was doing great it led to my doing poorly and then regaining my weight.

I finally surrendered into the program over a can of oysters.

At my highest weight I was using a cane. Any physical activity was a challenge.

I recently played Basketball. Different set of emotional flooded me than I was used to.

My life was finding a way to fill the void which could not even describe.

I fled from people who liked me because something had to be wrong with them.

My eating kicked in when I gave up smoking.

OA was not my first 12 step program. Any 12 step program started improving my life.

Having a structured program works for me. I want freedom of choice but that did not work.

Black was slimming ... I thought

The most important amends that I had to make,  that took the longest, was to myself.

Abstinence did not suddenly give me social skills.

Relapse is part of my story. Acknowledging in allows me to help others who may be struggling and ashamed.

My goals ended up being limiting. God had way better plans for me.

I use tool every day.

Defiance is still one of my character defects.

Today my food plan and my lifestyle activities directly support my health.

Growing up alcohol was just liquid sugar.

I was stealing food in first grade.

As youngest of 11children  I was in the 'who could loose weight' family competition in the third grade.

I failed at anorexia and bulimia.

Sugar was my 'drug' of choice.

By 22 I was over 300 lbs

Gained and lost over 100 lbs at least 6 times.

Nailed the program. Lost weight, spoke, was a super hero for a moment.

The message of OA is welcoming, supportive and available to all who want it. All excuses are accepted.

Black and white abstinence is the only thing the works for me. I don't do well with 'wiggle room'

Nothing changed until I got a sponsor.

HOW had the food plan I rejected/needed/accepted but actually led to weight loss.

I needed the program much longer than I wanted it. Today I want it.

I was told Our built in freezer would kill me. I went in all the time.

I used food to feel better. I used Alcohol to not feel at all.

I would eat as if it was I was in a blackout.

They said it's not about the food but I wasn't buying it.

Even putting down the food did not make my life manageable.

The more I try to control others the more stress I experience.