Episode 047 of Living in Response is a deep reflection into how much time I actually spend thinking instead of being.

Thanks for witnessing this raw, WIP, journey into presence, purpose, and life <3

Topics Covered in This Episode:Summarized (mostly) with AI

1️⃣ What This Podcast IsI open by naming something I rarely do: this is Living in Response, an unfiltered, unedited podcast about being in process. I share what’s alive as it arises—no polished narrative, just truth in motion.

2️⃣ The Spiritual Overwhelm LoopI name a repeating cycle: dive deep into spiritual teachings → rush through as much as I can hoping to get somewhere → become emotionally overwhelmed → put it all down → get pulled in again. This time, I saw it more clearly—and it felt different.

3️⃣ The Trainwreck in My MindI describe my thoughts like a chaotic train station—20 thought trains crashing, honking, carrying passengers and packages, all at once. The overwhelm became so intense that I ended up crying at my desk.

4️⃣ The Reset ButtonI walk through how I soothed myself back into presence: a bath, grounding food, rest, walking, and just being. These simple acts—done with presence—reset the noise and returned me to my body.

5️⃣ The Loop Returns… FastEven after the clarity, I found myself immediately back in the loop—researching, spending money, justifying purchases. I caught myself this time, but not before adding two new mindfulness trainings to my digital pile.

6️⃣ The Missing Ingredient: MindfulnessI realize that despite all my spiritual practices, I wasn’t actually practicing mindfulness. I was doing inner work—but not being with my life. Not walking, cooking, brushing my cat with presence. That changes now.

7️⃣ Revisiting Jon Kabat-ZinnI return to Wherever You Go, There You Are and realize how little I understood the first time. The book now feels like a balm. I reflect on the difference between meditating to “do” and meditating to be.

8️⃣ From Thinking to BeingI explore how even though I’ve meditated for years, I’ve often been “doing” inside my meditations—coherence, breathwork, energy work. Mindfulness invites me to stop doing and simply be with what’s here.

9️⃣ Slowing Down Changes EverythingI describe the difference between unconscious reaction and conscious response. With mindfulness, I’m starting to pause before I act—before I buy another course, before I rush into “the next thing.”

🔟 Rewriting What Consistency MeansI reflect on my past episodes and how this podcast has been a thread through it all. It’s not about perfection. It’s about showing up. And maybe that’s what consistency really is—returning again, and again, and again.

🌀 The Bottom Line: It’s All Right HereThis episode is about seeing the loop more clearly, letting go of the need to transcend, and choosing mindfulness as a way of life. The future isn’t the answer.

Mentions & Resourcesnot affiliated, just a fan

📘 Wherever You Go, There You Are by Jon Kabat-Zinn – A return to the roots of mindfulness🧘 Mindfulness & Meditation – Present-moment practices, not mental performance💸 Unconscious Spending – A pattern I’m meeting with curiosity, not shame🎤 This Podcast – The path unfolding, one real-time reflection at a time

❤️ Core Message (@ me) ❤️Mindfulness isn’t something you master. It’s something you return to. Again and again. Even when you forget. Especially when you forget. Because noticing is the practice—and being is enough.

Eternally grateful for this journey of awakening (life).

Mystically,

Belle

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